109. Macy sat on the couch and leaned back. She was tired.
She closed her eyes with a heavy sigh because her heart and body were both tired and Richard noticed.
“There is a bed here and you can rest as you wait for me,” he said and she shook her head.
Since she came to DC, she had been used to being alone but in the last several months, Richard and Mel had become a part of her life and all she wanted was to be alone when she was feeling so down.
She wasn’t even used to talikh to anyone about her problems and she thus couldn’t even tell Richard what she did as feeling.
Richard on his side was still afraid of what could have happened to her if she didn’t know how to fight or is she had met professional assassins.
His heart was in turmoil and since he could ground a grown woman, he decided to shadow her.
She wouldn’t leave her alone.
Him, like her, was used to dealing with his issues alone and he rarely talked to anyone and he thus wondered how to tell her about his fears.
He was in the field of killing and hunting people and he knew how easy it was for one to die. He didn’t want that for her.
He walked to the bedroom and came back with a kilt.
He lifted her legs and lifted her. He placed her well on the couch but she didn’t say anything. She just laid there looking at him letirng him do what he wanted.
He then covered her when he was sure that she was well placed.
He bent down and looked at her and she could see the emotions in his eyes.
She could see his iris change and his pupil contract. She knew that such changed to the eye were caused by the brain being on override.
She knew that she was sure she could handle Angela but she had forgotten that she was no longer alone.
He sighed and went to stand up but she held him.
He looked at her and she swallowed but she decided to be brave.
“Sit with me, please,” she said and he looked at her for several seconds and then he sat raised her legs at the knees, lifted them and then twisted his body to sit where the legs were and then put the legs on his lap and then covered her well.
“He then looked at her when he was well settled and didn’t say anything as he waited for her to start.
“Richard, I am sorry. I know maybe apologizing won’t change anything but I am sorry.
I have been so used to being alone and it will take some time for me to imprint it on my mind that I am no longer alone.
Also, when I left, I was sure that it was Angela and I was sure I could handle her.
I am sorry if I made you worry and I promise that I won’t make such decisions again without consulting you,” she said and she wasn’t sure if that was a teary film she saw in his eyes.
“Promise?” He asked in a deep husky voice.
“Promise,” she said and attempted a smile.
She stretched her and and gave him her pinkie to seal the promise.
He looked at her and then stretched his hand and held her pinkie with his.
“Don’t scare me like that again,” a whisper barely audible but she heard him.
She heard the fear. She heard the pain. She heard the uncertainty.
She didn’t know what to do or say to make his heart feel at ease and then an idea came to mind.
She wasn’t a virgin and she no longer felt guilty because this man was her first.
He rose and he didn’t move as he opened his eyes to look at her.
She sat up and straddled him at the lap and held hiw neck with both her hands.
“I don’t know what to do or say to make you understand that I am with you to stay because you still seem I uncertain and so, I have decided,” she said and he found his hands going around her and holding her at the middle to prevent her from falling.
But with her straddling him like that, he felt his little man stir but he still wore that expressionless face.
“What have you decided?” He asked gruffly as his brain registered the hand on she was giving him.
“To give myself to you. At first, I didn’t want to be with you because I thought myself unclean but when you told me that you took my first, I am happy that it was you.
For me, making love us the highest form if love I can show someone and that was why I was waiting for the one…”
“And I am the one?” He asked and her words were doing things to his body.
“Yes you are. You are the first man I am ever telling this and that should tell you something,” she said and it was taking all the courage she had cultivated over the years to do that.
“But… are you sure? Are you sure that it’s me you want to give yourself to?
I don’t want you to regret it later.
I won’t deny that I really, really want you and you are doing things to me but I won’t do it until I am sure that you want it too,” he said and instead of answering, she bent and took his lips.
She didn’t let go of his neck and she started playing with his hair and the nape of his neck.
He moaned and then took initiave.
He kissed her hard and he knew he light bruise her but he wanted to pass his emotions through that kiss.
He then stood up with her and out of reflex, she would her legs around his middle so as not to fall.
He broke the kiss and looked at her.
“Are you sure?” He asked.
“Never been more sure,” she said and he started ravaging her lips again.
He then started walking and since her eyes were closed and she received the loving of her man, she didn’t even look where they were going until she felt herself being put down in a soft mattress.
Richard placed Macy on the bed and then towered over her.
She moved upwards and he followed her with eyes dark with desire.
When she felt the headboard, she stopped and he came after her.
He kissed her temple and then her forehead and then looked at her.
“I don’t know when or how or why it began but all I know is that I love you. I want to make you mine because I love you,” he said and bent to kiss her neck.
Macy felt electric currents run down her body and her body tingled in waves from where he was kissing.
She felt her heart get full and she felt like she would explode if she didn’t say what was in her heart. It was like the words were almost burning her looking for an outlet.
“I love you too,” she said in a small shy voice but this was Richard.
He froze in his action and held her neck.
His big hand held her neck gently and where he could have strangled, he held with tender love.
He raised his head and looked at her, “what did you say?” He asked.
“Nothing. Just continue,” she said because she felt as if her skin would come off due to embarrassment if she was to repeat herself.
“Please say it again,” Richard said and Macy saw the sincerity in those eyes.
“I love you. You are the first person I am ever telling this to,” she told him holding his gaze and she saw him melt.
“I love you too. So so much. I love you Macy and I want to be the only one you ever tell those words.
I will love you and take care of you and make sure that I make you the happiest woman in the world.
I love you,” he said and it was her turn to melt in his embrace.
He then came up again and claimed her lips. This time, the kiss was slow. It spoke of love, deep seated love and they both enjoyed each other.
Macy has never been ready but she was ready for this man who would follow her to harms way and protect her.
She was ready for this man whose heart would break because of her exposing herself to danger.
She was ready for this man who loved her even he knew she was impure and he didn’t care.
She was ready for the man who would be willing to take the blame for her crimes.
She was ready for the man who let her in his life without questions.
She was ready and that night, she was loved thoroughly.
She let Richard love her in all ways and in any way he wanted.
She allowed him to pour his seed in her.
She allowed him to see her nakedness knowing that he was the only one who would ever see that side of her.
She was loved and he didn’t allow her to even move a finger because he told her that he would be making up for what first time.
She was loved and that might she learnt that making love wasn’t painful.
It was heavenly.
It was … love.
She was in love and she was showed how to felt to be loved