Seth’s POV
“Is it really true that you and Zanaya of WHISTLE are really married?”
“What made you finally release the information to the public?”
“What will happen to SHADOW and WHISTLE?”
I swiftly marched my way out from the swarm of reporters that had been following me since the other day, after I dropped a bomb on our Livestream.
I just landed in Australia and I still can’t believe the reporters here bothered to pay any attention to my arrival.
The boys were left in Korea and I’ve been given two months’ vacation by our company, or so until they figure out how to fix the mess I created.
But no matter how many times I look back, I don’t regret my actions.
The boys supported me on my decision to go public and Zaya does the same.
Anyways, though I never really told her about my plan, I still partially asked her opinion about it once, especially it will be affecting her group as well.
Once when we were video calling, I asked her what she thinks about going public with our marriage. She told me that she’s okay with whatever my decision will be.
She even told me that her members are also okay with it if ever.
I told her I will think about it but the truth is, her approval is all I need because I’ve already decided.
Everything has been set. For three months, I’ve prepared everything.
The truth is, I was a little hesitant in the beginning because even though my members had agreed, I don’t want to be a burden to them
And WHISTLE , they just debuted a year or two. This will damage their reputation.
I know Zaya is okay with what my decision will be but the girls, don’t deserve to be drag down into this. They’ve worked hard so they can be idols. Somehow, it pains me when I think about what might happen if we go public.
That’s why I called Cali before I go on Livestream.
I asked for her permission along with Max and Tokyo.
They said they are prepared for what’s gonna happen as long as Zaya will be fine.
Right there and then, I realized that Zaya found the best members and friends she could ever have like I do with my members.
Initially, I only planned to announce that I am married. But I decided to tell the fans who my wife is because I’ll know they’ll eventually found out.
Also, the fact that I had been publicly dating Zaya a few months ago would be weird if I say I am three years married.
Once I saw my father-in-law from afar, a smile escaped my lips as I headed straight to him, him pulling me to a fatherly hug.
“Dad…” I greeted him.
“You’re finally back.” he said as he taps my back as a greeting.
We quickly headed to his car as a few fans still tried to call my attention.
Surprisingly, most of our fans were okay with me being married.
A lot were initially disappointed and most were mad because I didn’t tell it sooner.
What’s more surprising is, most of the fans were worried about Zaya.
A few of my dating scandals resurfaced and they were thinking how hard it must have been for her to be married to me after all the shits that are being publicized about my dating life.
Well, I think it’s a good thing. I am okay with getting a lot of hate rather than her.
After a few minutes, we already reached the house. Good thing they were situated on a very good place where not a lot of people are allowed to be in so we have privacy.
Once we arrived, I haven’t even walked ten steps but I can already hear Ji Hyun’s cries from the inside.
And I was right. Soon enough, here she is running towards me, jumping over like she isn’t someone who’s already big to have a little sister.
“Umppp!” I gasped as her body landed on mine.
“Yah, Ji Hyun! Be careful!” My sister-in-law, Alice scolded her child and she just giggled.
“Ji Hyun-ah, you’re getting heavier huh?” I said as I try to carry her inside the house, with my luggage on my other hand.
I can hear my father-in-law laughing at my state.
“Ji Hyun-ah, you’re going to kill your uncle at this rate.” my father-in-law muttered and I laugh as Ji Hyun pouted.
Once we reached the house, my eyes landed on Max, Tokyo, Cali and an unfamiliar girl beside Zanaya’s sister.
I put down Ji Hyun and bowed to them.
Max stood up and pulled me into a hug.
“Stop with the bowing. Now that you two are official, everybody knows that you are our brother-in-law.” she chuckled and soon enough, the other two does the same.
I kissed my mother-in-law’s cheeks as I nodded on the other girl.
My brows furrowed when her cheeks turned red.
I heard Tokyo laughing.
“She’s your fan.” she stated and the girl growled at Tokyo.
I chuckled at the sight of them.
“Wait till she sees Raze. He’s her ultimate bias.” Cali added and I watch in disbelief at the horror-stricken face the girl currently has.
“Hi. I’m Seth of SHADOW, Zaya’s husband.” I greeted and her cheeks had gotten even redder.
“I’m Kaizan. You can call me Kai or Zan, whatever you want.” she greeted back.
“I’m definitely not calling you Kai.” I said amused.
I looked around the room and my brows furrowed when I didn’t catch a glimpse of the person I was looking for.
“Tsk, your Zaya is at the lake dock. I don’t even know why she always stays there when it’s so cold.” Cali stated and I just laughed.
“My wife is weird sometimes but that’s why I love her,” I muttered and Cali gagged at my response.
“You do the same with Storm so stop being bitter.” I teased leaving her mouth hanging wide open before heading out to the dock to fetch my beautiful wife.
