Octavia POV
For the past days that I found out about the alpha, being my mate, my life seems to have changed, it is still difficult to believe everything, considering how it all happened so fast. Thinking aboutdehe past, hurts me like hell, and not that alone, the thought of Kai, really hurts me, I feel like everybody betrayed me, even my own parents, they know about it all along, but decided to keep it to themselves, and allowed me suffered to the point of death. What if I had died for real? What if I never came back to life again? The thought of everything, breaks my heart.
Over the weeks, I’ve grown fond of the alpha’s sister, and her mate too, as they’re the only ones I feel safe, being around. They’ve really been a good company, and always assured me that everything will be fine, which I really doubt. Most of the times, I loath moon goddess, for pairing me with such an heartless man, but then, I can’t deny the mating bond, that keeps drawing me to him, making me think of him all the time. I hate the fact that I can’t stop thinking of him, but it’s not what I can deny, he’s my mate, and there’s nothing that can be done about it.
For the past hours, I’ve been in my room, having a strange feelings in my body, which I can’t seem to decipher what it’s all about. Mother and father are not around, since I now live in one of the beautiful royal rooms in the castle, and them, they live in the castle, but not around. I wish there’s anyone around, to tell me what the feelings is all about. I felt my body heating up, and the area between my legs, I felt it tightened, like it was craving for something. Gosh! I think I’m going to lose my mind.
The urge to touched my vulva, suddenly rushed through me, but I tried as much as to resist it, I can’t possibly be masturbating, right? Letting out a frustrating sigh, I threw myself on the bed, and held the bedspread tightly, groaning in pain. This is so damn frustrating, neither Moon, nor anyone is around, what the heck do I do now?
After what seemed like forever, I finally stood up, and stormed out of the room, I really need to go find help, and there’s no where else I can go, other than Khalid’s room. It’s already late in the night, and people seemed to have already been asleep, even the guards were very few. I almost pounced on one of them, but I controlled whatever feelings it is, that’s trying to drive me crazy.
I stopped in front of his room, and took a deep breath, before raising my hand to knock on it, when the door opened, revealing Khalid, who looked shocked to see me. I felt whatever the feeling is, triggered again, at the sight of him, as the sudden urge, to do some crazy things with him, rushed through my mind, but I quickly shrugged it off.
“Octavia?” He called surprisingly, giving me an ‘are you ok’ look. For heaven sake, I’m not damn ok, he should see that. He left the door wide opened for me, and I walked in. He closed the door, before turning to face me, while I turned my face away, as I felt my heart, pounding heavily against my ribcage.
“Are you ok? You look tensed.” He finally asked, after running his eyes around my body for what seemed like forever.
As much as I want to avoid him, and not talk to him, I know I really need his help right now, if not for nothing else, but at least, to explain what the feeling is all about.
“Uhm… Khalid… I… my.. my vulva… it’s acting weird.” I stuttered, whispering the last part, as I looked everywhere else, other than his face.
An awkward silence filled the atmosphere, and I just couldn’t help getting worked up about the whole thing, as so many thoughts came parading my mind. Raising my head to look at him, I was welcomed with him, staring down at me, with pure lust, written all over his face. What the heck is going on here?
“You’re in heat period Octavia.” He said, scratching the back of his head, and I felt my heart skipped like a million times, as his words echoed in my head. Gosh! Why the heck didn’t I get this all along? How could I have forgotten this? Now that he mention that, I really feel like I want to know what it’ll feel like. Besides, he’s my mate, and we’re still gonna do it, no matter how long it takes, right?
Like my whole body have the mind of their own, I found myself, walking steadily to him, and soon, I was standing in front of him, with my heart, pounding heavily against my chest I don’t know where the courage is coming from, but I found myself doing it.
Staring up into his beautiful golden eyes, all I see, is desire, and pure lust. Without warning, he slowly wrapped his hands around my waist, and pulled me to himself, before lowering his head, and locked his lips with mine.
I felt the whole world stopped working, as his soft lips locked with mine. They were the most softest and sweetest things I’ve ever tasted. Damn! I don’t want the feelings to stop.
Like my hands already have the mind of their own, they moved up to his neck, before wrapping around it, as they pulled his head in, deepening the kiss, and the feeling is really out of the world. He kept kissing me, while his hands, caress my butt cheeks, sending a weird sensation down my spine, as I felt the fabric covering my vulva, became wet.
He pulled away from the kiss, and I felt like slapping him. Why the heck does he have to stop, when I’m enjoying the feeling.
“Don’t make that face, we’re just getting started.” He said and chuckled, while I just stared up at him. He looked extremely cute, when he smile, how come he never does that? I’ve never seen him like this, I’ve never seen this side of him, the only side of him I’m familiar with, is the fierce Khalid, but standing before me now, is another version of him.
“I love you Octavia.” He said the words, that no one ever told me before…