The heat worsened and the ache between my legs intensified, my body becoming a thousand times more sensitive to his touch than before. His once hot touch felt like ice and the mere idea of cuddling fueled the burning in my veins, urging me to nuzzle against him to cool myself.
Fuck, he strained, scooping me off the seat and clenching his jaw the more I attempted to snuggle into him.
I vaguely saw Danny sprint out of the room with Blaine close behind, their mates remaining in the chairs watching me squirm and whimper.
What’s happening to me ?
I didn’t think that was possible, Gabbie exhaled while Whitney sat there with horrified eyes, whispering something that I didn’t understand.
She’s in heat.
I-I don’t understand, I sniffled, looking up at her screaming figure with teary eyes.
If he only had sex with me, he wouldn’t have left ! He didn’t like what your very existence did to me ! She shrieked in a sob, gripping the collar of my shirt and yanking our faces closer, listen to me very closely, Angelica.
I nodded frantically, shaken breaths leaving and entering my body rapidly as I stared up at her angry eyes, yes, mama.
If a man ever denies you sex, he’s going to leave you ! You understand me ? No man in their right mind would ever turn it down.
*
-don’t leave me ! Please, don’t leave me ! I don’t want you to leave ! Please- my mindless ramble was put to an end when he grabbed my face and forced me to look him straight on.
I’m not leaving you. I’ll never leave you. Why would you think that ? he asked softly, concern filling his face the longer he stared at my tearful eyes, Angel… he trailed off, pain seeping his tone and his next words came out in a strain, what did she do to you ?
I closed my eyes and leaned into his touch, feeling the dull pain she left in my chest reappear for the first time since I’ve been here.
*
I have to, Angelica, just always remember that I love you.
I nodded, hearing the buzzing noise begin then feeling it vibrate against my head. My eyes stared at the floor, watching my blonde hair fall to the ground.
If you’re already unhappy, nothing will devastate you.
*
You need to lose weight ! Look at all that flab ! I’m doing this because I love you.
I nodded sadly, watching her take all of the food and leave me with nothing. Ignoring the hunger pains in my stomach, I accepted it and turned to retreat back into my room.
*
I told you not to touch that ! She screamed, bringing her hand down and hitting me across the face. It stung yet I withheld the threatening tears, looking down at the floor.
She’s doing this because she loves me.
*
Don’t look at me with those ugly eyes ! You’re a disgrace ! You’re the reason he left me ! She screeched, pinning me down and dropping liquid in my eye.
It created an unbearable burn, like hot grease to your eyeball. The sharp stinging worsened by the second and my vision blacked out almost immediately, making sobs and screams shake my body as I hoped for an end.
She’s doing this because she loves me.
*
I screamed, ripping my hand away and holding it to my chest with loud, agonized sobs. Blood spewed out of the nub my finger once was and I watched her pick it up, rubbing the bloodied limb in my face as if to mock me.
Don’t ever tug on me like a fucking child again or I’ll make it your hand !
She’s doing this because she loves me.
*
My body shook with small cries and I clung onto his hands, pressing them harder against my face the more realization clouded over me.
She made me unlovable, even she stopped loving me, I whispered, feeling him pull me closer and rest his forehead against mine.
She never deserved you, beautiful. You aren’t unlovable, she is, and that’s why she tried so hard to make you that way, he said, and I looked up at him through my lashes, but she failed, because I love just the way you are.
I froze, not expecting to ever hear that word again let alone get a strange feeling of warmth from it. To me, the word meant a lot, but it didn’t feel like it meant a thing until now.
My father cheated on her, I admitted, eliminating the warmth he gave me and replacing it with ice at the memory. It felt surprisingly nice to get off my chest, so I continued, the day he left, s-she told me that caring equals sex, and if I didn’t get sex, then I’m not cared about. She never told me what it was.
He removed his forehead from mine and pulled me onto his lap, silently listening to my words with a tight jaw, but I couldn’t seem to stop them from spewing out.
From that day on, she’s done and said things I always believed were with the intention of love-like she told me it was, I added, swallowing down my anxiousness, she said if I were unhappy, I couldn’t be devastated, which I thought would be good because I saw how much pain she was in over my father.
His eyes flashed darker and a low growl left his throat, his hold on me tightening protectively and I shakily took a deep breath.
I was beyond unhappy and what she did still devastated me, but what she didn’t do devastated me more, I grimaced, my lip quivering at the thought, she didn’t teach me anything. I was clueless, defenseless, and easy, all because I knew nothing. I think the worst part of it all was that I didn’t know what was happening when it happened… I just didn’t- I choked, biting my cheeks to prevent more tears.
He was silent and I kept my eyes glued onto my trembling hands, too afraid and ashamed to look up at him.
I was touched in places even she avoided.
He whipped his head and the movement made me look up, our gazes meeting but there was an indecipherable emotion glistening in his. His face lost a bit of color and his eyebrows furrowed in an upturned manner, making him look shattered by my revelation.
Who ? He asked, however, the tremble in his tone shocked me.
What ? I exhaled.
Who touched you ? He repeated much firmer, his tone now full of anger that I was surprised didn’t frighten me.
I don’t want to remember, I whimpered, wrapping my arms around him and laying my head over his shoulder, your touch makes everything okay again, that’s all I’ve wanted. Nothing else matters anymore, I added quietly, squeezing him as though it was possible to get any closer.
He silently accepted my statement and wrapped his arms around me as I straddled him, breathing in his soothing scent that quickly relaxed me before leaning my head back to look at him.
Can you show me everything she didn’t ? I asked sadly. He frowned, pain crossing his features, then he cupped my cheek with a small, sad smile.
You didn’t even have to ask, beautiful, he responded, planting a delicate kiss over the tip of my nose and pulling my face into his collar, caressing my cheekbone in a way that made me start to fall asleep, what do you want me to do first ?
My eyelids drooped and I felt my muscles going limp, my body sinking into his and an uncontrollable smile pinned the corners of my lips up.
I want you to love me.