“Ash…” he didn’t say anything further. I know he understands my point and he also doesn’t have any resolve with my problem. He just tapped my back twice before rubbing on it again and that’s enough for me. It’s enough that I have someone I can freely talk with.
I’m on the edge of giving up. I got no options left and the only future I can see right now is a disaster.
“What’s your plan now?”
I dried my cheeks and rubbed my nose as I shake my head. His question is what I’ve been asking myself for hours now yet I got no answers.
“All I’m left to do is wait for the worst.” I sighed and drink my whiskey straight again. The alcohol doesn’t seem to help me calm my nerves.
“Let me know what I can do to help.” he said, mirroring my emotions. I feel bad for dragging him into this though I can’t change anything now. Both of us could only worry about what will come.
It’s midnight and already Christmas yet I didn’t get the chance to greet Seth. We called it a night and I went to my room with a heavier heart. Aiden didn’t show up and I guessed he’s sound asleep by now.
I got an introduction ceremony and life to worry about later so I closed my eyes and hugged my blanket close to my chest.
Tonight is the first time I felt alone before going to sleep.
Aiden’s POV
Loud thuds on the door woke me up from my sleep. My eyes feel like burning as I tried to open it. Damn. I barely slept last night.
I looked at the side of my bed and realized that what happened last night is real.
I sighed and grunt as I closed my eyes once again. I lost my patience again and snapped at Ashira this time.
I did not mean to. But she’s trying to change my decision about taking Titus off his position as the pack’s head guard. I don’t like her sniffing her pretty little nose to my discretion.
I’ve said it to myself before. That I’ll never let my mate intervene with the pack. And she just did, indirectly, but I feared that’s a start.
And Ashira, rebelling against me did not help to cool my head. I can give her anything but an issue of the pack. That’s my sole role and she can’t have a say for it.
Last night, her wolf is calling to mine, crying and whining over what happened. My wolf didn’t let me rest as he continues to rock my conscience with what I had done.
I lose control last night and my power overflowed to her though I did not intend to. This is the first time that I hated that part of being an Alpha. I got a tiny thread of patience and when I get angry or irritated, my wild wolf will try to take over.
Another loud knock on the door made me hissed and stood up. I can smell Nick that made me even more irritated because it was not her.
“What!” I hissed at him as I opened the door. His eyes were wide in shock, caught off guard of my anger. It’s too early to start a bad day.
“Whoa. Chill. Merry Christmas?”
Nick’s grin made me growl and annoyed more.
“What do you want?” I turned to walk back to my bed and I sensed him follow inside. It’s too early and I can’t see the need for his disturbance for my sleep.
“Well, our Luna Ashira was supposed to try on a dress for later.”
I hissed again when I heard my mate’s name. Another guilt coiled to me when I think of her hurt and angered expression last night. My wolf growl at me again, unhappy with how I treated her. I ignored him but he is getting to me.
“Why do I need to know that?” I did not stop a low growl to escape from my throat. I’d love to know what she will do but my stupid pride keeps getting in the way.
Nick took a step back and formed his lips into an ‘O’, “Someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed.” He teased. How clueless can he be? He’s annoying me so early in the day and he seems to enjoy it.
I growled at him loud that made him shut up and gulped.
“Fine. Bad morning it is. Well, I thought she’s here with you.”
“You can see she’s not.” I snapped again and lay down on my bed, my face slumped on the pillow. I need more sleep.
“Ohhkay. Then she’s not here, she’s not home. She’s… missing then?”
My eyes turned wide open and I almost snapped my head and looked at Nick.
“What?!”
She’s not here? Did she run away because of what happened last night?
Nick’s expression changed. Probably realizing that my mate is fu*cking missing.
“Oh no.”
“Where’s Seth?” I stood up and grabbed my shirt. Why is my Gamma who’s supposed to keep an eye on her not doing his fu*cking job?
My moves are fast and all I’m thinking right now is the hope she did run away. Or else, it will be the other way around which she might be taken away.
I remembered the rogue who had an incredible speed. Did he take her?
But that’s impossible. The guards will know if someone trespassed the border.
“Seth’s still on his bed. Where can Ashira go? Did you guys fight?”
I snarled as I remember last night again. Nick didn’t say a word again since my reaction just answered his question. Blame is starting to creep me out if ever she’ll be on harm’s hand.
“Call for him and search the area. I can’t sense her near and she’s blocking our portal, I can’t reach her!”
I stormed out of my room as I said that. Panic and anxious is eating me right now.
This is your fault!
I growled at my wolf when he kept blaming me for Ashira’s astray. Hell, I’m not even sure if she does run away but I hope she does than being captivated by an insane rogue.
Seth followed Nick and me as we moved out of the house. We part ways to look for her, even Aurea is unaware that she’s gone.
I can’t smell another scent so I’m sure no one has entered the house. No unfamiliar smell is lingering around which means no rogue has trespassed my territory.
So where the fu*ck is she?
After an hour, the three of us decided to meet at the ancestral again.
“I searched the center, her scent is not there.” Nick reported. My mind is turning blank as fear of losing her plays with my head.
I can’t lose her. She’s my mate and she’s mine!
“She’s nowhere at the pack building. Ava hasn’t heard from her since yesterday, too.” Seth is huffing as he said that. I closed my eyes shut. I’m dead frustrated. I don’t know where to find her or where she could be. She’s just new here. The places she’s been to are just the pack building where the annual mapping was held and the guesthouse where she stayed.
“Where else can she be, Aiden?” Seth asked, probably thinking that I will know the answer to his query unfortunately I don’t.
“I don’t know. She’s new here and barely went outside.”