“Are you going through all this at all , you can’t just show up expecting that it would be fine.”She grimaced.”Are you kidding me!”
A frustrated Laura spoke all at once,
It was her reaction to what was just being said, she hated the fact that he’s still right there after everything was acting like he owned everything , if there was anything that she could about the entire madness that was at the back of her mind at that moment, she would most definitely as she felt so confused.
For the moment she let the words settle into her mind slowly reflecting on the true Indication of what it held, he didn’t say anything after what he had just said about wanting to fix things.
“I had no choice, we just have to do it … Today leaves us three months away from each other and I feel confused about all of this, I just don’t know how I would react to this.”
Most definitely it was the last thing she wanted to do, she didn’t think it would make any sense about any of this, still she couldn’t think less of the situation, all her mind was settled on was trying to get away from him as fast as she could.
“What do I feel all of this is in your get me to do what you want? “She grimaced.”You know full well that you’ve lost me and I told you clearly that all of this is over.”
With all of this happening, she felt it was best that she let herself understand the situation more clearly than it already was-
The man before her fixed his gaze and let it settle for the time being, he didn’t let anything out about his true intentions but let it sink down to the back of his mind, Instead he kept weighing heavily on it with disgust at how he was handling the entire situation.
“Don’t flatter yourself, I am only doing this cause I feel that is Right, you need a man in your life and believe me or not this seem like the best time –
She let out a grunt that felt like, she counted the time that it would take for him to arrive, she had beeped Damien just before running her hands through her hair, and she guess he was already in his way, it would be a difficult decision to make but as she paced around the room stopping when she was close to him again, she thought it was best she got a restraining order.
She looked into his eyes hoping that she’d be able to convince him like she had not been able to nights ago, his eyes held the same feeling that she had seen a night ago, that same feeling that led to the fight and all this – he was a fucking sour loser and it was all glaring.
She had been intimate with this man, they had made love though it was the least of things she wanted to remember. If there was anything she wanted at this moment it was definitely to forget him.
The fact he spoken about it like it didn’t matter, the fact that he thought that he owned her even after all of this , she wanted it to stop and she wanted it now
“Are you going to let us have this talk or not, are you doing this or not?”His words rattled through her thoughts, he was imposing himself again on her like he had done through the years.
It didn’t help matters, such feeling in her left a deep sense of animosity as she was left stunned and speechless, she locked gaze as she bit her lips slowly. .. Had she really fallen in love with this beast of a man in the past?
“What is in this for you?”She questioned. Noting to herself that there had to be something, she didn’t know what it was but there had to be a reason why he wanted this
“I am just trying to fix things.”He clasped her hands.”We have to do this … ”
The look that came from his eyes was asa desperate man, but for what?
It held that feeling of belief that all of this was under his control. All through the while one question was at the back of her soul.
Where in the hell was Damien?
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Just as she had thought of him, Damien materialized like from her thought , she could Sense him standing so close to her and it took him to shove him back for her to realize it wasn’t just her thought but reality.
Have you thought this through?”He asked playing this trick again if trying to get under her thoughts …
“I just want to talk.”Rian insisted.
He could be the devil but she had a soft spot for this man.
Damien seemed uninterested as he kept shoving him away.
She didn’t have the time to reply to anything he was going to say, she told herself – she was soon approached again by another one of those maids who seemed surprised all this had happened in a short while.
“Do I need to get the cops?”It was Damien asking as he wanted to get rid of the situation as fast as you could.
A quiet chuckle and pulled inside Rian as he didn’t miss how seriously he took this.
“I can sue you for having your hands on me, how is this your business?”
Her rapid heartbeats counted the memories and moments as cold sweat encased her soul, does she have to make that call?
She turned and faced him, he had a serious look on his face similar to the one he had all day. It summed up everything happening but it didn’t make much sense.
“What?”She asked .”Don’t tell me you pulled up here just to talk.”
“I am not doing that , I am just worried about you and I want us to talk nothing more …”
“About me? “She could see that sense of surprise over his face and wondered what it was all about. She knew this man much well and those words he just mentioned were the last thing he would do.
“I thought you wanted this?”She asked.
He sighed , it appeared that trying all he could she couldn’t understand how serious the entire issue was and how much he had to pacify when he wanted her to understand the situation and understand how serious it was. He wanted her to think deeply about it, but still it seemed like that was far from possible.
