Zanaya’s POV
“Why do you keep calling me at times like this? You know you’re ruining my sleep, right? ” Storm pouted as he pulled me in a hug as a greeting which I returned with a soft slap at his back.
Storm really knows how to make the atmosphere lighter every time.
Somehow, I feel bad for always depending on him whenever I am in trouble. But Storm makes me feel at ease and his words always gets through me, like that time he gave me a pep talk when I caught Seth having a dinner.
I called him after what happened. When I read the article, I was hurt. Did Seth just confirmed that we’re over?
I turned to Storm who just messed up my hair as he chuckle.
“You would come anyways. Besides, I know you secretly wanted to check on my bandmate. So who’s really benefiting in here?” I teased and he just grunted before sitting a few spaces away from me.
I leaned my hands beside me as I stare at the night sky. We were currently at our dorm’s rooftop and I called Storm.
He had always been someone I can talked to especially with my relationship with Seth.
Silence filled between the two of us. Something that we both enjoy when we’re together. It feels like, we’re both just thinking about things.
I did a small reflection.
Seth and I had a lot on our feet. We’re idols and moreover, we’re married.
Sometimes I wonder, will things be a little different if I never met him? Or if we weren’t married first?
Or maybe it will be easier if we weren’t idols to begin with?
Will our paths still cross and will we ever fall in love with each other?
My head snapped towards Storm’s direction.
“Why don’t we just date, oppa?” I teased him which earned a glare from the older man.
“Shut up. That’s creepy and I know you’re head over heels with that jamless kid.” he shot back.
“And you’re so whipped with her.”
He chuckles.
“Maybe the reason why we have gotten closer is that we both are stupid. Don’t you think?” I started. He raised his eyebrows at me and I just pouted.
“Everyone thinks we’re okay but we’re both hurting and helpless in love with each other’s members. How ironic is that?” I muttered.
I stared back at the stars above. “You love her. Why do you keep on hurting her?” I can’t help but ask.
I heard him sigh. “You know the reason why I did that.”
Of course. He told me. But he made me promise not to tell Cali. However, I can’t help but say something about it especially since I can clearly see how they are both hurting.
Says someone who isn’t. My conscience unconsciously speaking.
“But she doesn’t. Aren’t you afraid that she’ll end up hating you forever?” I asked as I sat properly. I checked his reaction but he remained to lie on the elevated part of the rooftop.
“That’s coming from you huh?” he smirked.
He removed the hand covering his face. “I knew there’s something more behind you breaking up with him.”
I sigh. I was silent for a while.
We both watch the stars above.
It’s beautiful.
I feel like Seth is one of those stars. He seemed near but I cannot touch him. I can’t reach him no matter how much I want to.
“He doesn’t need to know.” I finally answered.
He sat down. “Don’t you think you’re being unfair to Seth?”
I glared at him. He doesn’t know what I’ve through. “I’m doing this for him.” I shot back. My arms shaking.
He sigh. He stared down at my feet which is covered with a bandage.
I slipped earlier. I was too out of it that I slipped on the bathroom spraining my ankle.
“Are you sure you don’t want to have your ankle checked?”
I chuckled bitterly at what he said.
“It’s just a goddamn sprain. It’s nothing compared to what I’m feeling inside here.” I muttered pointing at my chest. At that, my voice cracked.
A tear escaped my eyes. I can’t hold it in.
“Zaya” he moved closer as he stares at me worriedly. “You know you can always tell me, right?”
I wipe the tears on my cheeks but it won’t seem to stop.
“I know. You’re more like my brother now. My bandmates are even jealous of you.” I giggle after remembering how they were so upset after finding out that Storm found out my marriage way before them.
“I’m serious Zaya. Tell me what’s wrong. Maybe I can help. I can’t bear to see you two breaking up. Or why don’t you tell him the real reason? That way he’ll stop hating on you.”
He cupped my cheeks as he tries to wipe the tears on my face.
I feel thankful to have him by my side but deep within me, I’m still wishing that it is Seth that is with me, enjoying the beautiful scenery above.
“I’m okay, oppa. I can manage. As long as he’s safe, I am okay. I will get better.” I said to him but I feel like I’m convincing myself more.
“But he won’t. He’ll forever hate you. You don’t even know if he’ll move on easily. He will end up heartbroken, hurt, like what you are feeling right now.”
I look down as he brushes my hair to calm me down, while I cover my face as I silently cry.
“It’s not that easy,”
“Then tell us so we can help. I’m starting to think you’re into some deepshit trouble Zaya.” he said worriedly.
“Storm…” a series of feeble noise escaped my lips as I pulled him in a hug.
His body stiffens, startled with my actions.
“Shit Zaya, are you really in big trouble?” he rubbed my back as I hug him tighter. I am now bawling my eyes out.
“Storm, I love him. I love him so much it fucking hurts.”
“Jesus, Zaya. Make sure not to let Raze hear you cursing.” he pulled me away as he stares at my disheveled state.
“This won’t do. I need you to tell me everything or I will flip, Zaya. You are definitely in trouble. Now tell me before I get mad, okay?” he stated and I nodded.
I guess I can trust Storm. And I need to get this out of my chest now.
Seth, can we still be together?