“How many times did I tell you not to put the socks on the washing together with the underwear? The socks are dirty and the dirt will transfer to the undergarments then we will wear them. Hopefully, if only you get the infection, because your genitals will be totally dirty. Are you really stupid?” I asked Lileth who stands beside me.
She prepared my dress for tomorrow and I immediately noticed the sock she was holding that she took from the underwear basket.
“You’re really stupid ever.”
“I didn’t notice.”
“Because you’re stupid.” I slapped the sock on her face. “You’re dirty and you’re stupid.”
“I’m sorry.”
“You’re saying sorry but you keep doing the things that I hate. This is your way to let go of me? Because if yes, you can leave anytime. Nothing is stopping you!”
I didn’t hear any response so I sat on the bed. I straightened my leg and he sat near my feet. She massages my feet slowly and carefully. This is one of her routines every night.
I look at her who is just quietly massaging. I really love Lileth, despite what she did I can say I still love her. But every time I remember how she cheated on me and made me a fool — my anger covers my love. I was even angrier at what he had done.
“Why don’t you leave yet? I will give you money to start just stay away from me. Far, far away.” But she did not answer. “Every time I see your face, I wanted to kill you. Why don’t you go back to your son’s father?” But she remains quiet. This is why I really hate her. She does not answer my questions.
I removed my feet so she looked at me. I came closer to her and hold her chin.
“You’re the most beautiful bitch I’ve ever seen, Lileth. You fool me using your innocent face with hidden bitches inside.” I saw her tears shed. “Why Lileth? Why did you fool me? Tell me, who’s the fucking ass?”
“I’m sorry, Dustine.” And as always happens and she always answers, she keeps on saying sorry.
“I will never forgive you.”
“I will wait.”
“You will die first.” I lay down and no longer waited for her to lie down next to me.
I have so many dreams for Lileth and me. Before we got married, I was so excited because I could finally be with the woman I love under one roof. I can be next to her to sleep, see her before going to sleep, and when I wake up her face I will see her first. Free to kiss, hug and do all the tenderness —- but all that is broken. My dream of starting a family, to be a father to her son, disappeared because she cheated on me.
At first, she didn’t want to say her reason. But later she also admitted to me that she was able to do that because she was tempted and she didn’t think it would bear fruit. And that’s what I can’t accept.
“Dustine, I love you so much.” I feel her arms hug me. “I know I’m at fault for you but I hope you don’t think I didn’t love you. And I hope you will forgive me and accept me when the day comes.”
“As long as you don’t tell me who your man is, I won’t forgive you.” I turned to her and removed her hand. “Who is he Lileth?”
“You will only know who when I am about to die. I am already bad at your eyes. I just ask you one thing, forgive me.”
“You can’t get my forgiveness. Then when you are about to die.” As usual, I heard nothing from her. I just want to know who that man is? Who was the reason he cheat on me?
I WOKE UP in the middle of the night and Lileth wasn’t on my side. I stood up to look for her wondering where she is. I heard a faint cry on the terrace so I went there. I saw her on the floor crying while hugging her knees.
“What kind of acting is that?” I ask and walk towards her.
“Acting ‘isn’t it? means there is no reason and I just want to cry.”
“Stop playing dumb with me.”
“Can’t you just interfere with my acting? I’m not bothering you.”
“You’re annoying.”
“Then go back inside. No one told you to follow me here.” I smirked and kneel for us to line up.
“Did you miss the father of your baby? Did you miss how he fuck you and please you in bed?” I ask and hold her chin.
“I missed the way we were.” He answered directly. “The old us.”
“Feel to miss it as long as you can because it wouldn’t come back anymore.”
“I will wait,”
“It won’t happen.”
“Okay.” One thing that I hate about her is that she doesn’t accompany me when I’m angry. I stand and walk inside then come back with wine. Since there is no work tomorrow, I’ll just have a drink and accompany her.
“So, tell me, did you fall asleep and wake up and then cry or did you not sleep because you acted?”
“My answer doesn’t matter so don’t ask.”
“I’ll hit this bottle on your head.”
“Even in my moment, you wanted to know.”
“As long as you’re stepping on my property. I will interfere even if you breathe. And if you want me to stop messing you then leave this house, simple as that.” She stood up then pulled up the chair and sat down next to me.
“You hurt me physically, mentally, but I managed. Do you think I’m leaving just like that? I have nothing I can’t do just to get your forgiveness.”
“Is that so? We’re not yet started. Dustine Dave’s Wrath isn’t yet started. I’m just warming up what I’m doing to you.” I caressed her and slapped her slightly.
“Dustine,” she calls me. “I will do everything just to get your forgiveness.”
“We keep on repeating, Lileth. I told you as long as you don’t say who your man is, you will never get my forgiveness.” I stand in front of her and hold her hair. “Give me ahead, bitch.”
“I do not want.” But I was stronger than her so I touched her hair even more and buried her face in front of me. “Dustine, what is it?” I lowered the boxer and released the bulge. I poured the wine there and dipped it in her face.
“Give me a fucking head.” Her head struggled but I slapped her. “Open your mouth.” We almost wrestled until she gave up.
I could hear the combination of her saliva and my first juice. I could also hear she was having a hard time but I didn’t care. Even though I felt like she didn’t want to, I am the one who move. I raised and lowered her head and accompanied her by a hip meet.
“Fuck, did your man do it to you too?” All I hear is urghh. “You’re a good-looking bitch, Lileth. You are not fit to be a wife because you are fit to be a whore. If I only knew, I wouldn’t have married you and just made you my bed warmer and fuck you all day.” I keep grinding inside her mouth. I pressed my penis even harder into his mouth until I could feel my impending explosion.
“Oh shit!” I remove my shaft and stroke it in front of her face. He clung to his head struggling but couldn’t get out of my grasp. “Fuck, ah!” I spread my juice on her face. I spread it up to her hair, face, and body. I slapped her using my shaft as it gradually softened and then I also let her go.
“It’s really fun to watch you when you’re dirty with my juice. You are like a garbage can littered with dirt. Well, that’s obviously you — trash and you’re fucking dirty. Go ahead and feel to cry now. And at least you have a reason to cry there because I’m driving you away again.”
And I left her crying on the terrace because her crying was soothing. I closed the door and locked it.
Harden yourself in the cold there later when the rain pours. You want to cry, you cry in the middle of the rain later. Jump on the terrace if you want to get in here because I don’t care about you.