Christian needed that cherry on the top and that was not the woman that was lying close to him, yet at the back of his mind he was still a bur detached, all he wanted at that moment was sanity and he would do anything to have it at that moment.
What else?
His eyes was wide awake as he thought it through at the back of his mind while he needed that bit of sanity he wouldn’t deny the glitch that seemed to feel him up each time he though through the entire situation
He turned to see if like he was, she was finding it hard as well… surprisingly enough she wasn’t as she looked to have her firmly shut.
He got out of bed and wobbled to the window nearby, with a gust of wind trying to get past him drifting through his hair.
He sighed. He felt lost here and he was doing what most people In his shoes would do , he was trying to find himself.
“Why don’t I belong here?”
For some reason he felt like taking a run, he looked back at the bed one more time, he shrugged.
Soon, he was out getting his running shoes. He was at her side as he tried to make certain that he got all that he needed.
He set out, stealing just one look behind at the woman man that was right there, he thought about writing a note but what would it entail.
*****
Her eyes flutter open soon as he leaves,
Antonia tries to return to sleep but each time she shuts her eyes all she could see over and over at the back of her mind were her sins-the nightmare replays in her head, sending waves of uncertainty through her that let her soul quiver.
She thought about having a conversation with the man remembering how he let her sleep on her own for the third time in days, while still finding a way to solve all of what was happening. It took a lot to stop the entire situation.
Like this morning she wished she was right there in his hands, she wished she was Still in Christian’s arms, she tried to relax but couldn’t, she kept tossing from place to place when she realized that all of this was a tale at the back of her mind that might never happen.
She finger combed her hair, muttering words as she did.
She thought through the entire situation again.
She needed something if she Wanted to keep him here forever, her thoughts were the same, if she wanted to do this, she had to do this right.
Making her way to the kitchen, she reaches out to the phone at the counter.
“Hello, can you help me with something?”She spoke discreetly.
At the other end the person grasped at her request.”Why do you need that?”
She spent the next moment trying to convince her about everything, she most certainly needed so badly to do this … she wanted that bit of desire and want that came from having him to herself.
It was still 6am after she was done convincing the woman of what she wanted, then she make way back to the bed, she had to make it look convincing.
She was not aware of what to do, she made a point to get herself to bed while she waited, soon she heard him outside stopping at the terrace closer to the window, she watched him get out of his shoes and then what.
When he got in , the looked around the room and she saw him do just that-
Just as she was about to shut his eyes to finally get some rest, he caught her and smiles, she could feel herself warming up to him, Confused on what to do, he rose from the chair he had been seating then began to dart his eyes around before walking to her as he did he crouched down so he could see the look in her Eyes.
“Awake.”
She smiles-
“What will happen now?”Sge muttered as he Kept his gaze on her, only to return back to the bathroom moments later.
“Not again.”Antonia almost yelled from her sleep then sat up on the bed as she panted heavily, she wanted him to do something different than just tease her …last that remembered she was his fucking wife.
Confused, she did all she could as She only steadied her ragged breath when she saw him staring at her with a confused expression with a towel around him
“Are you alright?”Christian asked when he found the words, he looked at her and could tell she was flustered
“I’m fine.”She mumbled, swinging her leg off the bed, she was a bit annoyed…She stepped past him brushing her way through Christian , he tried to stop her from moving but again almost shoved him as she brushed past him then hurried into the bathroom. After washing her face, she rejoined him then grabbed her few files
“I will be working “She snapped, already making her way towards the door.
He couldn’t get himself to understand why she was acting that way, the more he tried to understand the harder it was for him.
“Why? It’s early”He said, grabbing her hand but she shoved him off- she needed to act it all properly if they needed to work it out.
“It’s already eight am.”She said, nodding at the wall clock hanging above the bed buzzed.
“But… It’s still hazy outside.”He was just coming out from there .
“Please wait until it is brighter this time around, I promise not to stop you.”He said, crossing his heart.
Throwing her head to the side, she let out a low sigh before returning her gaze back to him.
She couldn’t tell why but she felt that nudge at well to listen to him, she could feel the need to un her soul
Moreover, it was working according to plan.
She smiles as she looks back at him.”Fine, I’d stay.”