Quan Jinnian’s words created an upheaval in my heart at once, and I looked up at his eyes in disbelief.
I had thought that Quan Shaoze photographing the night of our consummation was just an accident. But it had actually been arranged by Quan Jinnian?!
My first love-the sunshine boy in my memory-was actually this kind of person?
I was filled with mixed emotions, and my heart gradually sank looking at Quan Jinnian.
At the same time, a strong feeling of disgust made my scalp numb.
The feeling of disgust was as intense as the feelings I had when Quan Jinnian had tugged at my heartstrings with his warmth and concern back then!
Now it seemed like he wasn’t just perverted, but also extremely disgusting!
I didn’t understand why he had insisted on me having a relationship with Quan Shaoze before he died.
But I didn’t feel like asking him that either, because I was afraid that the answer would make me vomit.
This version of Quan Jinnian really made me feel unjustified for Quan Shaoze. The brother whom he had treated with sincerity from the beginning had been using him all this time!
After seeing the disgust on my face, Quan Jinnian left with satisfaction.
And the suppressed anger in my heart was completely released.
I stood in front of the window and took a few deep breaths before I managed to stop myself from exploding.
Although I was extremely disgusted with what Quan Jinnian had done, on the other hand, my last bit of detest towards Quan Shaoze had also been removed.
What he had done to me at that time was because of Quan Jinnian!
I felt relieved and went back to bed.
I dreamed of Quan Shaoze again tonight; I dreamed of him kissing me softly and caressing my body.
Just when I was enjoying this, the smell of an unfamiliar man woke me up at once.
I opened my eyes and saw that Quan Jinnian’s hand was still on my waist.
I felt so disgusted that I pushed him away forcefully and commanded him to leave.
Unexpectedly, he said nothing this time and left with just a sneer.
When he walked to the door, he suddenly stopped and turned to look at me. With an increasingly unfathomable smile, he said that I had really fallen in love with Quan Shaoze.
I was dumbfounded for a long time after Quan Jinnian left.
In the end, I didn’t repudiate his words from the bottom of my heart.
I laid down on the bed again preoccupied, rubbing uncomfortably my bruised neck that had constantly been grabbed by Quan Jinnian these few days, and suddenly thought of Quan Shaoze.
Although he had been cold towards me, he had never hurt me like what Quan Jinnian did.
The realization made my heart sink again. At the same time, I couldn’t help but start to recall past memories of Quan Shaoze.
All that I had experienced finally made me see the tenderness of Quan Shaoze behind his indifference towards me.
Be it the cremation of my brother’s body in advance because he didn’t want me to be sad, or him carrying me in his arms when he saw me barefoot.
Now that everything had been cleared up, I could no longer hate him.
Today, I finally understood that his seemingly cold eyes were actually full of concern.
I was scared, but the moment I thought of myself carrying his child, I suddenly felt warm and had the courage to persevere.
I missed him very much for no reason.
I couldn’t wait to see him and tell him all this.
But at the same time, my heart felt heavy and even lonelier when I came to a sudden realization.
I guessed he didn’t like me.
He should have already figured out that I was missing after so long, but I didn’t know if he would come and find me.
After a long while, I made my own conclusion after not seeing him come to find me.
He wouldn’t be coming for me.