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Zanaya’s POV
My hands automatically brush the sides of my arms to keep myself from freezing.
I scan the area once again to appreciate the peace and quiet this place always gives me.
A smile escaped my lips after a realization hit me.
Seth should be at the house right now.
Two days after he made a fuss through their Livestream, he told me that he’ll be here.
And I’m so excited.
He must have been scared when he decided to make our relationship public.
I can still remember when he asked my opinion one time.
I said I’m okay whatever his decision will be.
I know it isn’t something easy for him and it’s definitely not a piece of cake for me.
To be honest, I thought the impact would be more negative on my part since I’m a girl and my group just debuted.
But I was glad that it doesn’t seem to affect negatively to WHISTLE.
It’s not that I was worried for me but I was more worried for my members. Their idol life is at stake because of this, the same as his members.
But I trust both our fans would understand.
However, I know somehow that Seth and I are prepared for the worse, whether the two of us can no longer perform on stage, we’re both prepared for that. But I wouldn’t take it if my members wouldn’t. They worked hard for this and I will never forgive myself if their idol life would end because of Seth and I’s relationship
My eyes landed on the beautiful sky before me, remembering how Seth seemed so nervous during his Livestream.
The girls and I were watching television when Kaizan came and informed us about what’s happening.
Once I took a hold of her phone, Seth’s beautiful face greeted me.
“For the past three years, I have been keeping you all a secret. Not because I want to, but I need to.”
He closed his eyes and released a long sigh.
“Though this news may be sudden, I want everyone to know that I am so thankful for the support that you’ve given to me and to SHADOW.”
He turned around and look at his members.
Storm nodded while Mono and Demo put a thumbs up.
Raze was smiling along with Grey and Sky.
“Oh my God…” I whispered.
Seth seemed to be having a hard time.
“Is he going to say what I think he will say?” Cali muttered bit no one responded. Instead, we waiting for what Seth will say.
“Our fans, I want to share to you something good that had happened in my life.” he started.
He clasped his hands together before looking intently on the screen like he’s really talking to someone.
“For the past three years, I have been….
Secretly Married,”
“Holy shit.” Tokyo cursed and my hand landed on my mouth.
I checked the comments and realized that his fans are going wild, asking who his wife is.
Some were confused and asking if he was joking or not while the others sounded devastated.
“Oh, God. He must be struggling right now.” my eyes moist along the process.
I felt someone caressing my back to keep me calm.
“I’m sorry I did not tell you any sooner but I’m telling you now because you have the right to know. Though I wanted to keep it private, you, our fans have been of great importance to my life and SHADOW life already that I wanted to share this news to you.”
“Seth….” I whispered as his voice cracked in the end.
“I know that some of you might get mad at me. However, this is something I have to do. A decision that concerns my family and the fact that I am being associated too much with a lot of girls is concerning not only me, my wife, but my family as well.”
Did he actually do this for me?
“I’ve already caused too much pain to those who loves me and I know right now, most of you were shocked.”
“However, I am wishing that you’ll all understand my decision. I love my wife so much and I love my fans as well. Whatever happens after this, I’m ready. I just hope that you keep your love and support to my members.”
By now, I’m already crying. Seth’s eyes are now red and his members are already standing right behind him.
He stopped for a moment and hesitated. A few of his fans are asking who his wife is.
A smile escaped on his lips. “You know who she is.” He started.
“She is someone so kind and beautiful. And even though I have hurt her emotionally a lot of times, she continuously love me selflessly.” he stated and my heart started beating rapidly.
“I want her to know that I love her so much and I’m ready to give up my idol life by shouting to the world how much I love her,” he added.
Seth, stupid…
“One more thing, aside from my members, please continue supporting my wife and her members as well. I know this is too much to ask and I’m not in the position to do so but I’m begging you all.”
The fans on the comment section are getting wild after realizing that his wife is also an idol.
“Again, I’m sorry for worrying you guys and please know that married or not, I am still thankful for your support and I will always love you our fans.”
He then stared intently on the camera as if he knows someone specific is watching.
“And to my wife, please know that I love you with all the I have,” he paused before smiling, “My Zanaya”
With that he and his members bid goodbye and the Livestream ended.
Soon enough, articles about me and him being married arises.
Our boss immediately called and asked if I’m aware about this. He was so frustrated by Seth’s sudden decision but he is my husband so whatever his decision is, I got his back.
I apologized to my boss while the girls just smiled at me reassuringly.
I can still remember how the three reassured me that they will support me until the end.
They don’t care if they can no longer perform on stage.
Max said we can just open a business for clothes or something and I cried after.
But we all know it’s not that easy. We have a contract.
