Rachelle’s pov
The room was dimly lit and I could hardly make out where I was. I called out for someone but I couldn’t hear my voice. I began to panic, hoping someone would come for my help soon in case I was in danger. Suddenly I saw a tiny light form and it transformed into a person. I looked closely and it was alpha Graham smiling at me, his hands clasped together “alpha Graham” I called out once my eyes adjusted to the light and I saw him but my voice still wasn’t audible
“Let time take its course Rachelle, and you’ll know all you’re meant to fulfill… greatness is yours dear,” he said and with that, he vanished Into thin air. I was scared and tried to scream but my voice still wasn’t hearable. I began to panic and looked for an exit…..
With a gasp, I jolted up in my bed and looked around once I realized it was a dream. I remembered what Alpha Grahaml said to me and wondered if it was a message.
Fuck! That was the most creepy dream I’ve had in forever. Alpha’s Grahaml’s voice continued to resound in my head until it started to hurt. I needed to think of something else but it wasn’t going anyway -I could neither take Alpha Grahaml’s words nor his face out of my face.
I tried a series of diverse ways to try to sleep but all my efforts were futile and there was practically no other thing I could do. I checked the time and it was still after midnight. 2:25 am to be exact. Fifteen extra minutes of restlessness followed suit and that was when I made up my mind to go meet Everett. I crept out of my bed as a child would but I never took off the quilt wrapped around me. The temperature had dropped causing everything to be a chilled mess. My legs shook as I found my way over to Everett’s room.
Knock knock!
My fist came in contact with the Turkish mahogany door in Everett’s room but I heard no reply from the other end.
Knock knock!
I knocked on the door again and maybe this time a little bit harder but yet there wasn’t a reply from the other side of the room. I turned back and was grumpily walking back to my room when I saw someone walking toward me. It was Violet!
“Rachelle! What are you doing awake and outside by this time” Violet asked, taking in my stance?
“I had a dream and so I couldn’t sleep”
“And you wanted to go meet Everett but he wouldn’t open his door right?”
“Yeah, he wouldn’t,” I said with a fallen countenance. The truth is that there’s nothing that feels better than the feeling of warmth and comfort I always get from Everett.
“I could pull down his walls if you want me to or you could talk to me instead” Violet suggested after weighing my pros and cons, I decided to give Violet a shot. I could always go to Everett anytime I want and yes, he is my mate and he loves me so much but there was a level of compatibility I shared with Violet that had always made talking to her easier and very comfortable. And I know for a fact that I could make do with a woman to woman’s time-whatever the co notion meant.
“Yeah, I could always talk to you, instead,” I said and Violet chuckled. “It’s good to know you’d choose me over Everett” she chirped, using her teeth to bite down on her tongue.
“You both are Important to me” I replied, and Violet looked at me in awe.
“How intelligent are you? Everett is indeed happy” she continued and added a sigh.
“Let’s go?”
Violet didn’t answer, instead, she lightly poked a finger into my fist that was clenched all over the quilt around me. She loosened it and used it to cover both of us instead. “I’m cold too,” she said and we both laughed.
We were both seated in Violet’s room, I on her bed draped over a duvet with a mug of hot latte while Violet was on her couch, in the opposite direction with a mug of latte as well and wrapped too.
“So tell me, why couldn’t you sleep?” She asked me.
“I had a bad dream”
“Yeah, you did…. You did say that. What was it about?”
“It was about my first Alpha-Alpha Grahaml. The one who took me and raised me and catered for me. The one that named me Rachelle-according to him, he never stressed choosing a name for me. The name Rachelle was inscribed in the white towel in which I was wrapped when he found me. He also said, he settled with the name because I looked everything like it-Hope and Light. And he also strongly believed that one day, I will live up to it. I saw him and he looked so real. He was wearing his favorite shirt, the one I had inherited after his death. I had to keep him close somehow, especially after the new Alpha made us slaves, at first it was the only thing that made me go on. Because I felt we were still with me and that he would guide and protect me… of course, it did. I did feel him strongly when I had the shirt with me until Alpha Edward somehow found out about it and for reasons, I don’t know, snatched the shirt and shredded it or to piece it before burning it. ” I paused as sob prickled and threatened to fall out of my eyes. As I talked about Alpha Graham
, all the memories I had of him started to come back to me. Some words he had said and the lesson he made sure we learned and as I remember those things, saw him again appear to me and mouthed ” in due time, everything will be revealed” the same words he had said in my dream.
“Alpha Graham must be a really nice person, right?” Violet asked with a small smile.
