I was here with Colton, alone, in a caravan and in the middle of nowhere. This was really a stupid idea, but one I couldn’t escape from obviously, now that I was here.
I shouldn’t be here, I knew that. But after everything and missing him so badly, I just couldn’t keep away. It then dawned on me that I didn’t just want Colton, I wanted to be in his bed.
I inwardly groaned at thinking such things that were so alien to me, I’d never wanted this before in my life, not even when I was dating Kyle.
You’re quiet ? Colton asked then, breaking the silence.
I brought my eyes up towards his face, his was watching intensely. He brought the bottle up to his lips and took a swig from the bottle. Seeing him drink spurred on a random question.
Have you ever been drunk ? I asked.
He brought the bottle away from his glorious mouth that’s slightly red now, very mesmerising.
Not really. Most werewolves find it hard to get a drunken kick from alcohol. Our blood runs hot, so it burns it off quickly.
I barely get drunk when I drink. Colton nodded, looking thoughtful, but he didn’t say anything.
I remember being very drunk at Jared’s party which brought my over active mind thinking of another question, but I think I was just steering away from my out of control feelings.
Was I drugged at Jared’s party ?
He nodded and I raised my eyebrows in surprise.
Yeah, you were. The punch was spiked I believe. Jared was very lucky I didn’t kill him.
I frowned, not at the fact that Colton spoke about killing someone with very little restraint, but because he never mentioned it.
How come you never told me ?
Didn’t think it mattered. It wasn’t a human drug you were drugged with.
I raised my eyebrow questioningly, wondering what he meant by that. As if noticing he began explaining. A handful of scientists that specialise only in werewolves, brought out a drug a few years back and called it Salt. It helps our kind let loose, especially if we’re having problems controlling our wolves.
Have you taken it ?
Yeah, he said. My club supplies it, but I have very strict rules that a werewolf may not share it with a human at any cost. It has different effects on humans, sometimes dangerous.
I shuddered at the memory of almost being raped and not being able to do anything about it. I shook my head, not liking this conversation much because it made me think about Jared.
Instead, I began wondering what drunken Colton was like. I guessed he wouldn’t be as refined or this metal-like business guy that he was now.
I found myself observing him without helping it, he seemed to have relaxed a great deal now, but I still wondered what was going on deep inside of him.
He moved his head and our eyes met. Once again I ended up getting lost in his deep brown eyes. I wanted to kiss him so badly, but I was too nervous to.
My next thoughts puzzled me and made my body flush all over. Did he bring me here to have sex ? The thought made my entire stomach shudder.
Colton moved and put the beer bottle on the coffee table. He turned his head and looked at me as he shifted closer beside me. I squirmed on the seat, clamping my legs together to escape the overwhelming feeling of want.
Colton sighed. I can smell it, you know.
Huh ? I asked, breathing out, my throat felt so dry.
I dampened my lips with the tip of my tongue as he placed his hand on my leg, his eyes growing dangerous.
I closed my eyes slightly at his warm touch, his fingers brushing my hair away from my neck. He leaned into my ear. I can smell your hormones.
I stopped breathing altogether and bit my lip hard. Oh no, he knew ? He knew how much my body wanted him ?
I, um… I breathed out embarrassed and shy as he leaned back and looked at me. I’ve never felt like this before.
I know, I feel it too. Do you want to know what it is, why you can’t stay away from me ? I nodded because I did want to know, I was desperate to understand what this was. It’s because your body wants to complete the mating bond with me.
How do we do that ?
Can’t you guess ? He raised his eyebrow and smiled.
It clicked then, when he marked me as his, he started something, and slowly but surely, this something was building inside of me to the point where I actually wanted to jump him. Mating was sex, and I wanted to have sex with him. I’ve never wanted something that was completely scary to me.
So this is just a wolf thing ? I asked and Colton nodded.
You could say that. Don’t be worried about it, I didn’t bring you here for that, I promise, he tried to reassure me, but my heart sink slightly.
What’s that exactly ? I just wanted to see if we were thinking on the same page.
Sex, I don’t want you to think that’s what my intentions are. I brought you here to spend time with you.
Why did I feel slightly disappointed ? He was being sweet and I was being this horny teenager wanting to jump him because of some brewing curse inside of me wanting to complete this freaky wolf voodoo.
He was respecting me and my body, but I couldn’t help but wonder if it was because he didn’t want to ? Am I not good enough for him ? Being a virgin with very little experience ? He probably liked girls with experience. I never felt so degraded or self-conscious before.
Okay, I mumbled, trying my best to hide it, but my disappointment must have come through in my tone because Colton put his arm around my back.
I know what you’re thinking and trust me you couldn’t be more wrong, I frowned, surely he couldn’t know exactly what I was thinking ?
I blushed and bowed my head, but he lifted my face up by my chin with his finger to look at him.
I really want you, Layla. I want to do everything imaginable to you. But I also want to wait until we’re in a proper relationship first, I want to do this right.
When, when will this happen ? I didn’t voice my thoughts. What he said sounded reasonable and made a whole lot of sense.
Obviously I had a huge problem with him being with Jenny, so I should welcome the wait. But it was getting harder to wait, harder to cope with these feelings around him.
I was being the unreasonable one now, and my insides were clenching because I wanted him. I wanted him to be my first, now.
I cleared my throat and swallowed back my anguish, smiled and changed the subject.
So, what do you have in store for me this weekend ? I smiled, taking a sip of the beer he had given me.
He smiled. I don’t know about you, but I plan to just relax.
That sounded like a good plan, relax with Colton and attempt to bring him out of his shell and get to know him maybe sounded really good.
I stood up and stretched out, but winced, my hand was slightly sore from punching Vicky in the face.
So, what shall we do first Mr Dawson ?
Colton chuckled and glanced at the clock sitting on the wall, it was nearly one in the morning. A smirk tugged at the corner of his lips.