“Don’t do this Shayan, don’t make a decision based on your anger.” He said standing up towering over me.
“That’s not what I’m doing Kel. I’m doing what’s best for me and besides I don’t have the heart to forgive it love you, you broke it Kel. You broke me and I’m afraid you’re going to keep on doing that if I give you the chance to.” I said sadly, I really couldn’t keep up with this.
“Calm down Shayan. We’d talk about this when you’re calm.” Kel said taking my hands, he tried convincing me but I wasn’t hearing any of it.
“Well, I’m calm Adrios. I want out. I can’t do this. I can’t keep up this facade of our marriage or anything. I just want a simple life Kel, being with you is anything but simple.”
“What about Evie?” He couldn’t be playing the child game now, I was angry.
“What about her? She knows you’re her dad now. I’m not obliged to start with you because of her.”
“I didn’t do it Shayan. Trust me.” Kel said and I laughed sardonically.
“Trust?” I angrily asked. “What’re was the trust when you believed I cheated on you with Jason, where the hell was it? Don’t ask me of something you’re not capable of giving.”
“Okay. If walking out is what you want, what you think is best for you then so be it. If being away from me would make you happy then leave. Right now your happiness is all that matters. Just know that I didn’t do it and I never meant to hurt you and wouldn’t hurt you further. Je t’aime encore, Je n’ai jamais arrete de t’aimer.”
I had no idea what he said or what it meant. I was angry at how he’s letting me go but people say you only let go of what you love, maybe that’s what we’re doing. I know I’m scared of loving him, I don’t want him to hurt me and I don’t trust him with my heart just yet. I still haven’t forgiven him after those years and I can’t love him fully because it’s acting as a barrier. I can’t seem to let go of what he said, what he did. I still harbour some amount of hatred for him. I never to heal, forget and forgive before I love. It was what’s best for me. For the both of us. So I left, I left the office without turning back.
“Mummy, why are you back so early, where’s Kel?” Evie asked searching for him around.
“He’s still at work,” I answered.
“Mrs Adrios, would you like anything?” The nanny asked
“No. Thanks for taking care of Evie, I’d take it up from here.”
“Ok, ma’am.” She said excusing herself.
I carried Evie up to my room and sat her down.
“Why are you back so early?” She asked again. She didn’t even let me reply before she asked about the ring.
“I left it with Kel,” I replied like or was no big deal.
“So you’re no longer getting married to him. Is it because of me?” She sounded like she was about to cry.
“No Evie, it’s not because of you,” I replied hugging her.
“Then why?” She was crying now.”I thought I was going to have a mommy and daddy.”
“You have a mom and dad Evie. We’re both here for you.” I said patting her back.
“Did he hurt you mummy, is that why you’re leaving him?”
“It’s complicated Evie. You wouldn’t understand but if you want to stay with Kel I wouldn’t mind.”
“I want to come with you.”
“I love you, Evie,” I said hugging her as I let a tear slip. I know I was being unfair to her. I just need to be away from him but I wouldn’t mind them hanging out.
“I love you too mummy.” She said and I smiled.
“So are we going to leave? Would we come back, would you and him get back together?”
“I don’t know Evie but for now we’re leaving.”
“Where would we go to?” She inquired.
“To my parents. It has been a while, what do you think?”
“I like that,” she said smiling and I did too.
I missed my family and friends. I can’t believe I stayed away from them because of him. Because of that stupid contract, I lied to my parents, I’d very much like to tell them the truth. I didn’t know whether to leave a note or something. I wasn’t planning on leaving with anything since I came with nothing and so I left with only what I had on. I left with nothing down to my phone.
Kel’s POV
I thought things were going on well with us, I thought we far resolved every issue but it turns out she still hasn’t a grudge towards me. I didn’t blame her for that because I know I have said and done some things that can’t be forgiven but I was thinking she was willing to try. She just walked out like that v not even giving me a chance to properly defend myself or prove to her that I could do this, we could do this together and be a happy family. Maybe it was good that she left, I’d just have to court her again. Propose to her as I should have. I’d do everything it takes to get her and my daughter back.
I was angry that she just believed Susan just like that but my conscience told me how I had done the same so I had no right to be angry and I know now how she must have felt. I hated how she threw my words at me, I hadn’t meant to call her all those things, I wonder if she can ever forget that. I had a lot of apologizing to do, I just hope she takes me back.
Getting home I was half expecting to see her. I went to her room, everything was in place. She didn’t take anything with her even her phone. I laid on the bed and sighed, her scent filled the room and it was lovely, I took the sheets bringing them to my nose. She had only been gone for hours but I was missing her already. I had a wild guess that she was with her parents. They’d probably throw me out if I go anywhere near them. I’d just have to plan on how to win her back. I couldn’t lose her again.
Shayan’s POV
I was kind of ashamed to go back to my parents, I could very much have gone to a hotel or something but I didn’t, I needed them. I rang the doorbell and my mom opened it.
“Shayan, Evie.” She exclaimed surprised to see us.
“Sheila who’s at the door?” My dad asked
“Dad,” I said hugging him. We did a family hug and I smiled. I missed my family.
“You came on your own, what about Kelvin?” Dad asked noticing his absence.
Throughout the ride here I had thought of what to say if they asked. I wanted to tell them the complete truth but I still felt obliged to keep the contract a secret.
“He’s at work or home,” I answered.
“You didn’t come with any luggage, are you going back soon?” Mom asked.
“No. I’d be staying here for a while,” I answered ashamed
“What did he do? Don’t tell me he sent you out” dad angrily said.
“No, no, no. He didn’t.” I tried clarifying.
“You left him?” Mom shouted.
“It seems like we’d have to sit down and talk,” Dad suggested and I agreed with him.
“Come on Evie, let’s go in,” I said carrying her inside.
“We’d talk about it after dinner.” Mom said and I nodded.
I carried Evie to my room and we sat on the bed. “I miss daddy.” She sighed saying.
“I do too, “I admitted sadly.
“When are we going back?” She asked again.
“I don’t know Evie,” I answered honestly.
I don’t know if I could go back if he’d want me to. If he’d even want me back or bother trying to get me back. He was right, we should have talked when I was calmer. I shouldn’t have made a decision when I was angry. I wasn’t even that angry or stopped to be. I guess I overreact sometimes. Maybe I just want to see whether I mean anything to him as he claims. If he wants a family with us.