Stella POV.
His heart was broken, he wasn’t just angry, he was furious, for once I saw in Theo more than just an angry wolf, I saw the part of him that he tries too hard to hide, I saw the part that’s crying and screaming with pain, I never understood the emotions of my two wolves, but seeing Theo now, feeling Theo now, I knew what he was feeling too well, he was heart broken.
“Theo,” I call after him but the look he gave me was one filled with hate and anger, he hates me, he’s been angry all along, but he didn’t hate me, not until this moment.
“Theo, wait, please,” Milo begs him, but Theo didn’t stop, he didn’t even look back, he kept moving, he left the house and I looked at him with pain filling my whole body, what was wrong with me? Why was I so hurt by him leaving, and where is he going.
“Is he going to be okay?” I ask the two alphas, who looked at his retrieving back.
“I don’t know,” James says honestly while Milo got up and followed him, he walked after Theo leaving just the two of us behind.
“So you’re my other wolf, what does that make us?” I ask him.
“It makes us a wolf and his soul, we could be friends, siblings, dom and little, anything you want us to be,” he answers me.
“What if I don’t want you to be anything?” I ask him.
“That doesn’t work like that, you can’t get away from me anymore, we should get some kind of agreement over being together,” he says his hand going toward my face, caressing my cheeks, making the blush get worse.
“Fine, but what does that make you with Milo?” I ask him next, remembering this morning when Milo was in bed, and James knew where he was, was something going on behind me.
“Milo is my mate,” he answers me right away.
“But he said you’re his cousin,” I say, it’s kind of sick, being with your cousin or relative.
“We don’t share any blood,” James says dismissing my worry.
“Are you sure?” I ask him again.
“Very sure love, or else the goddess wouldn’t have put us together,” James says.
“If you knew each other from before, how come you didn’t know you were mates until now?” I ask him.
“I’m friend with Milo, but only over the phone, we haven’t spent real time together in forever, I’ve been busy,” James informs me.
“How busy?” she asks me.
“I was the alpha of my own pack, which meant I’m very busy being the one in charge of the whole place, of everyone,” he says calmly.
“Are you sad? About losing everything?” I ask him.
“I lost everything, but on the bright side, I have you, I found you, and Milo, and Theo, even if he’s that angry right now, after a while, he’ll get over it, I’m sure,” James says, but he doesn’t know Theo, he doesn’t forgive, when he’s angry, he’s angry for a while, and only god knows when he decides to be over it and stop being angry at all of us.
“It hurts,” I say holding my torso, holding my heart, everything in me hurt.
“What hurts? Are you okay?” he asks me with worry filling his tone and eyes.
“My heart aches, it’s nothing that I have ever felt,” I answer him, the pain was getting worse with every second that passes.
“Hey, come here, what’s wrong?” he says pulling me toward him, he hugged me tight, but the pain was still there.
“Do you mind if we go lay down?” I ask him as my eyes started to swirl, I was starting to feel very dizzy, I leaned on James as he took me to Milo’s room, he placed me in his bed and stayed near me, keeping me in his arms, hugging me.
“What’s wrong?” he asks me again, but the pain was only getting worse.
“The pain, I feel like my heart is going to stop,” I answer him.
“Milo is coming back, we think we have an idea over what’s going on, but let’s pray it’s not what we think it is,” James says with worry filling his voice even more now.
“What do you mean?” I ask him, as my eyes started to close on their own, the dizziness having the best of me, everything went dark before I could move or do anything else.
I woke up later on my own, I was very dizzy and groggy, next to me was both Milo and James, they didn’t look too happy, they looked worried and scared.
“Are you two okay?” I ask them, but they didn’t look to be okay.
“We’re fine, what about you, what’s going on with you, does it still hurts?” Milo asks me, kissing the top of my head, hugging me tighter.
“A bit, what’s going on? Why does it hurt?” I ask Milo, he knew things, maybe he’ll know why it hurts so badly.
“Theo is angry, his bad mood is causing you pain,” Milo explains to me.
“Do you feel it too?” I ask them, Theo felt different than Milo, deep inside I could feel them both, I didn’t have much feelings toward James, we just met, it’s gonna take some time.
