Smiling I entered the mental where Damon was, I first went to fast food to buy something we could eat, and I was excited to tell him that I had found someone who could help us.
“For Damon Hussein,” I said to the nurse station, she looked at the list and then looked at me.
“How is he?” He asked, my lips parted as I looked at him.
“Friend–”
“His girlfriend.” I turned to the one who suddenly spoke to my side, I saw Gazer’s serious aura while looking at the nurse, he nodded and then gave us a tag before we were admitted.
I smiled and turned to Gazer who is still serious.
“I hope you just said I’m Damon’s friend,” I said, he didn’t answer so I was a little nervous because Gazer’s aura was really serious.
“B-why are you so serious?” I asked him, he suddenly stopped walking so I stopped too, he looked at me then took a deep breath.
“Erelah ..” He mentioned my name, he wanted to say something but he couldn’t say so I smiled at him.
“Do you want to say something?” I asked, he looked into my eyes and I could see there the sadness he was feeling.
“K-talk to Damon.” He said so I wrinkled my forehead.
“What for?” I asked, he took a deep breath.
“He doesn’t want … he doesn’t want to hire a lawyer who can help him get out and get him acquitted.” He said so my lips felt pity.
“A-What?” I asked.
“G-He wants … he wants to be given the death penalty.” He said the reason for me to faint, I was dumbfounded because of what Gazer told me. I immediately tightened my grip on the food I was carrying.
“That’s just the way he sees it so he can’t hurt anymore.” He said, silence faded between the two of us, my foot began to step as my mind floated and I remembered what Gazer had said.
Does he want to be sentenced to death? is he crazy? why does he want to be given the death penalty? that’s not the answer for everyone, we can still cure his illness, and we can still fight the case.
I will not allow him to be given the death penalty, he promised me that he will come out, and he must fulfill that.
My feet stopped in front of the room where Damon was locked up, from where I was standing I could see what he was doing, he was just sitting on the floor with handcuffs attached to his legs. I could see the sadness on his face as he stared at the emptiness. My tears immediately flowed as I looked at him.
“D-Damon ..” I softly pronounced his name while looking at him.
“I know he’ll listen to you Erelah.” I felt Gazer’s presence next to me, I wiped the tears from my eyes and then calmed myself.
“It’s like Damon is our brother, we don’t want to lose him,” Gazer said so I turned to him, he was looking at Damon while saying those words so I smiled and nodded.
From behind Gazer appeared some nurses and police, they opened the door of Damon’s room while a nurse told us to just wait in the visitor’s area, Gazer and I went there and quietly waited for Damon, a few minutes yet I saw Damon with the cops. My chest immediately tightened because I thought that Damon had no freedom now, everyone needed to be with him every time he moved.
I smiled at him when we both looked at each other correctly, not like before when sadness can be seen in him, now he has no emotions but you can see the sadness in his eyes. He sat in front of Gazer and me.
“Hi, I have good news for you,” I said while arranging the food I bought for us, I looked at him then smiled, I saw that he was watching me in my actions.
“I’ve found someone who can help you,” I said, he didn’t answer so I smiled again.
“He knew a psychiatrist who was a lawyer, he said it was their family lawyer and he offered to help.” Smiling I said then looked at him.
“Your promise, I’m keeping it,” I said so suddenly his lips parted, I smiled at him then held his hand that was resting on the table. “I’ll wait for you to get out,” I said while looking into his eyes, suddenly my heartbeat quickened as I looked at him.
“Maybe tomorrow he will be here to visit you and with him will help you,” I said then let go of his hand, I smiled and served the food in front of him then looked at him.
“Eat it, I brought it because I’m sure the food here tastes bad,” I said, he was just staring at me so I looked at him too. Gazer was just silent next to me, I looked at Gazer who was sitting bent over.
“Hey, why are you quiet?” I asked so Gazer looked up at me and then smiled.
“No, I just thought of something,” Gazer said then looked at Damon.
“It’s good you found someone who can help him,” Gazer said while looking at Damon, I smiled then nodded.
“Oum, I rubbed my face to talk to him.” I joked, Gazer laughed softly, I knew that laugh was fake but I just ignored it.
“You Damon, how are you here?” I asked, he took a deep breath and then moved the food in front of him.
“It’s fun here.” He said so I was stunned, he smiled as he said that and looked at the food in front of him.
“What do you mean it’s fun here?” I asked, he let go of the cutlery he was holding and then looked into my eyes.
“Peaceful here Erelah.” He said so I laughed and shook.
“No Damon, you have no qualms here,” I said.
“And at least I’m not hurting.” I was stunned by what he said. I just stared at him, I didn’t know what to say to him, I was disgusted because of what he said.
“What do you mean?” I asked, he kept looking at me as if studying my emotions.
He smiled then shook his head. “No, when will I meet again who will help me?” He asked, then again touching the cutlery in front of him.
“Tomorrow,” I answered, he nodded and then started eating the food in front of him.
Now Gazer and I are quietly watching Damon eat, I don’t know how I feel right now as I watch him, I’m hurt because I know this is Damon’s situation, I’m hurt because I know he has no freedom in that place this, but it hurts me more because I feel like he doesn’t want to leave this place.
For him this place is peaceful, he doesn’t hurt this place, but for me, this place is a prison.
“You’ll keep your promise, won’t you?” I suddenly asked so I felt Gazer’s stare at me, Damon looked up at me and then looked me in the eyes, there was no emotion in his eyes and face.
“Yes.” He answered but I knew that was not his real answer.
Damon, are you determined to be peaceful here?