It has been three days since we’ve arrived at the Pacific ocean and I was escaping my way out with any activities that have to do with going into the water, such as snorkeling, scuba diving, and swimming.
I’ve been abused by my mates most especially Jenny and her two annoying puppies who mocked me for being a coward and a dumbass for avoiding going into the water.
Lucas has been the one doing most of the activities and didn’t make any complaint neither did he force me to do anything by going into the water.
The only activity I knew I engaged in was mountain hiking and I almost injured myself with those stems and roots sticking out on the way and the sloppy level.
I was in my room with Leticia nowhere to be found as I dropped my phone on the bed after having a long video call session with Beatrice.
She made sure I told her every detail about what was happening here and I wasted no time telling her because one way or the other she would find a way of extracting the details from my mouth.
It was late in the night and I sighed feeling bored with the TV show I was watching.
I stood up from the bed and went to window view, the ocean was still and calm and I thought of going out.
I went to my luggage and brought out the blue bikini Beatrice brought for me and decided to put it on.
I got into the bathroom and changed and stared at myself in the mirror, it looked so perfect on me as my curves were exposed, it was almost as if I was naked, I hadn’t worn it ever since I got here because I was shy of exposing my body.
I stepped out of the bathroom and grabbed my large shirt I kept on the bed and wore it buttoning up, it reached below my mid-thigh and that was perfect as I grabbed my iPhone and earpiece.
I glanced at the clock and noticed it was 11;25 p. m.
‘Woah! How time flies!’ I exclaimed in my mind as made my way to the door and opened it as I met Leticia who was about to knock.
“Hey dear, where are you up to?” She giggled while her face was red as I gazed amused at how flushed her face was.
“Just wanted to have a walk,” I said as shifting aside to let her in.
“Okay, I’m feeling so sleepy now, have fun,” She cackled as she staggered her way to the bed and slumped on it.
I wasn’t having fun, by the way, it will just be me and me alone tonight.
I got into the elevator and pressed the button to the last floor, after waiting for some minutes, the elevator door finally opened and I walked silently to the main building.
Everywhere was quiet as I saw a few workers cleaning and mopping the floor.
I finally got out of the hotel and the warm breeze slapped my face.
I made my way to the beach as the full moon shone its silver light on the face of the Earth.
I finally got to the beach as my feet drowned into the sands while the roaring surf of the ocean made shrilling sounds in my ear.
No single soul was on the beach and I decided to finally stop as I sat on the sand and plugged my earpiece in my ear and clicked on my favorite music, Stitches by Shawn Mendes as I laid my back on the sand and stared at the beautiful shining stars in the sky and full moonlight.
Everything was so peaceful, my shirt raised to my hip part exposing my laps but I didn’t mind since no one would be out here by this time to watch me.
I closed my eyes letting the music sink deeply into my soul as I hummed along with it.
It hasn’t been up to a few minutes when someone poked my side as my eyes flung open making me jerk up as I stood up frightening only to see my bully laughing at my plight.
Does he find this funny?
And what is he even doing here?
I needed peace of my own for Pete’s sake…
My eyes roamed him and I found myself blushing, he was wearing a loose shirt which he unbuttoned showing his abs with shorts that reached above his knee.
His green eyes shine in the dark but I could still feel his intense gaze fixed on me even though I couldn’t see his face clearly because of the way he was standing.
“It’s not funny, you startled me,” I glared dragging my gaze away from him before I sat on the sand again facing the calm ocean as the wind blew through my hair.
He sat beside me and I felt nervous all of a sudden as I felt my goosebumps all over me.
I stole a glance at him and his face looked calm as he also stared at the sea too.
“So, What are you doing here all by yourself?” He asked suddenly facing me while I turned my face to the ocean immediately so he won’t catch me staring at him or maybe he did.
“I wanted to be alone and I’m okay by myself,” I scoffed rolling my eyes while I brought my thigh to my chest and wrapped my hands around my leg but then I noticed how my shirt rolled up almost showing my pants as I straightened my leg back.
I glanced at him and saw his gaze fixed on me as the side of his Jaw twitched.
‘Oh, God! He saw that, didn’t he?’ I asked my subconscious.
