Chapter 85
The proposal.
Chris’ POV:
I stood in front of the mirror, my mind racing with thoughts and doubts. I had been wanting to ask Megan out for what felt like an eternity, but I just could not seem to muster up the courage.
“Come on, Chris,” I told myself. ”
“You’re a grown man. What are you afraid of?” The thoughts continued.
But as I looked at my reflection, I knew that i was afraid of rejection. I was afraid of putting myself out there and having Megan say no.
“What if she doesn’t feel the same way? I thought.
“What if she just sees me as a friend?” I asked myself out loud.
I sighed and ran my hands through my hair. It had been over this a million times in my head, but I still could not shake the feeling of uncertainty.
I thought about all the times we had spent together, all the laughs we had shared, and all the moments I had felt a spark between us. I knew that there was something special between us, but I was afraid to take the leap.
“Just be honest with her,” Jake screamed out of nowhere.
“Jake?” I called because I never knew that he was on the house.
“How did you get in here without me noticing?” I asked him.
“That is not the business here, Chris. I knew this was a fake relationship all along.” He revealed.
“So just tell her how you feel and let the chips fall where they may.” Jake added.
“Do you read minds now?” I asked him perplexed, but he would not reply.
But as I stood there watching him, but I could not shake the feeling that he was about to make a mistake. I was afraid of getting hurt, of being vulnerable and open with someone who might not feel the same way.
I shook my head, knowing that I had to make a decision. I could not stay stuck in this limbo forever.
“Okay, here goes nothing,” I said to himself, taking a deep breath and heading out to find Megan.
As I walked, I felt my heart pounding in my chest. I knew that this was it, that this was the moment of truth.
But as I approached Megan, I could feel a sense of calm wash over him. I knew that I was doing the right thing, that I was being true to himself and his feelings.
As I proceeded, I was struck with how beautiful, Megan looked.
Wow… Megan… she is absolutely stunning! These thoughts ran through.
I have known her for so long, but tonight, she’s radiating a beauty that is leaving me breathless. Her smile, her laugh, her eyes… everything about her is captivating me. I feel like I am seeing her for the first time, like I am really noticing her for the first time. And I can’t look away.
I have always thought of her as just a friend, but in this moment, I am realizing that my feelings for her go far beyond friendship.
I want to be the one she turns to, the one she relies on, the one she loves. I want to be the one who makes her heart skip a beat, who makes her feel seen and heard and understood.
But what if she doesn’t feel the same way? What if I’m just a friend to her, and nothing more? The thought alone is enough to make me want to run and hide. But… I can’t help how I feel. I can’t help but want to be close to her, to be near her, to be with her.
I need to find a way to tell her, to show her how I feel. I need to find the courage to take our friendship to the next level. Because I can’t keep living in this limbo, this state of uncertainty. I need to know if there’s a chance for us, if there’s a chance for me to be the one she loves.
I stood still staring when Megan caught a glimpse.
“Why are you standing there? Come here!” She told me.
“So, what’s going on? Why were you staring at me like that? You have been looking at me in a strange way!” Megan told me.
“I do not know… I just… you look really beautiful tonight, Megan.” I hesitated.
“And I could not help but notice. You have this… this glow about you. Like you are radiating happiness and joy. And it’s captivating.” I complemented her and she blushed.
“That’s really sweet, Chris. But there’s something more, isn’t there? You can tell me.” Megan said.
“Okay… okay, fine. I’ll admit it. I’ve been feeling this way for a while now. I’ve been trying to ignore it, to tell myself it’s just friendship, but… I can’t help how I feel. Megan, I think I might be falling for you.” I revealed after it felt like I had something stuck in my throat.
“Chris… I… I don’t know what to say.” Megan said as she looked like she felt uncomfortable.
“Chris, I… I care about you deeply. You’re one of my best friends.” She revealed.
“Okay… okay, I get it. I just needed to be honest with you.” I told her as I felt very disappointed.
“How does it feel like Chris?” Megan asked with a smirk on her face.
“What do you mean by that?” I asked her.
“You have made me wait for too long, so have to suffer a little you know!” Megan said grinning.
“I have to admit, Chris, I am a little scared. I’ve never felt this way about anyone before. But at the same time, I feel like I can be myself around you. Like I can trust you with my deepest secrets.” Megan told me.
“You can, Megan. I promise. I’ll always be here for you, to listen and support you. And I feel the same way about you. You make me feel seen and heard in a way no one else ever has.” I encouraged her.
“That means so much to me, Chris. Because I feel like I have been hiding behind this mask of confidence and strength for so long. But with you, I feel like I can finally be vulnerable. Like I can finally be me.” Megan continued.
“You are me, Megan. You’re the most amazing person I’ve ever met. And I promise to always support and encourage you, to help you be the best version of yourself.” I said.
“I promise the same to you, Chris. We’re in this together, always.” Megan smiled.
“Always.” I added.
“I am so glad we finally found each other, Chris.”
“Me too, Megan. Me too.” I said.
We hug each other tightly, holding on like we will never let go. Ever!