*Now*
He wanted to let out his feelings but his manly pride hindered him as he stayed quiet of everything, he stood away and for a minute ran it through his mind again.
He wants to protest, yes If there was anything she wanted so badly to do at that moment it was to get the thought that was running through his mind, much as he wanted to diffuse it.
He knows he wouldn’t get that chance for the moment being his mind is let out right there in the cold, he stood there due minute under the
a sky that was violent dark gray.
Perhaps this was one of those moments when time stood still in her heart, letting out just moments of pulses, letting just moment like what she was feeling, she couldn’t get herself to take her gaze off him nor the woman with him , and the only time she was able to was when he finally walked out
Still all of this was clouding her mind there was a deeper need in Riley to speak with him and she just had to.
As he walked back Into the room it was obvious that he had everything settled in his mind; she could no longer see that hint of anger that had been there earlier, rather all she saw was a deep embodiment of what he had been in the past .
All she wanted to do was get away from that one moment, the need to speak to him burnt deeply in her soul that when she saw that but of chance given to her on a platter of gold she did what she could to make a very good use of it
It had been a minute since he walked in, he whispered something to the lady he had come with and they both stood up before making their way away. She thought it was all over at least at that moment he stood away the feeling he heard that he would leave that moment.
But he didn’t, even if she had thought he would. He was right there again back at the seat.
The room had a more lighter mood, for some reason she had felt jealous a s didn’t know why , or could it be that she had feelings for him too
Whatever questions she had at the back of her mind was tarnished by him leaving again, this time he didn’t make way outside like he had done the previous times but to the toilet.
She waited till Rhys was distracted by whatever conversation he was having and just when he seemed so distracted as she had thought he would , she left for the same place.
*****
He didn’t know why but it was difficult for him to get his mind straight at that minute, he paced the Vicinity and when he thought he had enough he turned away.
He turned off the faucet after washing his hands and looked at himself in the mirror. For some reason he could sense that shift in the atmosphere.
He plundered his mind through what Christian had advised that he did again for some reason he couldn’t just stop the thought constantly filled up his mind but he couldn’t get himself into a situation that would the the situation his mind, she was there in the room with a man he couldn’t even match up to.
Wait… Was it the Money?
As he pondered on through all of this the feeling filled up his soul so much that he didn’t see him self fitting right Into her world
It was his biased words again at the back of his mind constantly telling him that he could do it, but soon after he thought about the words again there was that feeling of doubt as well that came with it.
“Sorry boss, I can’t …”He was about speaking but was distracted with the scent of a familiar cologne after the door opened and closed.
It was definitely a female and there was only one person he knew with that scent.
It was a brief seconds of madness, he turned and right there was the last person he wanted to see.
“Can we speak to Damien? “Riley muttered.
He frowns. The last thing he wanted to do was talk with her. He was furious as he thought about it again in his mind. He was not aware of what to say or how to treat the entire situation. The only thing he wanted to do was just stay away from her and it happened that she was here.
“No, I accepted the fact we can’t be to-”
“No,”Riley interrupts.”Absolutely not. You can’t tell me that you are going to just push me away because of what is happening, we used to be friends. I have been trying to reach you because I want my friend back.”
For whatever reason it was he didn’t exactly like the way it sounded, he didn’t like the fact that he was playing this game with her for whatever reason, he scowls and bites back his irritation at her dismissal, at the fact that of all things all she considered him as was as a friend much Ashe didn’t know how to react to all of this he was annoyed.
“I don’t understand why-“he stared at her blankly . He was going to tell her how he felt and she would stand right there and listen so he thought-
“Why would you continue acting this way?”He sighed.
“Because you’re-“she shakes and awkwardly gestures with her hands.”You’re you… There is nothing that can come out of all of this, how are you sure that you love me and all of this is not just lust huh?”
It was hard for him but he couldn’t get his mind over all that was happening, he didn’t believe what she had just done either calling what he felt for her lust.
It’s Chris’ words all over again at the back of his mind he could hear it screaming at him at the background of all this was about telling him how he should continue with all of this and not stop.
This time with the true inflection hitting him he didn’t know what to believe any more it was occuring to him that he couldn’t force her to believe what he wanted her to –
The fact was that she had her own mind and could use it In whatever way she deemed like.
There was a reason behind it, she could see how her words cut into him deeply, her heart pounding inside her chesthit she couldn’t stop it.
She was feeling rather anxious to speak to him as well. She stood up straighter, and looked into his eyes. It is so intense looking at such pain.
“Lust… You call my feelings lust?”
“So, what’s worse?”she asks him slowly.”Are you just admitting that what you feel for me is lust or are you accepting that all I feel … All I want is friendship.”
“don’t push me.”he smirks.
She didn’t understand what he had just uttered and wanted more clarification what he was talking about, she got nothing –
His gaze gave nothing away .”What do you mean?”
“You just insinuated all you wanted is for us to be friends but I am not buying that I feel you want something more.”
He had to be nuts, she thought. She truly hates playing this game. She could feel his heart wavers for a moment, chest heaving.
Finally, he stood away from where he was and made way to her.
She looked at him stunned wondering what he was going to do next .
“Proof it.”Damien says standing just meters away from her.
She swallows-