“He was the nicest person to have ever walked upon the earth’s surface. The most selfless Alpha that I knew. Although I was only a child and he had no reason to keep me, I was virtually of no use to him, but he kept me and took care of me, and when he felt that staying at the packhouse was much of a risk to me, he handed me over to the nuns with other girls and gave them strict instructions to cater and protect us and that they should not fail to call him whenever things seemed like it was going out of hand. he was the nicest werewolf I know but everything changed when I met you guys -you, Theodore, and Everett. There are no proper words to describe your good heart.” I adjusted the part of the duvet that fell off my body and continued. “After everything Hazel and Crew said, I became a whole lot of things. One of them was restless. I was so restless, that things of the past appeared in my mind, giving me more than a thousand questions. Why and how did they happened? And why I didn’t remember that part of my life, before now. Something was amiss but I couldn’t figure out why. When I eventually slept, he appeared in my dream and said I shouldn’t try to force things and just let things happen on their own and according to time. He said everything will be revealed in time and I have no idea what that meant…. and me being me, I couldn’t sleep or function properly without my mind diverting to things. Things which would appear random at first, but eventually they would start to make sense. Deep… deep meaning”
I looked up from my hands and Violet was already looking at me.
“Those… those are indeed deep. And with everything that has happened and is happening, I’d say everything is linked. Interpretation of dreams had never been my forte. But I’m sure either Hazel or Crew will have something more meaningful to say to you by morning. And I’m sorry that you are getting this confused over what you are supposed to know… I mean it’s your right to know your origin right?”
“Yeah, I guess”
“No one deserves to have so much difficulty trying to find out where he or she was from. I never had a good relationship with my family and in truth, I don’t exactly know what happened to them but at least, I know where I was from and I don’t have to go through the trouble of finding out some certain truth, because I was aware from the start that I wasn’t wanted…. My parents…” She stopped, buckled her lower lip in between her teeth, and continued “I’m sorry. This isn’t about me. Let’s focus on you”
“No, no, no. It’s fine Violet. You’ve always listened to me rant about my problems. I’m more than willing to hear your story too. And I’m sorry. I’m sorry, I never knew your childhood was like that. I know what it feels like to not be wanted, most especially by the person you want the most. I know what it feels like to grow without a parent or a parent’s love. I know how bad it feels to know you aren’t wanted by your parents, or instead of not wanting you at all, or throwing you away to prevent their conscience from bawling at them. They keep you and make you suffer for their sins and hate you because you didn’t pay enough price for it and still blame you for the mistakes they themselves make. You don’t have to be careful around me Violet, I might not be Theodore, or Everett, or Hazel, or Crew but I know what it feels to grow in a toxic world full of lies and deceit, where truth and honesty are the perfect synonyms for delusions.”
“And yes you are not Theodore nor Everett nor Crew nor Hazel. You are Rachelle. You are my friend. You are my sister. I’m not being careful around you Rachelle and if I am, it is because I don’t want to scare you away. Most times, we are not always what we seem…. We are just like sour soggy mashed potatoes on a fine paper bag. Trust me there is dirt deep inside of me and I’m scared of letting it out because I don’t want to be judged. I’m not as strong as you are Rachelle. I cannot face my fears head-on as you do. And thank you for not trying to me Everett or Theodore or Crew or Hazel. Because for some time now, I haven’t needed them. I’ve been needing Rachelle and Rachelle has been available. The goddess blesses Alpha Graham for sticking with Rachelle-you are indeed hope and light. And maybe you can’t see it now, but I’m sure that one day, our kind will come to your light. You’ll be our hope”
“Tch… come to my light? I might not be as strong as you think Violet. I’m scared. I’m scared that I might be a white wolf. I’m scared I won’t be able to protect myself because they will come looking for me and may try to end my life.
“And they won’t succeed because we all are here with them. You. And I’m sure that, with time, you too will realize and see your light. With time you’ll know just how strong you are”
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Morning came pretty early and I couldn’t be more happier. After my chit chat moment with Violet, I suddenly found the strength I needed and believed in her words “all will be fine in due time”
It was with this newfound strength and belief that I went back to Crew and Hazel. After apologizing for walking out on them yesterday, they weaved off and said they understood so we continued from where we stopped.
“Everett said you guys have an alternate solution?” I asked after about ten minutes of answering their question.
“Uh, yes,” Crew answered.
“May I know what it is?”
“Sure… we’ll have to conduct a blood test and see if it matches with that of the white wolves, if it does, it means you are primordial but it doesn’t. We’ll have to call the priest.”