I was so down after my daughter pushed me away. I asked my son to stay with her sister tonight. I know that Amelia needed her brother right now. Even though Amelia bullies her twin brother most of the time, Alistair is still her confidant.
Also, I wanted to be to go to my parents. I need their comfort. So I drove my car to their mausoleum.
It’s really a good thing that I made this mausoleum like a home. Especially in times like this.
When I went inside and saw my parent’s grave, tears start to fall again.
“Mom,” My voice broke.
“My daughter hates me. She doesn’t want to listen to my explanation. She thought that I take them away from their father. I should have made Hadley shut up and drive her away instead of listening to her delusion.” I told them.
I really wish you are here with me, I really need a hug from you guys.
“Mom, Dad, I should have not planned to have a baby, nor a family. My children are suffering because of my selfishness. Being hated by my daughter is the worst feeling. I don’t know if she will still give me a chance to explain myself to her.”
I am starting to hate myself now for being so selfish in the past. My children are innocent. And now they are hurting because of me.
“But mom, dad, I can’t say that I regret having them. Because Alistair and Amelia completed me when I feel so broken because I lost the both of you. I keep on telling myself to stop being selfish but my children are the best thing that happened to me. And I can’t regret that.”
“Mom, Dad, please help me to reconcile with them. Help me to be a good mother to them.”
I let myself again cry like there is no tomorrow. I want to give myself this time to cry because I need to fix myself for my children. I need to finish my mourning and start to be a mother again to my children. I will win my daughter back.
I feel like someone is carrying me. I don’t know if it’s real or not. Maybe I was just dreaming. And then I hear a voice after the person carrying me, put me down to bed.
“Sleep well, my love. I promise you, I will do everything to lessen your pain. I will get rid of the people who keep bugging you and I will help you reconcile with your daughter. I will do everything for you, my love. I love you so much.”
What this person said just gave me so much comfort. It was exactly what I needed… I needed someone to assure me that everything will be alright and that I am not alone in this.
When I woke up, I was hearing laughter outside. I look at the surroundings and my forehead creased.
I know this place. Why am I here? I remember that I fell asleep at my parent’s grave. Why am I here? Why am I in my former room in our mansion?
I was still lost but I manage to walk outside my room. I wanted to know who owned the voice and laughter that I am hearing right now because it sounds so familiar.
Then I saw my parents, my tears fell. They were happy doing what we love to do.
Eating in our garden while mom and dad prepared the barbeque.
“Mom, dad!” I called them.
They turn their head on me and smile.
“Our baby.” They both said.
I went to them and hug them real tight. I long for this moment to happen and it’s finally happening. I can’t believe it.
“Why are you crying, my love?” My mom asked me while caressing my face.
“I miss you so much, mom, dad!” I said while crying.
Thank you, Lord. Thank you for this.
“We miss you too so much baby.” My mom sad while wiping my tears.
I hug them again, savoring this moment. I keep on telling them how much I love and miss them.
My dad invites us to eat. We eat just like we used to do. I miss this. I miss having a meal with them. I was eating while crying, while my mom and dad were smiling at me.
We were on our usual spot in the garden. I was still hugging them. I was afraid that this will be gone any moment.
“I am sure that this is just a dream. If it’s possible, I don’t want to wake up anymore. I just want to be with them, Lord.” I whispered.
My mom breaks from my hug and turns her face on me.
“Baby, don’t say that again. As much as we want to be with you like this forever, but you need to go back. Your children and especially Ulie needs you.” My mom gently said.
I furrowed. “I know mom and dad that my children need me. But why did you also include that guy?! He was the one who killed you!”
“Ulie has nothing to do with what happened to us. It was an accident.” My dad said.
“But he was the one who caused it! If it wasn’t for him, there will be no accident!” I hissed.
“Baby, listen to us. Stop blaming Ulie for the accident. He never wanted it to happen. He suffered enough. You need to help him to let go of the guilt that he was carrying for years.” My mom said.