They love me so much and I feel like I don’t deserve their love and kindness.
As much as I hate to admit it, the idol world is a little cruel.
An idol being married means kissing goodbye to our career, unlike if you are an actor.
That’s why I understand why Seth had to say those words. He was afraid for his members and mine.
But I’m hoping everything will get better.
I was still staring at the sky when I felt a soft fabric being wrapped around my body.
Soft chuckles escaped my lips after I smell a familiar scent before me until his arms wrapped around my waist.
“Why are you out here in the cold”he whispered on my ear and I felt the hairs at the back of my neck standing.
He hugged me tighter and I smiled.
“I miss you so much.” he whispered as he sways our body sideways.
“I miss you more.” I told him, my heart finally at ease now that he’s here with me.
I lifted my right arm as I feel his cheeks.
“Are you okay?” I whispered.
I know what he did had caused him trouble in his company.
“I am. Our boss was a little disappointed but he understood.” he told me and I removed his arms around me and faced him, my hands cupping his face.
He really is so beautiful.
I smiled at him and gave him a peck on the lips.
“Whatever happens, I will stay with you. I love you so much, Seth. You know that right?” I told him and he smiled.
“Of course and I am so thankful to have you by my side always. At least now, people know that you’re mine. Those guys better back off.” he scoffed.
“Tsk. Says the guys who have a girl being linked to him once every two weeks.” I snickered.
He chuckled at my words.
“Are you disappointed” he asked and I bit my lower lip when I realized how scared he looked.
My heart dropped on the floor at the sight of him.
“No. In fact, I am so proud of you.” I told him as I moved forward until our nose touches. “You made a decision that can ruin your career but you still did for us.”
“But I feel like I am being selfish. You know that my members and yours will be affected. And you… I know you worked hard for your debut.” he told me and I just pulled him in a hug.
“It’s okay. Don’t worry about it. I can dance and sing whenever I want, you’ll be my audience. You’ll cheer for me right?”
He gulped.
“Fuck Zanaya, that sounded dirty to me. But I like it.” he wet his lips and I hit him on the shoulders. He chuckled.
He then cupped my face and smiled.
“I did this for us. You’ve done so much for me. It’s only right that I tell the world how lucky I am to have you. And…” he bent down a little until his face was on my stomach, his hand touching my belly. “for this little angel right here.”
“Awww” I bit my lip as I felt the baby kicking the wall inside my stomach.
Seth’s eyes went wide as he felt it on his hands.
“Looks like our baby boy knows how to kick so hard. And he can definitely recognize his dad.” I chuckled.
He then started talking to my stomach and I smiled at how cute he looked.
“Hi baby, Daddy’s here. Your mom and dad are excited to see you.” he cooed and I have never felt contented in my life before.
Five months ago, that’s when I found out that I was three months pregnant.
Imagine my shock because I was sure I was getting my period though it’s lighter than normal.
I was scared.
I had been performing a lot during those three months and I wasn’t even aware that I am pregnant.
I was scared for my baby because of all the stress, crying and the physical strained that I had.
And when our boss found out, I thought that he’ll be mad.
He was disappointed, yes, but he still forgave us.
I know that he did a lot of things for me and Seth.
Both of our bosses carefully planned everything.
The girls and I were sent to Australia immediately. That was when I was still on my third month and I haven’t even had a noticeable bump on my stomach. And then we filmed for WHISTLE tv while my stomach is not yet big.
That’s the reason why they rushed the filming because the bulged on my stomach is starting to form.
On our Livestream, my body always has to stay hidden that’s why we normally do it on a bed so we can cover my body with a blanket.
That time when I was sent to the hospital, my Mom fainted because there is a blood on the bed after I experienced too much pain.
I was so scared because I thought something bad happened to my baby.
The good thing is that it was safe but the doctor instructed me to avoid anything that may cause me stress.
Right now, I’m on my eight-month and my baby boy will soon be with us.
My pregnancy had been hidden all these time and only both our members, our bosses, and family knew about it.
My aunt who is a doctor does my check up and she closes the clinic every time I have a schedule.
At five months, the filming for WHISTLE tv ended.
During my seventh month, it was started to get air.
No one would suspect that I am currently on my eight-month.
Seth and I decided not to tell our fans about our baby for now. We don’t want him to get hate at this young age.
And we want everything to be private for now.
“Do you think everything will be fine?” I asked him and with one last kiss on my stomach, he stood up and brushed my hair.
“It will, as long as we’re together.” he smiled before hugging me.
We don’t know what will happen next. But at least we are together now and we’re happy.
For three years, we have been Secretly Married but now, we will soon be having a child.
This is not yet the end of our journey, but the beginning…
I know eventually, everything will get better because we have our family, our loving members… And we have each other.