“Contrary to what you believe I did love you Shayan, you’re the only girl I ever loved. The only girl I want to love and spend time loving. ” if it was before I’d have been smiling like crazy. It was nice that he was saying those things to me but I couldn’t believe him, at least for now. He was the one that said those cruel things to me that I couldn’t even love myself.
” You said that to me before and we both know what happened after that. Saying it now it’s worthless, it doesn’t affect me at all.”
“So I don’t affect you in any way? you’re not attracted to me, you don’t feel anything towards me?” he asked for confirmation
“Not at all. The only thing I feel towards you is hatred.”
“You’re a bad liar West,” he said capturing my lips in his.
His lips moved on mine and my body immediately reacted to it against my will. The familiar feeling of a thousand butterflies fluttering around in my stomach made me a little bit nervous. I was enjoying the kiss way more than I should. He shoved his tongue in and I met each of his thrust with mine letting out a small moan and I saw him smirk a little bit but I was too engrossed in the kiss. I raked my hand through his hair and he let out a tiny moan pulling me close to him touching my body. I enjoyed the feel of his hands on my body, it was setting it on fire and I let out another moan. I wanted him to touch me everywhere. Gosh, I hate what he’s causing within me. I’ve never felt like this for anyone else, not that there was anyone else. It’s just like my heart was reserved for him alone, only he could cause all this sensation and surge of emotions. I wasn’t meant to feel anything but who was I trying to kid?
“That kiss just proved that you feel something towards me. You could have slapped me if you didn’t want to but you didn’t. You’re attracted to me Shayan. There’s no point in denying.” I hate when he’s right. I still want to stay mad at him but after the kiss, I’m left speechless.
“What are you going to gain from all of this, why can’t you just leave me alone. It’s what’s best for us, there are so many other girls like Susan that can satisfy you in any way you want. Why settle for me? ”
He looked at me like I was crazy then chuckled lightly. “True, there are other girls around but no one is you, none of them can satisfy me more than you do. Do you know how satisfying it is to see you smile or watch you laugh, most especially if I’m the reason behind it? Do you know how happy I am when you say my name alone? I’m satisfied with just looking at you Shayan. So tell me, why would I settle for someone else when I have what I want right in front of me?”
I’d be a damn liar if I said his words didn’t get to me but I just didn’t want to dwell on it. I did once and I was left heartbroken, it couldn’t be broken again, I wouldn’t be able to handle it. I know how difficult it was for me to finally get over the first. I wouldn’t be able to handle it, much less from the same man.
“I can’t leave you alone Shayan. I did that once and we both know how that was, I want us to be the way we used to. I get that it’s hard for you to trust me with your heart but I want you Shayan, I want you to try. Follow your heart.” he pleaded
“I followed my heart once Kel, it was a disaster. I was broken beyond repair until I found my salvation. I don’t want to go through that again Kel.”
“You wouldn’t. I wouldn’t have you go through that again. I wouldn’t do anything to hurt you, Shay, I swear on my life.”
The way he was talking now, begging for me to accept him, I’m not going to lie and say I don’t like it cause I do. The words were nice, any woman will fall for that but I didn’t want to fall.
“You said that before and do you know what you did? You didn’t just break it you destroyed it to the point that it wasn’t functioning, you broke me Kel.” I sadly said.
“I’m sorry Shayan, I didn’t mean to.” he apologized
“But you did in the end, sorry can’t cut it Kel. You have no idea what I went through because of you.” I was nearly in tears remembering everything.
“I’m sure I have no idea which makes me more sorry. I shouldn’t have let you go through that alone and I’m promising you now that I would be there for you, every step of the way no matter what,” he promised to hold my hand staring right at me.
I wanted to trust him, believe him but I don’t know why I couldn’t. I was overwhelmed with sadness and guilt.
“You weren’t there when we needed you the most Kel.” this was an opening to tell him, I just hope he takes it well.
I don’t think he heard or he chose not to because he just pulled me to his laps so that I was facing him and then he wrapped his arms around me. I found comfort in his embrace but the guilt was killing me.
“I want you to enjoy yourself on this trip, do whatever you want to do but please don’t push me out.” he softly said stroking my hair. “Would you do that for me?” God, his voice was so sexy and him speaking softly as he did was doing things to me. “Would you?” he asked again. I guess I could try.
“Yes. I’d do that.” I said and he let out a smile.
“Thank you,” he said kissing me on the lips, I’m sure it wasn’t meant to be long but it eventually was.
“I love kissing you,” he admitted smiling while stroking my hair. I said nothing, just smiled. I wasn’t going to tell him but I did too.
We talked for a while getting to know more about each other but never mentioning anything about the past. I know we have a lot of things to ask or confess but we are probably too scared to bring it up because we didn’t want it to ruin whatever we had going on. I fell asleep after that and he woke me up when the plane was about to land. Evie was awake now and I suddenly felt shy about the position Kel and I was in.
We alighted the plane and I took in the familiar surrounding. I guessed where we were.
“Bienvenue à Paris mon Coeur,” he said smiling and the accent was so sexy coming from him. I had no idea what he said but it confirmed my suspicions about us being in Paris.
I was excited and hugged him. “Thanks for bringing us here,” I said smiling. “But why Paris again? ” I curiously asked.
“I know how much you love it here and we didn’t quite visit a lot of places on the honeymoon and I want to make it up to you. For you to have a proper tour of this beautiful city of love.”
“Thanks. ” I said hugging him. It was very thoughtful of him to do this. He wanted a place in my life.
“We’re in Paris? ” Evie excitedly asked.
“Yes,” I replied as excited as she was.
“The car’s waiting Mr Adrios.”
At the mention of the car, I remembered the stunt Kel pulled the last time we were here and revenge sounded so sweet but for the sake of whatever we had going on I didn’t do anything. We got into the car and we were driven to our destination which happened to be a mansion that was built in the French style, it was really big and beautiful.
“You bought a house in Paris, it’s beautiful,” I said admiring it.
“I designed it and it’s not mine. It’s for you,” he said handing me the keys.
I was shocked and when I recovered I laughed, I don’t even know why I did, was he really serious? He looked hurt when I saw his face and I stopped. He was serious.
“You don’t like it?” he looked hurt.
“It’s wonderful Kel. I can’t just believe you bought a house for me much less in Paris, it doesn’t seem real.”
“It is mia, Bella. I got it for you,” he said slowly.
“It’s beautiful Kel but I can’t accept it.” I slowly said watching his reaction.
“It’s a gift Shayan. The house is in your name whether you accept the keys or not.” it was a normal reply but his anger didn’t go unnoticed.
“Why did you buy it?” I curiously asked.
“I want you to have a house in your favourite country and I told you I’d do whatever it takes to make it up to you, to make you happy.”
It was very thoughtful of him, really it was. I was happy that he was making all this effort to make me like him but he didn’t know he didn’t need to do all these. The way he said it made me feel ungrateful. I should appreciate him for it not make him feel bad about getting it for me.
“Thank you, Kel. It’s really lovely for you to do this.”
“You’re welcome, Shay. Now let me give you a tour of your house,” he said taking my hands and I heard Evie mutter finally.