CONFESSION
” Is it really important? You are wasting our time,” Ryder said, taking a step towards him.
” It’s only ten minutes, Ryder. I’m okay with that.” I told him and Jason motioned his hands to follow him. I can see Ryder’s eyes is still watching me. Then I’m out of Ryder’s sight. Jason and I are standing outside the bar. I spoke first to break the silence.
” I don’t think this is a right place to talk,” I said, as I looked at all the people who are passing us in the crowd.
” But I got no choice. I need to talk now,” He said. The vehicles noises in the road are making me difficult to talk. But if it’s so urgent, I’m looking forward to hearing it.
” Talk,” I said, folding my arms. I didn’t even look into his eyes. The anger burns inside me when he’s next to me. I get a remembrance of Crystal or whoever the hell she is.
” Why aren’t you acting normal, Milly?” He asked me like nothing happened today.
” Why don’t you search the answer by yourself?”
” I know the answer, Milly. But before I can explain the reason, you can scold me. Tell me whatever you are keeping inside your heart. Show your anger.” Jason seriously said and I couldn’t keep it inside but burst it all out.
” You know the answer? Yeah, of course, you do. You kissed me when you already have a girlfriend. You may not take it seriously but it’s a betrayal to me and Crystal. We have been friends since I stepped into Edgewood high and you could have let it be like that. Instead, you kissed me and made me think about you more. You never thought of telling the truth until she showed up by herself. How do I look on you? I tried not to worry about it. But I can’t stop myself from thinking about it. When I was feeling better, you showed up and spoiled the mood again. What valid reason do you have for what you did?”
“Come on. Say it.” I told him everything and realized that I have some tears in my eyes. Usually, I cry, when there’s no one around me. It happens rarely. Now I hate myself for crying in front of Jason. I may have talked a little louder to be heard by some people who crossed us.
” I’m sorry, Emily. I found out that it hurts you when Crystal made an entry to Edgewood high. But you don’t know the full story. I’m not the one who breaks anyone’s heart and not being honest. Trust me.” Jason said, taking my hands in his. I want to step back from him but my body didn’t respond to anything. I desperately want to know what he was about to say. Wondering about Crystal and Jason is killing me.
” Crystal was my girlfriend. But we almost broke up.” he started.
” Almost? What’s that supposed to mean?” I gave a perplexed look.
” Yeah. It’s been nearly two years since she became my girlfriend. Her father and my father are business partners. That’s how we got to meet each other. Everything was perfect for a year and then we got a lot of problems. We both don’t suit each other. But still, she never said that she wanted to end it. But I do. I don’t want to continue it anymore. I felt like all that she ever wanted is the royalty I’m giving her. Gifts, money and sex seemed to be more important to her than true feelings and valuable time to spend with each other. I don’t want to be someone like her. After finishing our tenth grade, she was about to go to London to spend her holiday time. I decided that we should break up. She was the in a dilemma and the last thing she said is she wants to decide after the vacation gets over. I told her that my answer will be the same no matter what. During the vacation time, she didn’t try to contact me and I didn’t message her too.”
” I moved on. I won’t say it is easy but I know she doesn’t deserve me. I thought it’s all over for good. But I couldn’t control myself from getting shocked after she makes an entry into Edgewood high. We both studied in different schools and now she’s here. She acted as nothing happened between us. Fred doesn’t know that we almost broke up and he seemed happy that she’s back. At that moment, all I ever thought about is you. After moving on, I never wanted to have a relationship with anyone or wanted to date anyone. But I saw you seeking for help. I came to your rescue and the more time I spend with you, I felt happier. When I kissed you, I wanted to share my past about Crystal. But my bodyguard interrupted us to join the family dinner. You must have heard my sister was about to say something and I stopped her from kicking her foot. She was about to talk about Crystal.”
Everything seems a little clearer now. I know Eve was saying something. She said that the last time when her brother bought a girl. She must be mentioned about Crystal. I overreacted today. I won’t say that all the anger I had on Jason is gone. But I feel like he’s telling the truth.
” If you want your relationship with Crystal, you should have told it right when she kissed you in the school. You didn’t say anything. What can you say for that?” I asked like I’m still not trusting him. My anger won’t vanish by itself until I’m clear about everything. I want to know everything detail.
” I was too shocked, Milly. The first thought is why she’s acting like everything’s normal. Then you are in my mind. What will you think about me? It bothered me. I can’t say anything to you at that moment. Then you left the school without a word. You left with Ryder. On one side, it makes me angry and then I thought how am I going to explain it to you. I don’t want to lose my friendship or whatever is it with you.” Jason said emotionally. I never thought that someone cares about me within a short period of time. When I said, I hate Jason. I don’t really hate him. I cared for him and went mad when I came to know he’s not being honest with me. Whether it’s friendship or relationship, honest is necessary.
” Do you think that I didn’t ask any questions about her sudden change? I did when you, Pearl and Fred left.”
” What did she told?” I asked waiting for his reply. I can see that he’s hesitating to say it.
” Spit it out, Jason. I can’t wait forever. What the hell did she tell?” I shouted impatiently. Impatience isn’t my thing but the situation makes me impatient. Finally, Jason spoke silently. A barely audible voice.
” She’s blackmailing me that she might be pregnant. She’s saying if I broke up with her, she will spoil my reputation and ruin my life.”