“But because of him, I lost you.” I just said.
“And it was also because of him that you have your children right now.” My mom said.
I was taken aback. They are right. If I did not meet Ulie that night, I don’t think that I will have a one-night stand with another guy that time. I mean, many guys approached me and I like none of them.
“Ellie, everything happens for a reason. You lost us, your only family but you also gain a new family. It was already our time. We need to respect that.” My dad said.
My tears begin to fall again. That is one thing that I can’t accept… That it was their time already that is why they’re not with me anymore.
“Please, baby stop blaming Ulie. We witness how much he loves you and how much he waited for the perfect time to win you back. Ulie respected what we requested from him. It was not easy on his part. He keeps on asking us for an update about you. He was scared that you might fall for someone else, but he still waited until you graduate. He respects what we want for you.” My mom explained.
Ulie told me about this already. They did have an agreement. And all of it is for my well-being.
“You need to let us go now, Ellie. You need to move forward with your life not only for yourself but especially for your family. They need you, especially now that Ulie remembered everything. You have no idea how difficult it is for him right now.” My dad said.
I shake my head. “I don’t want to let you go, mom, dad! I want to be with you.”
My parents shook their heads. They both hold my hand.
“Our time is done here on earth, but yours is not. Let us go and be happy with your new family. Live a happy life with them. That is our greatest dream for you now. We are well my child. You don’t need to think about us. Let us go.” My dad said in his sweetest and caring voice.
I slowly nodded my head. I need to stop my selfishness and let them go.
“Okay, mom, dad.” I just said while sobbing.
They both hug me. “Forgive Ulie and tell him that we never blame him for what happened. And we thank him for loving you since then until now. Even though he lost his memories of you, he was still able to find you and be with you.” My mom whispered.
I look at both of them.
“Ellie, stop blaming Ulie about what happened to us and stop blaming yourself for loving him. You guys are meant for each other. Don’t let our accident hinders you from your happily ever after.”
That was the last message I got from my parents after I woke up from a great dream. I touch my face and I can feel the fresh tears that came from my eyes.
The dream looks and feels so real. I look up and thank God for the great opportunity of being with my parents even if it’s just a dream.
Thank you, Jesus.
I feel so peaceful right now. And I know I am ready to face my family and reconcile with them. I finally let go of the guilt of loving Ulie.
It already came from my parents, they never blame him and they are rooting Ulie for me. What more can I ask for?
I went to my parent’s grave again, this time with a smile on my face.
“I will fix this mom, dad. I promise you both that I will win my family back.”
I feel light and happy while I was on my way to my penthouse. I wanted to take a bath and change before I go to the Escarrer mansion and get all of them back to our home.
I miss them so much.
When I opened the door of my penthouse, my eyes widen as I see my twins playing in the living room.
“Amelia? Alistair?” I called them.
They both look at me with happiness in their eyes.
“Mommy!” They both greeted me and hugged me.
“We miss you, mommy!” They both said.
The tears fell again in my eyes. But this time, it was tears of joy.
“I miss you guys too!”
“What about daddy?” Amelia asked.
I smile at her and pinched her cheek. She pouted and I just laughed.
“I miss him too.” I honestly told them.
They both screamed and giggle.
“I’m sorry mommy for what I told you these past few days. I didn’t mean it. I was just so sad because you guys separated.” Amelia said in a whisper.
I gave her a kiss and a pinched on the cheek. “And now you already forgive me?”
She nodded. “Dad explains everything to me. It was his fault why you are mad at him right now.”
I shake my head. “No, honey. It was not your dad’s fault. It was nobody’s fault. I want to apologize to your dad for blaming everything on me well in fact, it was not his fault.”
My children gave me another warm hug. I feel so happy and contented right now. I just need to talk and reconcile with Ulie. Then it will be complete happiness.
We were about to go to the Escarrer mansion when my phone rang.
It was Kaela.
“Kaela-”
I was not able to finish talking when Kaela starts talking.”
“Ellie, my brother committed suicide.”