Cindy’s POV
It was hard, and my body wanted Alder so much. It was like I was a s*x addict and couldn’t do anything about it. I don’t know what I would have done if not for him. My body was aching for his touch, and I now understand that if he had not been around, I would have just taken any man just to fu** me, and I would surely hate myself if that happened.
Alder never left my side for more than two days, and we stayed in our bedroom the whole time. He only stopped pleasuring me when we needed to eat; goddess, I needed it the most. After every cum, I feel so tired, but I still want more. Just how do all women in their kind manage to handle this kind of situation?
‘It was because they let their mates mate with them, that’s why,’ Masha said,
‘You wanted that too?’ I asked,
‘There’s nothing that I can do if you don’t want it. I should be able to control you at some point, but you are so strong that I can’t.’
‘You wanted your mate so much?’
‘It’s not just me; every wolf or Lycan would want their mates, especially when they see them liking them back.’
‘Why did that bastard not want Clover? Why did he reject her?’
‘As you said, he is a b*****d. Do I need to explain that to you when you already know the answer?’ she replied sarcastically.
‘I get it, and you’re mad at me.’
‘As long as you know,’ she replied, and I somehow feel sad about that. It must be because she’s a part of me, just like what I read, but I can’t help it. How can I just accept everything after all that happened to me? Knowing what had happened to Clover added to my fear. I may have been challenging when I was human, but I am very soft-hearted to the people I love, so I get easily hurt when they betray me. Trusting again will be a big move for me, considering that the people close to me used that against me.
‘I’m sorry if you are having a hard time because of me,’ I told her sadly.
‘Yeah, you should be. But I understand you. What happened to you is really tragic, and I want you to know that even if I didn’t like what you were doing to our mate, I understand you.’
‘Thank you,’ I replied,
‘So, what are you going to do now?’ she asked,
‘About what?’ I asked curiously,
‘We will become a Lycan later,’ she answered. I sighed about that, and I still didn’t know what to do. I guess I will only let things take their course.
‘We can’t do anything about it, right?’
‘Yes, we already know that this is going to happen soon.’
‘I guess we just have to accept it then,’
‘What do you mean?’ she asked, hopefully.
‘Let’s see what will happen next. I am already here, and I can see that Alder will never let me leave the palace. Plus, Mia is already here as well.’ I replied,
‘I liked that; at least you are willing to try when the time comes.’
‘But no marking yet, OK?’ I asked, and she laughed. ‘You’re laughing at me now?’
‘You don’t know what you are saying; when it’s a full moon, we will need our mate because we will be shifting, and it is going to be very painful.’
‘I thought we would be able to feel it because Clover asked the moon goddess?’
‘Transforming into a Lycan is a natural occurrence when you are mated to one of them. But the pain that comes with the transformation is not included in the pain that Clover asked the moon goddess for. She only asked for pain, such as infidelity and rejection. The heat that we experienced was included because it was also a form of betrayal on our part,’ she explained.
‘How come betrayal on our part?’ I asked,
‘It was us who didn’t want to mark our mate, remember?’
‘I see,’ I replied and just kept quiet. Then Masha hid herself after telling me that she needed a rest to gather some strength for later. I was left alone in our bedroom, so I went to the balcony. I found the warriors doing their training with Alder and Lance. Charles was not there, and maybe he was with Mia. They had been getting along really well, and I was thankful that I could see how happy my friend was with him.
Our bedroom was on the fifth floor of the palace, and the balcony was like a mini garden, but it had a part where I could lean and look around the palace. The training ground was a little far from the palace itself, but I could see everyone clearly. One of the werewolf perks, and so, is the sense of hearing. I found out that when Masha is transformed into a Lycan, our senses will enhance more and become even sharper. Just where am I going to use them?
I looked at the warriors in training again before I looked down, and it was high. Every floor’s ceiling is higher than any average building floor. I was still looking down when I was suddenly pulled away from the edge.
“What the—” I said and stopped when I saw my mate. I looked back at where the training ground was, where I had just seen him, and I was sure that he could teleport. On the first day of my heat, he entered the room, which I was sure I had locked before I got into the bathroom. But when I checked it afterward, the knob was not broken at all.
“Are you really going to kill yourself?” he asked, yelling.
“What??? Are you crazy? Why would I do that? I love myself more than anything else!!” I yelled back and saw him sigh deeply after.
“You have been standing on the edge while looking down for a long time already. I got worried that because you were angry at me, you would jump there,” he replied as he brushed his hair with his fingers.
“I had no plan on taking my own life because of you. I am not an idiot.”
“I can live with that, as long as you’re OK.” he replied, then looked at me, “You saw me down there; are you not curious why I was here suddenly?” he asked,
“I already told you I am not an idiot, and I came back from the dead inhabiting someone else’s body, so teleporting from wherever you are to me was not shocking for me at all,” I answered, and he smiled at me. Goddess, he is really handsome, and thinking he was a hundred and eighty-seven, that’s what I still can’t believe. I didn’t notice that I was still looking at him, so I was not prepared when he kissed me.
“My love, I hate to leave you now, but I had to get back to training. Goddess, I want you so much,” he said after our long kiss. “It’s going to be a full moon tonight, so you had better rest the whole day. You will need a lot of strength when you transform. Mia will be here later, so for now,” he said and pulled me inside our bedroom and had me lie down on our bed. “Sleep until Mia gets here,” he added and kissed me on my forehead before he disappeared.
I did what he said and slept. I just hope that the transformation will not be as painful as it should be.