Even more annoying was Damien’s presence as that seems to irritate him further.
“I want to do this.”The words were spoken by him and it came with enough evidence, as his gaze burned through her eyes, she could see the intent in his eyes but if we was down to anything at that moment, it was most definitely trust, she couldn’t say if she trusted him enough to want to to this , enough to want to listen.
“Alright.”She muttered.
Damien looked at her like she had gone Suddenly crazy.
“Are you sure?”Damien asked.
“Yeah, I’d be fine.”
He sighed and in a way, She repeated what he did-
The deed was done, there was no going back at this moment, she couldn’t say why she had just agreed to see him but it seemed proper, for her it was enough of the argument … she had to do this and face whatever would come out of this.
She could feel a thud In her heart and thought that It could be mere fear or anxiety, but one thing was fact, he won’t leave till they saw each other –
She felt utterly consumed with the adrenaline that broke through the chakras of her soul.
It was a huge risk, yet she had to do this.
*****
He wanted to discreet so no Damien’ though she insisted he stuck around, it was just Two of them right there in his car, zooming slowly as Damien car drove behind
The quiet all the way to the park could be chipped at with an ice pick.
Rian was quiet, his silence was unsustainable as he Kept still hoping he wouldn’t say any words, as the two of them sat side by side, encaptured in that imprisoned state of thoughtful silence.
What if this was an attempt at a kidnap, till that moment she hadn’t thought about it, much as she was confused , she knew that if there was a need for her to react or say anything it had to be when she was much safer.
For now safety was far from it. She looked in his direction again, this time her gaze fell to where his hands were, she could see the sweat on his face and could swear that it was confusing as well that he was in this state in his mind.
At that moment, he had one hand on the wheel, as the sun glinted off his face as he drove still quietly, her guess was that she still sulked about how she had treated him earlier.
In a way she was desperate to know what he was thinking. She wanted to know what was running through this mind at that minute – Yet no matter how much she tries to read the look away from his face he gave away nothing, she was left feeling perplexed, frustrated as she experienced many feelings across the board from this man but never this, she had never experienced the fear she was feeling at the moment as it felt as though her heart would give way any moment and she’d be left in the state she was in Confused about the entire situation.
Maybe, at first, it was from the fact that she had been with him so long, a part of her chose to trust him still-
Still she knew talking to this man would give her enough leverage, at the same time it was also pointing to the fact that it could also be a trick.
Till that moment she hadn’t thought about this, she hadn’t thought about the fact he’d be in the car with her and they’d be exchanging a lot of thoughts about the entire situation.
It meant a lot of things, and slowly as the truth of the entire situation sank to the back of her mind , she became aware that she might not be able to control him like she thought she could if things went South.
As soon as they pulled up outside the door of a restaurant much to her relief, he alighted and headed straight for her door helping her out before both made their way to the entrance.
She was beginning to think he was confident about this, about the entire deal of talking to her and whatever he wanted to say had to be important, still much as before the situation of things gave nothing away, as she was made again to think through the entire situation of things.
The two walked into the hallway that was well lighted up, they headed to the receptionist that was at the end of the table, she looked up at them and could tell immediately what they were there for –
“Your seat is well reserved.”
A reservation… Laura thought, she wondered why all of this was coming up now at this time but figured it was best she cut it out of her mind.
They didn’t have to wait for long as they were soon led to a seat that looked rather spectacular.
“Why are you going through all of this?”She questioned.
She wouldn’t deny the fact she was impressed but still, he was Rain…she reminded herself.
She was lost looking through the hallway that had a flickering light, the atmosphere that should have held a Sense of union, held something totally different. .. it had a feeling of uncertainty , it held fear.
As the waitress approached them, Laura felt a hand gripping her from behind.
She couldn’t tell what to feel at that moment, if it was best she just let herself go
“Just enjoy the moment, you seem so tense.”
He grimaced.
She Yanked her hands away like she touched fire.”Why won’t I be, why are you doing all of this.”
He stared at her straight in her Eyes, in his soul he was wondering how blind she was not to see any of this.
“Isn’t it obvious?”He asked.
“What is?”She returned.
“I am still in love with you.”