IT’S MY FAULT
Might be? The answer is so unsure. I don’t know whether Crystal is lying to Jason or not. I don’t really know her. The only thing I can see is that she’s obsessed with Jason. It may be acting or not? We can judge a book by the cover. It applied here.
” What are you saying? What do you mean by ‘might be’? ” I said as my jaw dropped.
” I… I’m afraid, Emily. I don’t know what to do?” Jason said. I can’t believe he’s sharing it with me. But I don’t think I have a solution for this.
” Do you remember when you had… last time with her?” I said in a whisper and didn’t mention the word ‘sex’.
” It happened before the vacations start and then we had a fight. I’m not the one who forgets to use a condom. Now I’m doubting myself after she blackmailed me. Even if she lies, I can’t prove it. I feel like I’m seeing a different Crystal after a month. She changed. She changed a year ago. She’s no longer the girl I have fallen in love with two years ago. I don’t know what’s going to happen next. If my parents came to know about this, they won’t forgive me.” Jason panicked. This is the first time I’m seeing him like this. Even though I never dealt with a situation like this, I want to assure him.
” Don’t imagine the worst situation, Jason. Nothing bad is going to happen. I don’t know anything about her but this is not the way to keep you from breaking up with her. I will help you. We will find a solution to this. Just act normal in front of her. She won’t be pregnant.” I told him, trying to calm him down.
” I don’t know, Emily. What if it’s the truth? My father who saved everyone’s life as a doctor may even take his own son’s life.”
” Don’t at me. Nothing bad is going to happen. I don’t know what you are dealing with till now. I know this problem will affect your life as we all are 11th-grade students. But you said that she might be pregnant. There’s no guarantee in it. Do you get it? There’s no guarantee.” I assured him as I kept my hands on his cheek, making him look at me. He nodded to every word I said and there’s a pause of silence between us.
” The only good thing that happened now is you are here with me. I loved every single moment I spend with you. I’m glad it’s not over with this problem.”
” It’s not, Jason. Once we find out that she’s lieing, everything will be back to normal.” I told him and he has a little smile on his face. It made me happy. What I thought about Jason is wrong. He doesn’t have a single clue that Crystal will be back.
When I’m back to the present, Jason and I are standing with an inch distance. His eyes moved to my parted lips. I guess we both forget that we are standing on the road.
” Will you mind if I kiss you again? Once my problem with Crystal, I want to take our friendship to next level. But right now, I want to kiss you.” Jason asked for my permission. I nodded slowly and he leaned forward to kiss me. It’s a sweet kiss. He pulled me closer and continued to embrace the moment.
” What the fuck?” I heard a loud voice in the road among the crowd. I know what’s wrong now. I came with Ryder. Ryder’s here now. What’s wrong with me? I don’t have a boyfriend but I can’t keep going between these two boys.
I parted away from Jason and almost stumbled and hit someone who’s walking past me. When I said ‘sorry’ and turned to face the boys, Ryder’s hands are on Jason’s shirt. I know he’s gonna beat him now. I can’t let that happen. It’s all my fault.
” Take your hands off me,” Jason shouted and punched Ryder the next moment. This is not what I expected to happen. If Ryder gets himself involved in this fight, no one could stop him.
” Back off,” I said, as I got in the middle of them. I had my hand on their chest. I know I’m not strong enough to stop them. But they both obeyed my orders.
” I can beat you up till you end up in the hospital if it’s not for Emily. Stay away from her if you want to be alive.” Ryder warned Jason.
” Try me. You are the one who should stay away from Emily. Not me. You are only good in bring troubles to her.” Jason replied.
” You don’t know anything about me. At first place, I shouldn’t have left you alone with her. You are taking advantage of her. Don’t you?” Ryder continued.
” You know that you don’t own her. I can kiss her or whatever I want to do. You got no rights to come between us.”
” You do remember that you have a girlfriend. Can you imagine what will happen if that girl knows about this?” Ryder said. His words give me fear. I know Ryder won’t voluntarily tell this to Crystal who doesn’t even talk with. But I can’t kiss Jason again while Crystal will be present with him hereafter.
” You know nothing about my relationship with anyone. It’s better if you stay out of this. It’s is a warning, Ryder. You are nothing but a trouble maker who ends up in jail. I can make that happen again.” Jason warned him this time. Jason must have known the reason why Ryder went to jail. But I still don’t.
” If you both gonna warn each other, then go ahead. I’m not stopping you.” I shouted in anger and stepped back. I’m not supporting Jason or Ryder but getting away from both of them for now. They both didn’t expect that reaction from me.
There’s a long pause between the three of us. I took a deep breath and broke the silence.
” I’m sorry that I’m the cause for this trouble happened today. I’m leaving now.” I calmly said and about to cross the road. I’m glad that I know the route to get back to my house from the bar.
” I’m sorry for behaving like this, Emily. I will take you home.” Ryder apologized. Jason frowned. He opened his mouth to say something but decided not to utter a single word.
” I can go by myself. Bye.” I walked away from both of them without turning back. I didn’t wonder about what they did after I left. I wish for this day to get over. I hope tomorrow will not be the same as this day.