CAMILLA’S POV
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I ran as fast as my legs could carry me all the way from school to my home, as I struggled to open the door.
I was shaking and quivering terribly on the inside.
My demons were back at their peaks and they decided to haunt me more than I could ever imagine.
I’ve never felt so scared in my life…
I was hating what was beginning to befall on me…
“Lillian!” I called in the silent house as I closed the door behind me dropping my bag on the floor.
‘She can’t be back from work yet,’ I thought staring at the old wall clock hanging on the wall that just strike 4 O’clock.
The house seemed so silent that I could hear the sound of my pumping heart drum wildly against my chest.
My palms were sweaty and I could feel heat radiate all through my body as my throat went dry.
‘Maybe it’s because of this hoodie I’m wearing,’ I thought as I pulled the black hoodie over my head and fling it to the chair leaving the red tank top I wore underneath.
I made my way to the kitchen at how raspy and itchy my throat felt.
I grabbed a glass cup placed on the cabinet and walked back to the sink and opened the tap filling the cup with water.
I turned back resting my butt on the counter while I brought the glass cup closer to my lips when my gaze caught a white paper on the dining table.
I quickly sipped the water and walked over to the table to check what it was and the two words got me a bit curious as I placed the glass cup on the table.
From Lillian…
‘Why would Lillian write me a letter, if she had something important to say, doesn’t she has my number to call and notify me?’ I thought now taking the white envelope and opened it to see the main paper inside.
I brought it out and unfolded it as I read the first line.
‘Dear Camilla,’
I rolled my eyes, reading the main body of the letter.
‘There’s something I would want you to know little sis, I feel so guilty writing this to you, I should have informed you earlier before this time but I’ve made up my mind already,’ I read.
‘She made up her mind about what?’ I asked my mind curiously not wanting to scrutinize the other content of the text.
I would take my time to read it word by word and line by line.
‘I’m sorry I couldn’t keep up to mum’s promise,’ I read as my heart began hammering hard against my chest, as I felt the blood rush more than they should do through my temples.
I was getting tensed for unknown reasons reading this crazy letter of hers.
‘I’m leaving Camilla…’ I read choking lightly as my eyes got filled with tears.
I can’t believe she did this to me…
‘I’m so sorry Camilla, deeply sorry but I can’t just seat and watch how awkward our situation is, I’m going somewhere new to look for a better job and living, I promise to come back for you, once I’m settled,’ A tear slipped from my face to the paper, then another and another, I began sobbing holding the white piece with shaky hands.
She betrayed me and mum, she left me at the moment when I needed her the most to stay by my side.
Even though we have our grudges against each other, I still loved her dearly.
‘Check inside the envelope I kept $2, 000 for you to take care of yourself, it’s my savings but use it, I promise to be back soon, I love you,’ I gasped shockingly as the paper slipped from my hands and dropped on the floor as I began crying terribly.
How could she be so heartless Leaving me behind?
“I-I ha-hate y-you!” I cried with my lips trembling as I moved back before I got stopped by the counter.
“I hate you!!!” I screamed crying endlessly as my heart got completely shattered and broken without repair, it was filled with agonizing bitterness as my head became dizzy.
Why does everyone so dear in my life just leave without seeing the harm it could cause to me and my life?
‘No one wants to be with you!’ Those strange voices were back to haunting.
‘No one! No one!! No one!!! Hahaha!!!!’ The voices rang terrifying in my head as I glanced around like a mental psycho.
Maybe I’m getting mental…
“Who are you? Leave me alone!!” I screamed clutching my hands on my head tightly trying to shut the ringing voices haunting me without remorse.
‘No one wants you! No one wants to be with you!!’
“Leave me alone!” I screamed as hot tears strolled down my face, I tried to run but end up staggering, everywhere was spinning… The world was turning upside down.
I managed to get to the table and rested on it trying to get hold of myself as I searched for nothing in particular on the table as my hand hit the glass cup making it fall on the floor with a shattering sound.
‘No one! No one!! No one!!!’ The voices continued chanting endlessly.
“Ple-please stop!!!” I whimpered begging the weird voices to stop as I blocked my ears with my hands while my breath came out in short and fast gasps.
I was hyperventilating badly.
“Stop!” I begged to rest on the table grabbing the edges tightly.
“Camilla! Camilla!!” I felt someone shake my shoulders and his deep voice chased the demons in my ear as he turned me making me gaze at him with blurry eyes.
“Lucas!” I gasp looking so scared.
“It’s okay, baby,” He said as I hugged him tightly without his permission, his hands wrapped around me as he stroked my back immediately while I felt him kiss the top of my head.
I sobbed into his chest as I nuzzled closer to him like I couldn’t get enough…
Even though I still hated him, I needed his warmth to chase away those taunting demons invading my head.
He held me tighter for more minutes before I drew away finally calming down.
I sniffed and wiped my tears with the back of my hands as he took me in his eyes filled with worries.
“I’m fine now!” I muttered stepping a bit further away from him as his gaze landed on the white paper on the floor.
His brows knotted as he bent and picked it up, he read it and he frowned angrily crushing the paper in his hand and threw it away, and walked closer to me as I stepped back.
“I’m taking you to my home!” He dropped and grabbed my wrist as he yanked me towards him and started drawing me out of the kitchen.
“Lucas!… No!” I whimpered and protested trying to free my hands from him.
“I can’t!”