Milo POV.
I’m pissed off, I’m angry, no I’m furious, I’m going insane, I’m going rogue, I need to find my soul or find a good fight to let out all of my pent-up anger, I have tried working out, but that didn’t do much for me, not with the anger, I need someone to actually fight me back.
“Are you okay baby?” My mother asks, I’m her baby, being an adult, the next alpha, the one who scares people, and scares wolves into shitting themselves, and here is my mother calling me baby.
“I’m fine mother,” I say in a growl.
“What’s the pout for?” she asks me again, this time sounding more serious, I didn’t want to upset her, upsetting her would get me in trouble with my father, he’s her wolf and would kiss his own son to keep her safe.
“I’m angry Mother, I’m very angry, maybe it’s better that we don’t talk right now,” I say trying to avoid her.
“You don’t scare me,” she says with a challenging smile, she doesn’t have a death wish, she has an alpha wolf behind her.
“Father scares me,” I say in a serious voice, he’s not one to mess with and I don’t want to die this young.
“He’s not here and he won’t mess with my baby,” Mom says too sure of her own words.
“Mother, I’m old enough to have someone calling me daddy, and they’d be my baby, I don’t think I count as a baby,” I remark.
“My baby, forever,” she says challenging me in a final tone.
“Mother,” I groan.
“Yes, baby, you ready to tell me what’s wrong with you?” she asks me.
“I’m angry Mother,” I say again, that’s all I had to say as an explanation for what’s wrong with me.
“Go to the forest,” she says with a smile.
“Why? Find some magical creature to solve my problems? I’m the magical creature,” I say with an eye roll, walking out of the house, avoiding her eyes so we won’t get into any kind of fight, it won’t end well for me.
“Good luck,” Mom called after me, as I went toward the woods, I did as she said, the woods were calling me, they always call me but no one is waiting for me in there, no one actually wants me in the woods.
I yelled, I screamed, and I fought some of the trees, breaking a couple of small ones, and leaving a broken branch or two in the bigger ones, I was very angry still, the chat with my Mother only made me feel angrier.
“Celine! Do you hear me! I need my soul, I want my soul,” the last couple words were said in a whisper, I’m calling to the gods, trying to get them to hear me, I need a mate, I need my soul, I’m very lonely.
I’m going insane, I think to myself and keep on moving, I kept on fighting the air that’s moving around me, I’m walking inside the forest with no real aim or goal, I’m just moving trying to vent out all of the anger that’s inside of me.
My human form couldn’t take all the anger that’s inside of me, I’m more than just a human, I’m both, I’m a human and a wolf, and the wolf inside of me wasn’t happy, he too wanted a chance to breath or do something anything. I shifted into my wolf form, and let out an angry howl to the sky, we don’t howl to the moon, we howl to the sky and the gods that are hiding up there.
I started to run, all of the wolves, all of my pack avoided me at all costs, they knew coming in my way would get them in troubles, I wanted to start a fight, and I didn’t care who it would be with, whether a human or a wolf, or anything in between.
I kept on running, until I heard some noise coming from one side of the woods, I went there, I went to see who’s hiding from me, who’s standing there, I was looking at who’s in my way, who dared to come in my way. I heard someon’s else yelling, I wasn’t the only angry one out there, and they matched my anger, they were just as pissed as I am.
“Who’s there?” a girl’s voice asks and I growled, I didn’t want to see her, I couldn’t be this attracted to her, it’s not fair for her to be making me feel things that I shouldn’t be feeling toward her.
So what if her wolf is a jerk, we’re not all good people, we’re not all angels, some of us are crazy, some of us are just psychopath who needs a soul to ground them, that doesn’t make us into good people, that just make us less crazy, less insane, and then we’d be more like regular people who live out in the world.
“If it’s you Theo, I’m beating your ass, I don’t give a fuck that you’re a wolf,” she yells at me in an angry voice, it’s not how a soul usually acts, they are usually more forgiving, and more submissive than this, I growled again, I don’t need to be challenged, not right now.
“Come and get your fucking soul, and leave me be,” she yells out loud again, damn what did Theo do to get her this pissed off? No wonder she’s matching all my anger, I walked toward her, coming out of my hiding, she should know that I’m not Theo, he’s a dark wolf while I’m more on the grey side, she should guess the difference.
“Who’s that?” she yells again, at least she know I’m not her fucking wolf, I looked up at her, ready to growl and scare her into Theo’s arms until they make up, I saw her baby blue eyes and I was lost.
