HOPELESS SITUATION
It’s time to go to the computer lab. I got the books and rushed to the lab as I’m already late. Pearl is running beside me. Right now, all I can think about is Crystal, pregnancy and her unknown intentions. I should have kept this a secret from Jason but I will be telling him. It’s better if he hears from me that from that madwoman.
Pearl and I got an excuse from the teacher. Then I started searching for Jason. I came at the right moment. Fred is about to sit with Jason as his partner in the lab.
” Hey, Fred, Would you mind if I sit with Jason?” I asked a little bit louder and panting at the same time. He has a confused look on his face. ” But I…”
” Just go. Can’t you be away from Jason for atleast a class?” I told which is only audible to him. I guess I sounded harsh.
” Fine, I will find a place somewhere else,” he muttered and left. I sat beside Jason and turned on the computer.
” Is something wrong, Milly? You don’t look good,” he asked caringly. But he doesn’t know that I’m worried about him.
” Yeah, it’s about Crystal, Jason.” I silently started the conversation. Never in my life, I thought I would be talking about a pregnancy test, break-up in school. Life won’t be the same the way it was yesterday.
” I don’t want to talk about her. She’s driving me mad every single day. I hate that I couldn’t get rid of her even though I wanted to. Sometimes I feel like she’s doing everything that could drive me mad on purpose. I wish I could know her thoughts. There must be something behind this which I can’t able to figure it out. All I want now is to know that she’s not pregnant.” Jason poured his feelings out. I want to reply but my voice struck. I can’t be the one who breaks this news.
Say it, Emily. Say it, please. He should hear it from me. Atleast I could comfort him and say something about the ‘intentions’ Crystal was talking about. Do it. Now or never.
” Crystal’s pregnant,” I said it. Jason turned towards me in an utter shock.
” How.. how are you saying it?”
” Sorry, Jason. I followed her and overheard her conversation with one of her friend. She took the test today and it’s positive.” Jason has his hands on his head. He’s stressed out now.
” It’s over. What am I going to do?” He muttered. I slowly kept my hand on his shoulder to assure him even though I know it won’t work. All are busy working on the computer and talking with each other. Why does our life have to be like this? No matter how much I left sad for him, I can’t really feel his pain.
” One more thing, Jason. Crystal doesn’t come back to you because she’s pregnant. She has some other reason. I can’t able to hear what it is. But I will be finding it.”
” It’s okay, Milly. Nothing’s going to change now. It’s all my mistake in the first place. I wasn’t careful enough. You don’t need to find it out. You already did enough for me. I will think of something.” Jason said. I feel so useless. I couldn’t hear the whole conversation. I should have recorded it or something. I could have done something. Anyways, I don’t have the power to change her pregnancy test. It’s a hopeless situation. Totally hopeless.
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” Can we start studying?” I asked Ryder with an open accounts book and a rough note in his desk. I wasn’t in a good mood after what happened today. I need a break but I promised Ryder’s mom. I should help him.
” Yeah, I think so,” he uncertainly said, sitting next to me. I starting teaching him whatever I know. He’s much worse in this than I could imagine it. It feels like two months won’t be enough to teach him everything. Instead, I need to stay in his house every single day to help him pass. That’s kinda difficult.
” I never imagined I would be studying like this. I wouldn’t be doing this if it’s not for you.” Ryder said, scribbling the sum in his note.
” Get practised with it. This is the first day I’m tutoring you.” I grinned.
” Yeah, do you remember when I said I want to alone in my room? It’s clearly not about reading. Atleast, can we equalize the time?”
” Equalize… for what. I don’t get it.”
” Um… what I’m saying is we can spend half an hour for studying and the rest of the time I want to feel your lips on mine,” Ryder said, as his hands moved over to my lips. His hands traced my lips in a slow moment.
For a minute, I got lost like I was hypnotised. ” No, no. I agreed to a bet with your friends. I’m not losing it. So, no.” I firmly told him.
” It’s all because of my stupid friends. They are so good at wrecking my private moments with you even though they are far away from us right now. You should also remember what I said that day.”
” What did you say?”
” You will do anything I ask for once I passed the exam. Keep it in mind. I’m studying because I have something in my mind.” he said with a smile on his face. What could it be? I’m always curious. Seriously, it’s difficult to wait to know it.
” Tell me what you have in mind, Ryder. I can’t wait for two months to know it.” I impatiently asked, tapping my feet on the floor.
” Not now, sweetheart. Learn to wait. You will see once I passed the exam,” he said.
” Urghhh. I hate being patient. Atleast, tell me more about it. Whatever you are going to ask, will it be difficult to do or easy?”
” You aren’t getting any answer. I finished the sum. Check it.” he gave his note to me. When I finished checking it, I saw him with his phone in his hand. Not his phone. It’s mine.
” Hey, what are you doing?” I shrieked, snatching it from him.
” I’m not seeing anything personal, Emily. Just exploring the movies you have on the phone. If you don’t want anyone to touch it, you should probably lock it with a password.”
” I know. Using the password every single time is annoying. Anyways, this is not a time to watch movies.”
” Then, can we watch it after study time? I saw a lot of romance movies on your phone. How about we watch any selective one?” he suggested. I can watch any movies with him except romance. I don’t want it to end up seeing a sex scene with him.
Before I could reply, my phone buzzed. Call from Pearl.
” Hey, Pear…”
” Em, can you come to the nearby park, please?” she said. Pearl’s crying. What could have happened within a day?
” Why are you crying, Pearl? I will be there now,”
” It’s about Andrian. I can’t say it on the phone. Come soon.” she sounded urgent. Her ex. What could have I gone wrong now? I need to go.