‘Ask him!’ My mind retorted while I scoffed internally.
Things were getting more awkward and I was thinking of starting a conversation with him before I remembered that he made mention of Lola when he kissed me in school the previous time.
I was having a tug of war in my mind whether to ask him or not.
‘It’s none of my business,’ I said in my mind.
‘But you want to know,’ My mind snapped back.
‘Yeah, but how will I ask him?’ I questioned.
‘Just ask him,’ My mind snickered.
“Who’s Lola?” I finally blurted as I turned to him.
His gaze darkened a bit, I could see that as he face the ocean.
I was waiting for a response but he kept mute maybe it was probably best not asking in the first place even though I was curious a bit.
‘See, I told you,’ I said to my mind.
“She was my cousin,” He finally answered and my gaze widened feeling astonished.
I thought he would just ignore me like a jerk.
“Your Cousin?” I asked amused as he brushed the hair from his face with a sigh before he finally faced me with emotions I can’t describe.
“It’s a long story,” He started.
“You don’t need to tell me if you don’t want to,” I said staring at the sea.
“When I was a little boy, I’ve always dreamt of having the best family, a loving mother and a caring father, that was all what I wanted but my mum crushed those dreams, she left me when I was 6 and filed a divorce with my dad,” He spoke with hurt as I stared at him in disbelief.
Is he opening up to me?
It can’t be…
I felt bad for what his mum did to him at such a tender age no wonder he was so heartless and mean.
“She ran off with another guy who was just as wealthy as my dad, and sometimes I wonder it was all my fault, she didn’t love me and sees me as a mistake in her life,” He broke out.
“No, it wasn’t your fault, none of it was your fault,” I defended finding myself hold his arm as he stared at me with a gentle smile playing on his lips.
“I begged her as a little boy not to leave me but she refused and decided to pursue her own dreams then Lola came in,” He continued.
“We were cousins and I was glad Dad didn’t marry another woman he cared for me and did whatever thing I wanted but I didn’t get most of his attention because he always focused on his work,” He said while I nodded for him to go on.
“Lola stood by me, we were of the same age when she came to live with us and we did everything together,” He hold back for a while taking a gaze at me while I gave him a warm smile before he continued.
“I liked her so much because she gave me another hope, she was always there for me anytime I wanted her and I was there for her too but when we grew and was time to go to high School she announced she wanted to study in England,” I felt him stiff as his Jaw clenched while he clasp his hands together.
“She was stubborn and no matter how hard I tried to stop her she refused and made up her mind, I felt broken, she finally got ready to leave and we heard her plane crashed and no one survived, it broke me into pieces and ruined me completely… I hated her… I despised her for not listening to me in the first place and decided to move on,” He paused staring at me intimately.
“Th-Then… I-I,” He stuttered breathing deeply, closing his eyes as his hand caught mine holding them tightly as if I would disappear wondering what he was about to say.
“I met you, I saw you Camilla,” He said opening his eyes as he leaned closer to me.
“You had the same facial looks like her, that it made me hard to convince myself you weren’t her, that you were different, b-but–” He broke making me choke as I slipped my hands away from him.
My heart clenched bitterly as I stood up away from him.
“Camilla!” He cracked, I could hear his voice sounding desperate with regrets.
“Wa-was this why you hated me so much?” I gasped unbelievable as tears started to well up in my eyes.
“I’m so sorry, I’m such a dickhead,” He apologize standing up coming for me as I moved back away from him.
“Do you know how you almost destroyed my life, made everyone in school dislike and hate me and see me as trash for no fucking reason?” I yelled angrily at him.
“Please, I’m sorry, I’ve realized my mistakes, forgive me,” He begged.
I laughed slightly at his statement.
I would never forgive him so easily for what he did.
I was angry and wanted to scream so badly at his face for all what he had done to me these past years and he’s asking me for forgiveness.
I walked past him but he caught my arm making me give him a thunderous slap that I felt my palm sting too.
“Don’t you ever touch me again or come near me again!” I glared at him and ran off to the hotel.
I tried blocking every image of how hurt and broken he was , but right now, I don’t fucking care!