M-My blood…? What is she saying?
“Give…or I…make you…”
W-What?
I don’t know what the hell is happening and it frustrates me. Scares me even! I don’t understand…who is this woman…really? No, is it even a woman?
“Clara…it’s you, right? Y-You’re Clara, aren’t you?” Mother’s hesitant voice came from the other end of the room. They had both drifted further away from me and glued themselves to the wall, their faces gone wary. I don’t blame them, even I am frightened of my own mind. But what makes me uneasy is the fact that… this expression of theirs…the words mom just said…it’s just like that time…that time in the dungeon.
They looked at me just like this…as if I was a stranger to their eyes. This sudden fear of me…where did it rise up from?
“Who else…would I be? Mom… Dad…you know something, don’t you? You weren’t scared of me a moment ago, but what’s that look on your faces…? Is it because I sound crazy? Yeah, I do feel pretty insane, but I wouldn’t hurt either of you. My claws aren’t even out…”
They looked at each other, guilt slowly covering their faces. They’re definitely hiding something. What the hell is it?
“Look, if you know something I don’t, please tell me. I’m completely clueless here!”
Father cleared his throat, “The werewolves…they are half and half.”
“What? Half and half?”
“Yes…” Mom piped up, slowly seeming to regain her ease. “You are the human…and the voice, I think she is the wolf. Luc–your brother said the wolf is manifesting, and it’d be a matter of time before you can shift like all the others do. We don’t understand much of it…but that was his explanation…for what you did in the dungeon. You suddenly went on a rampage. I’m sorry… the claws, your teeth, y-you looked just like them…we couldn’t help but be scared.”
My stomach dropped, a shaky breath leaving my lips. “W-Wolf? M-My wolf? Those bodies back there…you’re saying I…I did that?!”
“That human…is right…” Her sudden voice made my stomach sink even deeper. I swallowed. “Wolf…I am wolf. You…you are human. We are together. We are pair. You give control…I give power.”
Pair? Power?
As much as I don’t want to believe that bullshit, there is nothing else to believe in this situation…at least until Lucas can tell me to my face what the fuck is going on! From what little I grasped, it appears ‘she’ is the source of my wolf abilities? And she lives in my head? But I still can’t fathom how this is possible. I just can’t grasp it.
I can already feel another headache coming on, and it’s only worsening the more I keep thinking on this shit. My limbs are starting to feel heavy too and the sounds from the battle are tapering off by the second. Is my hearing dulling? Have I been thinking too hard?
“Enough talk…”
As if her words were fanning the flames, an invisible pressure slammed into me the moment her voice filled my head again, knocking the air right out of me. Nothing was touching me, but…the feeling that passed over me, was as if walls were closing in on me from all sides. My headache immediately tripled in intensity and my shoulders slouched over, the world around me beginning to spin.
I raised my hand to grasp my chest as it’s thumps got wild, only to finally notice the veins that had popped out on my skin. I twisted my arms, wide eyes trailing over them both one after the other.
Panic sprang forth and I found myself breathing way too hard, but the problem was, I couldn’t even hear my own breaths. No. Scratch that, I couldn’t hear anything…. at all.
And that wasn’t even the end of it.
My fingers were the first to lose it strength, then my hands, then my limbs. Not an inch of my being was under my control. It was then that I tried to call out to father, but by then, my lips would not open. My body had been paralyzed in place in a matter of moments, like some kind of poison was running through my veins.
Horror consumed every bit of me down to the very bone, but I could not even lift a finger in panic.
W-What is happening?!
From the corner of my eyes, I saw mom and dad step towards me and despite still unable to find the strength to turn my head and look at them properly, my lips chose then to slip open. And the strange thing was… I had no part it in.
“Stay away, humans! Or die.” Words left my lips, but I had not been the one to utter them.
“Her eyes!” The footsteps ceased approaching, and instead, I heard them slowly move backwards. “Jessica, it’s taken control! That is not Clara… but the wolf… Stay back! Tonight will be a full moon, is it the effects?”
Wolf? Taken control? Full moon? Is father saying…
…this is her doing?!
“Yes…my doing. Me…I control.”
She can hear my thoughts?!
‘You…you can hear my thoughts? What the hell is happening?! How is this…. possible?!’
“Because…you… didn’t…obey…” My hands lifted on their own accord, just as claws sprung from my fingertips. I could only watch my own fingers dig into my arm, sinking deep into the flesh until blood dripped from the wound. Throughout it all, I felt no pain… I felt nothing.
‘What the fuck are you doing to me?!’
“l give him…blood…” She twisted my head towards Kenley, “… before he dies. He will heal.”
Blood? To Kenley!? Is that what she meant earlier? She kept saying ‘give blood’ so I did not understand a word of it all, but now…it’s clear to me that she wants to ‘turn’ him…!
‘No, absolutely not! Why even go this far for him?! What do you even know? This is my body, my blood, my fucking rules! Undo whatever the hell you’ve done to me!’
“I refuse! Power…not yours…but mine!” Her voice rose higher than before, and her overflowing anger struck like thunder. For a second there, even my vision went completely dark.
This situation is dreadful and at the back of my mind, I know the best option is to back down before she does something worse to my body or hurt my family, but I’ve sworn not to use it… I’ve promised myself not to. And I absolutely will not do it!
“He is…important to Kasan. He…must not die. I save him…for mate!”
Kasan? He’s the reason?!
‘My blood is not something that saves, it ruins! If you give it to him, even if he survives, he will never be the same again! You want to turn a full grown man to a wolf? One who’s lived their whole life as a human?! Who said Kasan will want this? He didn’t ask me shit despite knowing I can turn him yet you-”
“Human…” I felt my lips twitch into what I knew definitely was a smirk, “…You wasted enough time. I do…as I want.”
With that, my bleeding arm went moving towards Kenley’s pale lips. I wanted to stop, I channeled every bit of willpower I possessed to stop my arm from reaching his lips…and only managed to make a single finger twitch.
But I did not stop. I won’t let her do it, not now, not ever! Absolutely not! How do I stop this?! How do I regain control?!
Move! Move, Clara! MOVE!
But the more I tried to gain control of my limbs, the more the world spun in my vision…and in the end, my arm settled at his lips just as she wanted.
“You… pathetic… human.”