Diana’s POV
He stared at me in blank amazement, his face read that of a man who heard what he never expected.
I didn’t know if I had said the right thing or the wrong thing, for seconds his eyes were stationary on me without him uttering a word.
“Wow…. Are you serious? You have feelings for me? I’m sorry Diana I don’t feel a thing for you” he uttered with his eyes pale.
My heart sank like the Titanic in the middle of the cold icy ocean. I was completely shattered and broken, tears forced their way out of my eyes but I held back. I feel like a teenager that had just been rejected by her crush nevertheless it hurts even more.
I was teary, my nose became runny. I wished the ground has swallowed me whole, of course he doesn’t love a young middle class girl who has completely nothing to offer him.
What was I thinking! God! please take me right now. I feel humiliated.
“But you treat me so well… You like been around me. what do you want from me?” I questioned in agony, my eyes almost raining down tears.
“I just…..” he sighed and took a pause.
“I just like you been around me, I just randomly care about you and there nothing attached to it I’m sorry. I just take you as a friend” he added in a way that seemed like he was in regret for giving the wrong impression.
My heart sank once more. I can no longer stay here, I need to go before my eyes offload the tears I’ve been holding back.
“I need to go now” I said not minding his expression.. I stood up and began walking with tears in my eyes, I could no longer hold them so they kept flowing as I walked away in shame. Thankfully he didn’t see me cry, i’d be more humiliated than I already am.
“Diana!” he called out to me severally but I didn’t look back, I kept going.
Luckily there was a road that would link me back to urbanization, where I’d get home and drown myself in more tears.
Branden stood up and walked towards me, trying to reach me but before he could get a hold of me I had found a cab, got in and drove off.
The driver made it to my notice that my home was nearby and it would be a ten minutes drive. I wiped my tears but they constantly fell from my eyes.
I sat at the passenger seat of the cab with my eyes fixed outside the closed window, thinking back at how I had just humiliated myself by letting out my feelings. Never will I let out my feelings to any man, my heart’s too fragile for rejection.
“Brrr brrr” my phone vibrated and I dug my hands inside my little purse. It was Branden, I ignored his call and placed my phone on my laps. Branden didn’t do anything wrong but I just can’t stand humiliation.
My phone rang repeatedly as it vibrated on my laps, almost falling to the cab’s floor.
“We are here ma” the cab driver uttered.
“Ok thank you” I stepped of the cab and tipped him.
I stepped into the house to meet a note from Jane saying she went out to get groceries.
Irrespective of the fact that I had only breakfast throughout the day I walked into my room and soaked my pillow with tears. I had lost every bit of appetite in me, I was too shattered to do anything.
What was I thinking? who am I to be loved by Branden? I was never a president’s daughters nor was I classy and rich.
Those words “I don’t feel a thing for you” kept ringing in my ears like a siren causing me to shed more tears.
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Branden’s Pov
Shit!!!! I should have let her down easier than I did. She’s not picking up her calls either I hope she’s ok. I drove into my car garage and disabled the car’s engine.
I let out a deep sigh, I was in regret of my actions but I had no choice. I just like been around her and I love making her happy but I don’t feel anything for her and I wish I did but there was no way I could change my feelings.
I shrug off the thoughts and came down from my car. I hope she’s ok because I wouldn’t want her completely broken because of me.
“Welcome sir” my housekeeper uttered in respectfully. I waved as a response, no part of me was happy about today’s incident. I had no idea this would end like this.
I must have showed my care and attention way too much for her to think I was into her.
She is beautiful and she has a beautiful figure, one that could get my eyes lost in if her dresses were off. But I had no emotional attachment to her and I regret the fact that I didn’t.
I would have lied to protect her feelings but I know that would be the wrong thing to do. If she had to find out by herself that I lied about loving her I’d break her even more.
Lying on my bed with my eyes fixed on the ceiling, it was 1 am and sleep was far from me, every time I tried closing my eyes I just saw Diana.
I need to give her a text, my heart isn’t at peace.
I picked up my Phone, went over to my messages and sent her a text. I hope she forgives me for not loving because I don’t think I’d live well if she doesn’t.
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Diana’s Pov
“Brrrrr” my phone vibrated… who would be calling me by 1am? Of course I shouldn’t be up by this time but I’m mentally, physically and emotionally unstable. I’ve been up all night pondering on different thoughts, I need to take this hard truth and move on with my life. He doesn’t love me and it’s high time I accepted that.
I began suppressing all my fantasies about Branden, subduing them. I can’t live like this it’s not even been 2 days and I already feel my eyes dried up from all the crying.
I picked up my phone and saw it was a message from Branden.
“I’m sorry Diana… Don’t shut me out I can’t stand it, I’m sorry I couldn’t love you I really wish I could”
I dropped my phone and shut my eyes, reading that message made me feel glum and more sorrowful than I already was but I had no choice but to accept my fate.