“We feel things toward Theo, he’s our mate, but it’s nothing compared to what you feel, you hold his soul, all of our souls,” Milo says.
“Wait, can we give him his soul back? And maybe give it to James too, I’ll hold yours and take good care of yours,” I say to Milo making him chuckle.
“I feel the love,” James groans on the other side of the bed, I chuckled at him.
“I have a friend, she can hold your soul, or maybe Milo can hold yours,” I say with a smile.
“Doesn’t work that way,” they both say at the same time making me pout again, not fair.
“Not fair,” I whined.
“We know, but you got us now,” James says with a sigh.
I stayed in the bed for the rest of the day, the pain never left my body, it was there with me, like a small hum in the back of my head as I sat to have dinner with my family, when I made it back to my room, trying to sleep it off, but I couldn’t fall asleep. My window opened around midnight, and I saw that Theo walked in, he does that almost every night, and tonight, I was waiting for him to come in and talk to me, I wanted to talk to him about the pain.
“You’re awake,” he says, his voice was different than before, it was horse, and filled with pain.
“I was waiting for you,” I answer him, I was waiting for him, I wanted to talk to him.
“What so you can tell me that you don’t want me to my face?” he asks me.
“That’s cold Theo, I’m waiting for you so we can talk,” I answer him, hiding the fact that my heart was aching as hell.
“What do you want to tell me?” he asks me, he was on the verge of tears, but it’s not like Milo tears, he’s hiding the tears, he’s holding them back, hiding the fact that he wants to cry, he’s just trying to look hard and firm.
“I know you’re very mad, but it’s not in my hand, I didn’t mean for this to happen, if it was up to me, I’d give you all your souls back and then we can all be friends, but it’s not up to me. James, said that the goddess Celine is the one who picks if we’re mates or not, and turns out we’re all meant to be together, why not take the chance? Give us all a chance, and then we’ll get to have a nice life together,” I offer Theo.
“Stella, do I scare you?” he asks me, and he does.
“No,” I lied, but I wasn’t that good of a liar.
“Liar, you’re scared of me,” he says in a cold voice, he only gave me the same cold stare, the one that said I’m a big liar.
“Sometimes you get too much, you’re like a big bad wolf, and you scare me, Milo does that too sometimes,” I say and at the mention of the alpha’s name his frown got worse, “And Calesti, and the other wolves,” I say trying to make things sound a bit better.
“When you’re with me, do you always think of Milo? Do you feel safer with him? Maybe with James too, you calling to them even now,” he says one hand going toward my face, touching my cheek, my eyes closed, my heart did a big skip.
“I’m not thinking of anyone,” I lied, maybe I was, I’m not sure who I’m thinking of or not, maybe I am, but my head was all over the place.
“Liar, you see Stella, I’m your wolf, you hold my soul, right here,” he says pointing to my heart, touching the point that hurts so badly.
“Yeah, I’m holding it, I’m taking good care of it,” I say but I didn’t feel like I’m doing a great job holding his soul, I feel like I’m doing a terrible job.
“But you also have Milo and James souls, they are all crammed in there, there isn’t much of point for my soul to move, it’s not your only priority, you have the rest to take care of as well,” he says.
“I love you all, I’ll take care of all three of you, you have to give me a chance,” I beg him, I felt the urge to try and talk to him, he deserves to know the attention he’s getting right now.
“I can’t do this Stella, I can’t share you,” he says and he scared me, the way he’s talking, would he hurt me, would he kidnap me or do something that might have me regretting all of this.
“But Theo, we can all be a big family?” I say not sure if I want to say it or not, I’m trying to find the words that he wants to hear, but he’s right in my head, I’m yelling for Milo and James for help.
“Even now, even now,” Theo says, a lone tear going down his face.
“What do you mean Theo?” I ask him.
“Even now, you’re calling for them,” Theo says, wiping the tear off as if it was never there.
“I’m not,” I promise him.
“You are, my whole world, and still I mean nothing to you…” Theo says and the pain that was there have hit it’s peak, I screamed as the pain got the best of me, I fell down on my knees, tears and more scream going through my body, I felt like I was dying, or maybe just a part of me has died.