Sophia
He pushed me!
He fu’king promised he’d never let any harm come towards me- that he’d always protect me.
Why was I surprised? It’s not like I haven’t had my own share of betrayal all my life. After I saw the look in his eyes this morning when he burst through that door, I got a knock back into reality.
‘If you come close to my family ever again- I swear by everything pure and good, I’ll kill you myself!’ he now promises.
Family… Family?! Like hell I’ll ever let him have that now.
I pulled my hoodie over my head as I made my way out of the woods and onto the empty road. I need to hitch a ride soon before I get caught.
It was sheer luck that I was able to escape from there, but I bet the cops are still be on my trail. I have to get to somewhere safe asap.
I walked faster, turning back every second to see if a car is coming behind me. I wiped my nose with the back of my hand as I thought aback through the past 6months.
As if I hadn’t had enough of the Winfrey men accusing me of embezzlement, I still had to pretend everyday that I was living a happy life.
All the money I took from Castlehill- my money, that bastard Markian made sure I would never be able to touch it, not without being noticed.
Carlos tried all he could, but our Swiss account which was supposed to be private- wasn’t. Just one withdrawal and the Feds would be on us with choppers, vans and the entire cyber police squad.
I hated that, I hated it so much. If Markian hadn’t done that, Carlos and I would have been halfway to the other side of the earth. He would still be alive and I wouldn’t be in this situation right now.
I hate Markian so much, I hate Livy too- I hate all of them!
I couldn’t breath with Markian’s misplaced love and care. I felt trapped every fu’king day with him.
There were times when I wanted to tell him. I wanted to look him in the eyes and scream, “I’m not your little rose cheek, you fool! You’ve been mistaking me for someone else for the past 2yrs and I’ve had it!”
But that was the problem. At a point in the marriage, I really wanted to like him and love him as my husband. But we had to run into his childhood shrink, which brought up the whole story from his past.
I would have grown to love that bigot if his past hadn’t crossed with my b’tch of a sister. I thought I had a marriage, but it turned out to be all about Olivia as usual.
Everything in my life is about her and it’s sickening. I thought I could escape her but, I was even lonelier than I was in my mother’s house. And who came to my rescue? Carlos did.
He was there for me when I lost my 5weeks old baby. Nobody noticed, not even my own sister. Then the one person who loved me and was there for me when nobody else was, Livy got him arrested while Markian finished him off.
Oh, I’ll curse each day I don’t fu’king make them pay for everything they have done to me.
15mins later, I sighted a truck going my way and begged for a lift. I have to get to the most secured place I could think of. It’s the one place nobody would think to look for me.
As I sat in the moving truck, flashes of old memories came flooding in. Memories from when I was a kid, memories that thought me grave life lessons.
Flashback (19years ago)
“Leave me alone! Stay away from me, you’re not my sister!” I yelled angrily at Livy.
We both were 6 at the time, and I remembered being very scared of her since mom told us that story.
“Soph, I’d never hurt you, you’re my twin sister. That was just a bedtime story mommy told us, it will never really happen.” She replied calmly, moving closer to me.
“You’re lying. I don’t believe you.” I cried out moving farther away from her.
She had replied last night with her own mouth that, she’ll rule our empire and make me her subject. She had added that her crown would paint these castle red, but your crown will be buried in a grave.
“No, I’m not. Ok, look here…”
She ordered as she drew my attention to her palm which she placed it on her head in an attempt to make a promise.
“… I decided to wear that crown because it’s heavy for you to wear, that’s what mommy said. I’ll never let you go through that pain. I promise you today Soph, that I’ll never let anything or anyone hurt you ever. You’ll always be by my side as my equal, no matter what. Now and always” she promised.
I remembered my heart calming down and my insecurities slowly disappearing at her assurance.
“You won’t hurt me? We will always be together?” I asked excitedly and she nodded with a smile.
She is my sister, of course she’ll protect me, I had thought and believe.
But, I was a fool to have thought she meant any of it. That promise was as fleeting as the sunrise that morning, and I regretted ever believing her.
It was 2yrs later when Soul died, did I realized my sister’s true nature. Soul was mama’s Maltese shih tzu, a puppy I accidentally killed. It suffocated to death inside a box our room I locked her in, after she peed on my doll.
I knew mom would be furious with me and punish me by locking me up in the storage for hours to repent for my mistake.
After the car accident that took daddy’s life and almost caused me mine, I developed a phobia for dark and enclosed spaces.
But my mother would not have her daughters look weak. So as punishment, she’d often lock me in there so I would face my demons and overcome them.
Out of fear, I place the dead puppy under Livy’s bed so when it’s found, she would be blamed intend. But Livy had known what happened and told on me. She was angry that I had lied against her and she told on me.
As I was dragged to the store room, I cried and called out to Livy but she did nothing. She neither protected nor attempted to, and that was her first betrayal.
Aunt Barbra had tried to tell me that she wouldn’t, but I refused to believe her. She had told me that Livy would never truly protect me. She said Livy would only pretend, but when the time comes for her to truly protect me, she’ll do nothing.
I should have listened to Aunt Barb earlier. The incident with Soul only made me realize that i was truly alone.