I paused, “Why?”
She pursed her lips, “For not loving him.”
I didn’t know what to say.
She looked at me and asked, “Can we still be friends?”
“Of course,” I said.
She smiled, “Thank you, Clara.”
I was a little surprised, because I thought she was coming to quarrel with me.
Then I said, “It was devastating for Hank to go through the death of his parents, and my appearance was unexpected for him. I know that I owe him a lot, but I can’t give him a response with my affection. Therefore, I neglected him.”
She said, “I tried to save him, but I failed. We came back years ago. And he stayed in Newton Town for six months. Someone asked him for help because Yara claimed that she would lay off staff during the financial conference. Therefore, he went back to Newton Town to solve the problem. I would always see him being drunk at midnight. He didn’t care about anyone, including himself. I thought he would torture Yara after knowing what happened to his parents, but he didn’t. He was just fighting with the George Group. I didn’t know why at first, but then I know. He just wants you, Clara.”
Then she smiled, “Don’t worry, I didn’t mean to bother you. I know that I shouldn’t say those words, but I don’t have any friends but you here in Country M. Sometimes I really want to tell you that he needs you. Only you can save him. Sometimes I would even think that he might not suffer that much if you were with him.”
I didn’t say anything.
She continued saying, “You could make him always think about you within a month four years ago. I didn’t know too much then. I found a U disk in his study in the evening when you appeared at his office. It was about you breaking down after labor. He loves you, really.”
Toby came suddenly and draped a coat over me, “Madam, Mr. Dennis said that you are too weak to stay outside for too long.” I was a little surprised.
Obviously, Dennis knew that I had met someone.
I nodded and turned to Jane, ” Let’s meet another day.”
Jane pursed her lips and asked, “Is Dennis’ love restricting you?”
I smiled and didn’t answer her.
I walked outside of the cafe with Toby, and was silent in the car.
Toby tried to talk to me a few times, “Madam, Mr. Dennis is still in the hospital.”
I knew that he wanted me to visit him. Holding the U disk, which was given by Jane, I pursed my lips, “Let’s go home. It’s cold outside.”
I hadn’t thought about the way to deal with what happened before yet.
Toby didn’t say anything, but sent me back to the villa.
Clariana asked, “Where did you go, mommy?”
I said, “Mommy went to see a friend.”
I knew, it was a little perfunctory.
I was a little muddled these days. I didn’t know what to do.
After Clariana went to sleep, I went to the study to watch the video.
I didn’t remember too much about four years ago, when Hank took me away.
I knew how well he treated me, but I forgot the details.
I started to watch the video. It was a familiar scene. I was at the villa in the southern suburbs of City P.
I couldn’t accept the fact that my baby was gone, so I hissed and tried to run away.
His tolerance and care were all recorded in the video.
I broke down from time to time then. Sometimes I would wake up at midnight and tried to find a knife to kill myself. Hank stopped me and I hurt him accidentally. I didn’t remember too much, but there was a scar on his belly.
I hadn’t seen anything sharp since then.
The video was too long to really finish. Knowing that watching it would make me feel guilty, I turned the video off.
Luna called me in the evening.
She was almost crying, “Clara… it’s mom.”
I didn’t know exactly about my feelings. I was not angry, but helpless.
How should I face her after she had made me lose my kid?
I kept silent for a while and asked, “What?”
I tried to control myself. I wasn’t that clod, but definitely not friendly.
She sighed, “I won’t force you if you aren’t willing to see me. But, kid, you have a long way to go. Please don’t let yourself regret whatever happens. I have no right to criticize Dennis.”
I didn’t answer her, because I saw Dennis walking into the study.
He was a little pale and was pretty tired.
Toby said that he was sick and went to the hospital after a night of kneeling at the Lewis Residence.
“Bye!” I hung up the phone and looked at him.
He said gently, “Toby said you didn’t eat much. Care about yourself more, okay?”
I said, “I’m not hungry.”
I didn’t ask if he was good, and why he was in the hospital.
He walked toward me, “Eat something with me later. It’s not good to be too skinny.”
Judging from his situation, he was still in a fever.
Following him and looking at his back, I felt heartbroken.
“Have you thought about how to handle the problem of the George Group being attacked?” I asked.
“Does staying with me make you happy?” He looked back at me.
I froze slightly, “I won’t leave,”
I was not happy. But at least, I was at ease.