CATRIONA
Appalled, I watched, my heart palpitating to Jayden’s inanimate figure sprawled down on the floor. I wobbled over to where he’s lying and reared down. Jayden, I whisper-called his name as I shook his body. His quiescent made my heart skip out of my body tragically. What is happening to us, that we’re taking turns in the world of vague insensibility.
I self-possessed and talked myself down: Nothing is wrong my mate. It has nothing to do with me being hapless. I have to learn not to panic in this kind of situation anymore. At least not to the loves of my life. Why would those who call themselves my good guardians let me look like bad luck to everyone? Why can’t they take the hapless mask off my face? Why? I complained but it was all useless. I’m just trying to distract myself to be brave for Jayden but my bravery is too weak to stop my tears from falling out. I should go and get his brother. Why didn’t I think of that in the first place? I shortly blamed myself for being a slow mind thinker as I rose up to go get his brother. A sudden seizure on my hand stopped me in my tracks. I looked down just to see Jayden staring back at me.
There’s no need to get Jerome. I’m fine. He said with a light smile but to me that light smile was fake. Does he want to show me that he’s fine when he’s actually not? I opened my mouth to urge him about it but I was pulled down when he tried to stand up forgetting that he was still gripping my hand, that I ended up cowping on top of him, nudging him hard in the ribs. I could feel him groan in pain but he masked it.
You got me hell scared there. What happened? Are you okay?
Why would I not be, not to this phenomenal posture? He said.
Seriously Jayden! My heart is exceptionally still beating mildly because of what happened and you’re here elated with a wistful smile like nothing happened.
Now that I am alive you shouldn’t repulse me, right mate!! Because behind this wistful smile are the dirty things I crave to do to this beautiful body of yours. He said while trailing his fingertips all over my body making me exude with a strong frisson of pleasure. I jolted away as he was closing the gap between our lips. You’re on thin ice… I mean, it looks like your back in your senses. I’ll go and meet with the girls. I stammered and lurched out of the room leaving him with a smile tugged on his lips. So was I. Before I could go any further I strolled back inside to make sure that he’s not back to being half dead. The thought made me dizzy. I clutched the door handle, quelling myself from breaking down. Truth be told, Jayden’s transitory incident shook the life out of me.
Jayden’s mount figure brought me back to reality. “Baby… what’s the matter?” He asked. I’m sorry, I wanted to make sure that you’re okay. I said, finally breaking in tears.
“Come, baby. Come hither and embrace me.” He said and I did so….
“I’m not a crying baby, I was just confused, scared, and didn’t know what to do next! He slowly broke the embrace and held my face in his big hands saying, “I’m sorry that I made you scared. Please don’t cry. He begged. You know it tears me apart when you cry. It makes me hate myself to see you crying, or in pain because of me.”
You look pale and haggard. You don’t look fine at all. I said.
He gave me a long wabbit glare and then crooked down to my neck and inhaled me deeply before looking back in my eyes. Trust me baby, I’m more than fine now. He said with a smile and this time it wasn’t fake. Now, I better go and finish some alpha work before my beta comes and kick the shit out of me. He said and planted a kiss on my forehead. I love you catriona. I love you too.
After changing into my clothes, we walked out of the bedroom together but parted ways. He went into his office and I to the third floor where he told me I could find Eliana. Luckily enough I bumped into godmother. She had a bowl of herbal medicine in his hands.
Hello cate, how are you feeling? She asked.
I’m good, godmother. It’s been a while since we last talked. I agree. She replied.
I’m looking for Eliana. Do you know where I can find her?
I’m sorry cate, I don’t think it’s a good idea. She’ll be in more trouble if the news gets in Alpha’s ears.
I spoke to Jayden. He knows that I am here. I told her. I was surprised that she believed me without confirming first with her alpha because she said “okay” and then showed me Eliana’s room.
Godmother, please, I want to be alone. I don’t have much time. She said, her voice croaky with a low plaintive cry. I didn’t say I was the one knocking because I know she’ll lock the door so I just pushed the door inside and entered. She was busy packing her stuff.
We need to talk. I said. She turned around, her eyes wide and filled with hate. Her neck was very swollen with what looked like godmother’s herbals, smeared all over it. The herbals made the swell look worse than it was.
Why did you do that to me? Why do you hate me so much? I asked but she decided to ignore me, continuing with packing her clothes. Stop packing. You’re not going anywhere. You’re staying at the pack house. She stopped and turned to me with a hateful scorn. Do you want to make sure that the alpha kills me? She graved. Your alpha knows I am here…
Who do you think you are? She asked, cutting me off. Do you think you’re a queen?
Look, you can think of anything you want but it doesn’t change the fact that I am your alpha’s mate. And being his mate I want you to tell me why you loathe me that much.
She chucked a dress from her hand before ambled over to me. “Yes, I loathe you so much that even your presence makes me sick. Just looking at your filthy murky mug makes me sick.”
From what I went through I came to care less about people’s loathing toward me but it still hurts that people I don’t know hate me for no reason. They would all leave after insulting me with speakable and unspeakable words because my mom always told me to act cool for their safety which I always did but left me with questions my mom couldn’t tend to answer. But not anymore. Enough is enough. Am not acting cool for anyone anymore. I did it for the woman I loved the most, “my mom..”, but she left me alone with my brother in this cruel world. From today forth, I tend to stand for myself against these cruel people.
I turned back to Eliana who was back to folding her clothes in her suitcase…
“Why does my presence make you sick?” Why? I raised my voice a bit, surprised by myself too. I don’t know what came over me because I started spilling out the words I’m not sure of myself, making Eliana react to what I didn’t know whether it was fear or humiliation by saying, “you like him, right! Do you like Jayden? Is that the reason you wanted me out of the picture so that he can make you his mate? Is Jayden the reason you killed Luciana? Do you think that ghost girl is on your side by making you do things you shouldn’t?
What In the world did I just say? I must be out of my mind. Before I could apologise to her for slipping my tongue with nonsense, she flumped down on her ass, staring up at me terrified. “How is it possible?”