“I think you need to tell her the truth now. Explain to her what happened, she’ll resist, but we need to trouble her mind a bit.” Z suggested.
“So I will start telling things about Aiden to her now?”
“Yes, Lucy. What you were doing was keeping her entertained but she need to know that she lived another version of her world that she’s oblivious of. And I recommend for Aiden to talk to her about it.”
My jaw tightened and my hand made a fist. “She hates me.”
“She does. After all, she thinks you asked Zeke to kill her mate for you. But I still believe that the bond between you both is stronger than what she believed. Let your wolf howl for her. Let her see you, talk to her, make her comfortable with you again.”
My mind wandered as she said those words. I don’t know how it will work but if its the best thing to do, I will.
“I’ll talk to her.” I stood up. “Also, Z, give your son a talk. Ravenous is rightfully his. He shouldn’t run away from it.”
When she nodded, I left.
***
As I climb up the stairs from the basement, my lungs filled itself of Ashira’s intoxicating scent as if on instinct that I’ll be near her soon.
I saw Nick from where I left him, looking after my mate just as I ordered.
I looked at Ashira next, she was sitting at where she has been positioned since last night. The view of the garden surrounding her was eaten by the dark and I see her as the only bright light that gave life on that spot.
She was seated in her usual bench. Can she feel that it was hers? That she belonged here? That she belonged to me?
Is she even confused of her feelings? Can I make her confuse? Can she feel any changes about herself when I’m around?
Looking back, I can’t see much of peaceful bond we had together. Its either we fight and make up for what we fought for.
I’m always around her, and I want to be around her. But I regret not having more good times with her.
Because right now, what memories can I say to her so that she could remember me?
“Hey, Aiden, where are you going?” Nick whispered, he was afraid that I’ll come near her.
I am, too.
I continued walking. My feet feels heavy from each step I take and as I get closer, it felt heavier.
The moment I stopped in front of her, air from my lungs left me completely.
“Hey, Ash.” I said in almost a whisper.
The way she looked at my face with disgusts and anger almost made me want to step back again.
But no, I’m taking back what’s mine first.
Aiden’s POV
“How dare you to come near me?” Her voice is trembling but I heard the hate and anger in it with clear emphasis.
I never thought that the sparkling eyes I adored will ever look at me like this. Like I’m a monster. Like I shouldn’t even exist.
Can’t she feel our bond at all?
My mind is puzzled, its breaking apart. This situation is dreading, and the lack of solution or cure for Ashira’s case had increases the frustration I feel that leads to a building sense of lost on my part. The pain in my chest was the last thing I have on the list, or so I tried.
Because if I don’t and just let myself get drowned from every sting I felt in my soul, I won’t be able to function. At all.
“This is my pack. I make the rules.”
I know I sounded rude but I can’t find any more ways to talk to her without begging, pleading or breaking down. I feel so weak, I feel so hopeless but I should be strong or we won’t survive this.
“Power-trip, right? That’s what you use to kill my Elon. You used your power to order some rogue to kill the father of my child!”
My. I felt a loud thud inside my chest and my wolf just stumbled inside me upon hearing her words.
Instead, I let out a fake laugh that made a deep crease on her forehead. I think she’ll burst her anger anytime soon so I decided to speak before she does.
“If only your believed mate is alive, I’ll be glad to kill him again.”
I saw her eyes widened before her nose flared. “You are heartless.”
“You took my heart, I won’t wonder why.”
My eyes softened as I look at her reaction, she seem to be shocked at what she heard from me. But what more touched my soul was the way I sensed the effects I gave her.
I touched her soul. Only for a bit because her walls started to guard up again.
“I won’t cheat with my mate.” she said. I sighed from the frustration of how she was picking up the conversation.
“I know.” You will never cheat with me. “Can I sit beside you?”
“You are asking? You just shoved to my face how powerful you are in your territory. Even if I say ‘no’, you’ll still have it your way.”
“If I’m having it my way, you will be in my arms.” I sighed. “I need a talk with you.”
Silence was what she responded me with. Was she taken aback? Am I making this quick? I’m not lying though. I wanted to held her in my arms, feel her body that I miss, touch her, kiss her. Tell her how much I love her.
“You are flirting with me.” she stated and I chuckled.
I am, baby.
She moved on the edge of the bench and motioned for me to sit and that made me smile. Ashira, even though she was unaware of what I really am to her, she still have the same kind heart.
I sat on the other edge and my heart lighten up a bit.
This is enough. This feels enough. I can live with this.
“I’m not forgiving you for what you did to Elon.”
This again… I wanted to get tired from all of this but no, she is not aware of the truth. She didn’t know she was mine. She still is.
“I am not asking for forgiveness.” I sighed.
“You’re rude.”
I looked at her and when her eyes met with mine, she quickly looked away. She hates me and I can feel her anger but her actions somewhat opposed her emotions and words.