Enrique happily cooks a hotdog with mushrooms in white sauce. I just looked behind him while sitting. I wanted to help him but he told me to just let him.
I’m ten weeks preggy and I can’t pinpoint the exact day the baby was born. But Enrique and I doubt that the baby was formed in the stable where we re-enacted how Ixora was formed. We both had a strong hunch because I just finished my period and after that, I stopped menstruating.
I can’t let go that we have a new baby to look forward to. And I am hoping that it will be a boy so that Enrique and I can have a pair. I am happy now, very much. I don’t know what I feel.
“Done.” He came to me carrying what he cooked.
“Hmp! Looks delicious, jumbo hotdog with mushrooms.” I still applauded when I said that.
“Maybe my hotdog and mushroom will feel upset by that because you have a different hotdog and mushroom to conceive,” he said laughing.
“You are terrible, this is food in the mouth. For now because my vagina can’t be done yet.”
“Silly, go ahead, eat.”
While I was eating he knelt down and held my stomach and caressed it. He smiled while rubbing my stomach and kissing me.
“I can also monitor you during your pregnancy. I will be able to do what I couldn’t do before with Ixora.” I put down the spoon and drank some water then faced Enrique.
“Aren’t you angry because it’s too early, there’s already another one? It hasn’t even been a year since Ixora has another one.”
“Why would I get mad?”
“Because we didn’t plan.”
“It’s fun, and if it’s possible, let’s follow it again for a few months.”
“Hey!” I hit him on the shoulder because of what he said.
“Honestly, baby girl, my purpose is really to follow Ixora, so I’m already visiting you. It’s effective.”
“But we have to be careful about sex. Doc Keisha said, it’s not allowed, especially since I am in the third trimester. Then even though I don’t want to move now, I know it’s already full, later the baby suddenly follows even though he’s not full yet because your cock opened my core widely.”
“Not a big deal, Dande. I can still use this.”
“You’re not going to look for someone else?” But he just laughed at me.
“You have a mouth even if it doesn’t fit. You have hands too. Also, if I see you naked, I’ll go out just one floor down.”
“Pervert.” But he just laughed again at what I said. “Hey, don’t have sex with the crab you used to have sex with.”
“Nah, I stopped having sex with others when something happened to us. My mind is empty but you. So believe me that there is no one else but you and there will be no one else but you.”
“That’s good.”
We didn’t talk as he continued to caress my stomach. I’m already eating what he cooked again.
It’s a good feeling that I fulfilled my dream of being with the man I love. Others said I am too young to get married and I did not enjoy freedom. But they don’t know that I have more than enjoyment and freedom with my husband—-especially now, that we are ok.
I wouldn’t have thought that my dream would come true this easily. My obsession with Enrique paid off. I did nothing but chase him and fence. Squeezing myself even though he’s avoiding me. I prove my worth even if it’s not appreciated.
Obsessed? Is that really what it’s called? Am I obsessed with him? Is the call to be obsessed enough to risk yourself just to get his love? Or did I just really find security in him?
Because I’m still young, I already know that when he’s with me, I’m secure. I just saw him for the first time and I know that no matter what happens, I’m safe and nothing bad will happen to me.
I have almost been destroyed several times but he’s always there to save me. When I lost. When I almost drugged. When I tried to kill myself. He always came at the right time. So how can I not love the man in front of me now?
He’s always my KISA, the knight who always saved me. So if the safety I feel every time he’s near is called an obsession. Then, I will claim that I am obsessed with my husband. He will always be my obsession. Daze’s obsession.
“Hey, what are you thinking?” He stood up to me and took my hand and kissed it.
“Nothing.”
“Dande, tell me. Is it because you are pregnant? Aren’t you ready?” And then he squeezed my hand but I didn’t answer. “Don’t worry baby girl, I will always be here with you. All the pain you went through from the time you got pregnant until you give birth will never happen again. I swear, you will feel nothing but love and security that I am here.”
I smile at him and then touch his face. Maybe this is what it’s like when you’re pregnant, you become emotional. I used to be emotional with Ixora, but I was always angry. But now, it seems like every now and then I want to cry.
“Hey, hey, what’s wrong?” He sat up and then touched my cheek.
“I just thought about how lucky I was because you loved me.”
“I’ve loved you for a long time, I just stopped.”
“I am happy because you have released your love. Enrique, I hope that even if what happened again when I gave birth to Ixora, you would still be there to understand me. Because when I gave birth to her I didn’t understand anything about myself. I’m afraid it might happen again.”
“There is no reason for that to happen again. Remember, what doc Keisha said? That only happens because of negative thinking. And I won’t give you a negative thought. Because from now on I will wake you up and put you to sleep with love.”
“Enrique.”
“I’m sorry for being an ass way back then, Dande. But I promise it will never—as in will never happen again. KISA will always be there for you. And Kisa will always protect his princess because KISA’s job is to make sure his princess is always safe, secure, and protected.” Then he caressed my face.
“I am always your KISA, and you will always be my princess, Dande. I will make sure you are always safe and protected under my care.”
“I love you so much, Enrique,” I said sniffling while crying. “Too much.”
“Oh come on, princess.” He pulled me closer to him so I cried even more. “You don’t need to say that because I’ve known for a long time. But you can still say it over and over because it’s nice to hear. It’s nice to hear the person you’ve hidden in your heart for a long time tell you that he loves you.” And he left my chin.
“Every time you say you love me, I regret why I didn’t immediately let myself love you back. I wish I had been selfish and put my own happiness before others. But it’s already happened. So you’re saying you love me is a reminder that I should repay you for everything I did. That I should take care of you because of the long time I wasted. Dande, just you. You are the only one I love and will love. And you have nothing to worry about because no matter what happens, I will never hurt you and I will never leave you.”
I leaned my head in his arms and then cried.
“Shh! Cry as long as you want. But I want you to know that even if you cry or not, I’m still here for you.”
“Thank you, Enrique. I love you.”
“I love you more, baby girl.”