She said a lot of things. I bow my head and sniff.
Look at me now. Once again I wince from his demand, but I lift my head to his hard gaze. He reaches out and takes hold of my chin with his fingers so that I can’t look away. You need to believe exactly what I’m about to tell you, because I’m not repeating it for everyone to hear ever again.
…Okay.
I didn’t love her or care for her. I never have. I won’t sit here and tell you things you want to hear, either. I’ve done stuff I’m not proud of before I met you. With Jenny it was just sex, and honestly, I didn’t care much for her feelings or respected her body, so I did what I wanted. I was young and fucked up and she was a way to take out my frustration because she id Marcus’ daughter. I’ve lived with knowing who killed my parents since I was seventeen and I wanted to make everyone pay. I wanted her to pay for her fathers crimes. Not like she didn’t deserve it.
Tears trickle down my face. I’m speechless by his brutal honesty. Colton has never been this open with me and it only makes me more curious of his back story.
I haven’t touched her since I met you. I couldn’t and she hated that. She said all that stuff to get to you, and now look, you’ve lost it because she played with your head. That was her plan. I never wanted to hurt you or for you to be in this situation. Hurt me all you want, I will take it any day. Hurt me, beat me and throw picture frames at me, and I will still take it. But never think for a minute that I will do any of that stuff back. I love you and only you. I don’t know what else to say or do to make you understand this. I’m trying my best for you.
My heart starts racing. I bow my head embarrassingly. I know I shouldn’t have believed Jenny. He’s right. Of course she would lie to mess with me. But there was so much I don’t know about Colton and my feelings for him are already so strong.
I’m sorry, I whisper. It scares me. You scare me. These feelings…
He wraps his arms around me and cradles me against his chest. I will never forgive myself for hurting you.
I bite my lip and we stay like that for a while, just letting time pass us by as we sit on the kitchen floor, hugging each other.
My body finally relaxes and my tears stop. I’m used to being so emotional. Colton pulls away just as the kitchen door flies open. I gasp when I see Ray standing with a bag hanging from his shoulder.
When he sees me, he smiles. Love what you’ve done with the place, sis.
I feel embarrassed as I look around the mess in Colton’s kitchen, knowing it’s not the only room I’ve wrecked havoc in.
Colton lets me go and we both get to our feet. I look at Ray carefully as he puts the bag to the ground with a solemn look on his face.
I’m sorry, he apologises and I know in my heart that I’ve already forgave him. He outstretches his arms, his expression saddened. Come here.
I run straight into my brothers arms and hug him tightly. You’re such a shithead for leaving.
I know.
I pull away and looked up at him. Where did you go ?
I’ll tell you in a minute. He looks at Colton. I get it. We all have skeletons in our closet, or whatever. As much as I want to take my sister away, I’m not going to, because she needs you and she’s right, it’s none of my business. I don’t like admitting it and this isn’t me kissing your ass, so don’t think this means that I still don’t want to rip your head off, because I do. I glance at Colton nervously who only nods. I shudder at the embarrassing guy moment and look back up at my brother. As for you Layla, if I knew you were going to redecorate, I would have come sooner to enjoy the show.
I lost it…
Yeah, I heard everything.
Is it normal ?
He shrugs, bending over and picking up the bag he dropped to the floor. Pretty much. I brought you some clean clothes, looks like you need them.
You went back home ? What did our parents say ? I ask quickly.
He rolls his eyes. They said nothing, I told them you went on a road trip with your friends. They didn’t even care. They’re off to Mexico tomorrow.
That hurt, more than it should. So much for my mother planning my eighteenth birthday bash. I should be used to it by now. Ray os all the family I have and…
I turn to look at Colton who is standing watching me. My heart pains for him. I don’t know what is going to happen to us in the future, but I only hope he will be my family too…
I want to go out, I sigh as I sit on Colton’s couch-the only thing I didn’t destroy-in the living room. Maybe I hadn’t touched the couch because it was where he marked me all that time ago…
I smile at the memory, remembering how I thought he was a nut job, but not being able to keep my own mouth away from him.
I shiver into a big blanket that is wrapped around me like a cocoon. My body is on fire, but I’m freezing.
Probably not the best idea going out with a high temperature and a fever, but I’m so restless and eager to go out. Do something, anything. It would be better than sitting here thinking about turning into a dog.
Since going mad on Colton’s place, I feel less stressed but it didn’t keep the angry feeling stirring in the pit of my stomach away completely. It feels like I should be somewhere else but I don’t know where.
Colton is sat next to me on the couch mumbling into another brand new phone Toby got for him. He has a catalogue in front of him of home improvements and is in the process of ordering new furniture to replace the stuff I wrecked.
I can’t help but smile as I watch him. He’s back to being in control Colton, looking all business-like and fiery. I sure as heck did a number on the bedroom. It’s that bad it’s unsafe for us to go in it.
Ray was proud. When he seen it he gave me a high five and a lollipop.
Colton hadn’t left my side once all day and insisted I rest while his pack people cleared out the house of all the broken things and all of her things.
I hadn’t met them yet, in fact, it seemed Colton was controlling who was allowed to be in the same room as me. Maybe it was because the last time they saw me, I was in the process of destroying a table and a kitchen.
It was like operation eliminate Jenny today, and to be honest, I couldn’t help but notice how chilled Colton looked, like it was lifting a huge weight from his shoulders. The only thing that wasn’t being eliminated was Jenny herself, but that was to come in good time.
The bitch will pay and not in a good way because I didn’t want to be a werewolf. There was a lot to learn about the werewolf world I was about to enter, and honestly all this hype about shifting into a wolf had just like having a real bad flu.