Her eyes weren’t the eyes that I was supposed to meet, she’s just another girl, she’s a soul and she belongs to theo, but when I saw them I’m lost, I felt like I’m finally grounded to the earth, it felt like I was found finally, here I am, I found it, I found everything that I’ve been looking for right inside of her, but none of it made sense, she’s Theo’s!
The anger started yet again, why is it her? Why did she hold what’s not hers, how come she had my soul and Theo’s? It’s never heard of for a human to have two souls, and mine, I’m a royal, I’m an alpha, how come she had my soul inside of her! It’s not heard of, it’s not possible, was she some kind of a witch? Why did the gods decide to give ehr mine too, she can’t be having mine too, I was furious, even more than before, I was happier not knowing who my soul was than now, knowing that I share my soul with someone else.
In my anger, in my crazy haze, I didn’t see that Theo was here too, he’s in his wolf form, coming to get his mate back, but she’s not his anymore, well not his alone anymore, if I kill him, I’ll keep her for myself, if I kill him she’d be just my soul and we’ll say that he was insane, he though that she’s his while she was never his.
I attacked Theo, I was ready to kill him, every time we fought before, I didn’t want to kill him, every time all I wanted to do was just hurt him, to put him back in his place, but not today, today I wanted to kill him, I tried to kill him, I went to his neck, I was ready to bite him and end the misery once and for all.
“What are you doing?” Stella yells she saw us fighting and for once she wasn’t scared of the fight, anyone else should be terrified of us fighting, we’re two wolves, and still she got in the middle of us.
“Stop it, Theo, what the fuck,” she yells at her wolf, she’s a crazy girl, she’s insane, but she’s mine, once I kill Theo, I’ll keep her mine forever.
I pushed her to the side, but my push was too hard, and she fell hard on the ground, she screamed in pain and I felt her pain, it was terrible, it felt like my bones were breaking, the same ones that she fell on, she’s hardly hurt, but I’m feeling like I’m walking on broken bones, we just met and I’m feeling her pain.
‘Stella, Baby!’ I could hear Theo yell through a bond that we shouldn’t be sharing, I didn’t open the link for him, I wasn’t allowing him to talk to me there, but still I could hear him.
“You two idiots! I don’t care that you’re wolves, I’ll kill you both and live in peace,” Stella yells at us, we have pushed her, we have hurt her, and we’re fighting, she doesn’t understand what’s going on, and I’m not understanding anything either.
‘Stella, stop yelling, hear me out,’ I beg her trying to use the alpha bond with her, she’s not a wolf, but she’s my soul, once we connect we’ll be able to connect like this.
“How did you do that?” she yells looking at me now.
‘Do what?’ Theo asks and we can both hear him, it’s weird, I didn’t understand anything, we need help.
“Talk in my head, I’m going crazy, you two are going to drive me insane,” Stella says with tears going down her face, she started to cry, she went from being pissed off to hell and back to being sad and scared she was terrified and I couldn’t take it, I could never let my soul cry because of me.
I turned into my human form and went toward her, I hugged her tight, letting her cry near my chest, Theo growled still in his wolf form, still very pissed, I gave him a side look, one that said shut up or else.
“Stop growling and shift back, you’re scaring her,” I scold him.
“What’s going on Milo?” she asks me, holding me tighter, she was scared, and I didn’t want her to be scared, I held her tighter, I kissed the top of her head trying to calm her down.
“I don’t know,” I confess, I had no idea what was going on, but I wasn’t angry anymore, I wasn’t as pissed off as I was before coming here, before seeing her in my wolf form, she’s my everything.
“Milo, why is she hugging you? She’s mine,” Theo says between gritted teeth, and I roll my eyes at him, he is always so slow and takes his time to catch back.
“Theo, stop being an idiot,” I scold him.
“Then stop hugging my soul,” Theo says sounding like a brat instead of a wolf who’s trying to protect his soul.
“She’s not just yours,” I say, it’s all I had to say, she’s ours, and he’s mine, he’s mine, but he’s a wolf, he can’t be mine, I’m going insane.
“What do you mean?” Theo asks me raising a brow at me not understanding anything.
“It means that Celine is making fun of me,” I growl, she heard my prayers and she had her revenge, she didn’t just give me a mate and soul, she gave me two, and two wasn’t what I asked for, I didn’t want to share, but somehow I’m going to have to.
“Milo, explain,” Stella’s voice came from against my chest, she tried to sound firm, but it wasn’t working, not with all the tears going down her face.
“You’re his soul, but you’re also my soul, and he’s a wolf, but he’s also something to me, he’s my mate, which means Celine is making fun of all of us,” I say trying to explain how I’m seeing stuff, Theo didn’t look too happy about my explanation while Stella looked lost.