Tokyo’s POV
I bit my fingernail as I stare at the people in front of me.
The room was silent.
After Max snapping and Cali walking out, the only thing you can hear on the room was everyone’s irregular breathing.
Max had been silent the whole time while Cali stays on her room. Storm followed her but seeing the expression of Cali earlier, I doubt he will be able to talk to her at this time.
“It really isn’t a dream…” Demo muttered as he plopped down the cushion, all his energy draining off his body.
“What do you mean?” Mono asked and I just stared at them clueless.
Sky glanced at both Seth and Zaya’s direction.
Zanaya was shaking.
I wanted to move forward and hug her but decided otherwise.
She has her husband. She doesn’t need me right now.
And to be honest, I don’t even know what to feel.
I looked down as I bite my lower lip.
We’ve been together for years.
We’ve spent thousands of sleepless nights for practice.
We all cry together as we fight hunger while we are on a diet.
We massage each other as our body sore from all the bruises we earn from doing hard choreographed dance for our monthly evaluations.
We share each other’s pain whenever one feels like giving up.
We did all things together, share each other’s secrets because we’re sisters.
We trusted each other.
We did.
But now, I’m not sure.
My head snapped back up when I heard her soft whimper as she tries to stop herself from crying.
My eyes soften at the sight of her while Seth hugs her closer trying to calm her down.
I wanted to comfort her, tell her everything would be fine.
But I can’t.
And at the same time, I felt confuse.
Am I mad at her for not telling us? I don’t know.
I honestly don’t know what to feel.
Am I hurt? I think so.
Betrayal… is this what my other members felt?
My heart is beating like crazy and yet my body felt numb.
My inside churning as I felt all of my emotions seeping the remaining sanity left in me.
She was married and I wasn’t even aware.
“Stop crying Zanaya…” Raze sounded worried as he stares at the girl having a breakdown in front of us.
“Honestly, I had an idea that you two might be married. But disregard the thought.” Sky stated.
“What do you mean you have an idea?” Raze asked, confusion audible on his voice.
“Remember that time I saw Seth’s necklace? I searched over the net and found an exact copy except the carvings inside. It says it’s a wedding band.” he added, his eyes on the ground as if everything is finally fitting into place.
“And remember that time when they broke up and we ended up drinking until we were dead drunk? I swear I kept remembering things in the morning of Seth crying telling us about his marriage.” Demo looked shocked at the realization.
“That wasn’t my imagination?” Raze exclaimed. “I thought I was being stupid for having those memories so I never once share it to you guys. So it’s true?”
Seth just sigh.
“Did you personally tell Storm and not us?” Raze looked hurt as he confronts Seth.
“I didn’t okay? I accidentally told everyone of you when we were drunk. Apparently, Storm was sober and he remembered everything the next morning.” he explained.
I watch as he gently wipes the tears off from Zaya’s cheeks.
“I still don’t get it. How did you two ended up getting married?” Mono asked.
I sat down on the couch beside me while I let the boys do the talking. I don’t have the energy left to meddle and butt in.
“Yeah, and how long have you been married?” Sky added.
“Almost two years?” Seth whispered.
“Two years!!!!!” Raze screamed while Grey messed up his hair wildly.
I pity the youngest.
It seems like he’s the most affected on his group.
“Hey, Seth Devon! How can you do this to us?” Demo exclaimed, already standing. He looked appalled.
“I can’t believe this,” Mono added.
“I can’t just tell you, okay?” Seth tried to explain.
“Why? Don’t you trust us?” Sky butted in. His voice was shaky, obviously trying to calm himself down.
“Exactly my point.”
I look around after I heard Max speaking. I almost forgot that she’s still here.
She looked at Zaya, pain evident in her eyes.
“Is it that hard to say that you’re fucking married?” she stated as she stood up from her seat.
Zaya looked at her, her eyes were red from crying.
“It’s not easy, okay…” her voice cracked.
“And it’s easier to lie to us for two years?” Max’s voice was already high.
A weird laugh escaped her lips. And I was scared for a moment.
“Two years…” she balled her fist in anger. “Two long fucking years and we just found out today. Not because you decided to trust us. But because of the circumstances and you have no choice. Seriously Zaya, what are we to you?”
At this point, Max was already crying.
Sky looked alarmed as he moves forward and wrapped his arms over her in support.
Max is at the brink of breaking down.
Zaya and Max both on this state isn’t actually the best thing.
The rest of the boys were silent.
“You were married even before our debut,” she added. “So that’s why you are allowed to date. Because you’re actually married.”
The realization hit everyone.
Zanaya burst into more tears and it breaks my heart to see her like this.
“Max, it’s not her intention.” Seth tried to reason out.
“Shut it!” Max scoffed. “It’s exactly how it is!”
“Max, please calm down and hear them out.” Sky rubbed Max’s back.
“No.” she stared at Sky. “I’m not mad about her getting married.” she looked at Zaya painfully while the other just sat frozen beside Seth.
“I am hurt because she never told us. Because if she did, we could have understood. We could have supported her. Because I know she had a hard time for those two years.”
Max’s eyes soften. Zaya glanced back to her, confusion flushed on her tear-stained face.
“We could have beat the hell out of Seth when he hurt her.”
All their eyes landed on me after I spoke.
Even I was startled. But I continued.
“We could have helped her get through all those pain of seeing her husband being linked with another girl. Or help her cope with the process of being a wife. We could have helped her cook for Seth.” I stated, finally realizing what Max was talking about.
“Not that we won’t do the same even if you two were not married. But the point is, we could have been there when you’re struggling to try to hide everything and keeping all those pain by yourself.” I looked at her.
“You’re not alone Zaya. We’re here.” I smiled at her.
“We’re your family. And we trust family.” Max stated.
“I’m sorry…” Zaya covered her face.
“I know getting married may be a personal choice or a deeper reason may have been behind it, but within those two years, why didn’t you try to tell us? Or do you have any plan on telling us at all?” I painfully asked.
Her marriage is not the issue and I know where Max and Cali are coming from.
We were left in the dark. For two long years.
But I can’t blame Zanaya for everything as well.
“I wanted to tell you. Do you know how hard it was for me? I wanted to tell you all so badly but I don’t know how to do that. How can you expect me to tell you that I got married when we were all excited for our debut?” she stated, her voice hoarse.
Max looked down, realizing Zaya’s point.
A chuckle escaped my lips.
“And it’s not your obligation to tell us anyway. You have a choice, and that’s your life.” I added.
Mac looked at me, her eyes wide at what I said.
And then she looked down realizing how hard it must have been for Zaya.
That’s why I can’t fully get mad at her. Zaya cares for us. I know she will tell is eventually.
I know what both feel and I can’t blame them.
I understood why Max was hurt and at the same time, I knew Zanaya doesn’t mean any harm. For all its cost, she may be keeping this to herself for the sake of our group as well.
“Who else knows?” Max asked, her voice calmer than before.
“Just both our bosses,”
The room was once again silent.
We were just having fun an hour ago. How did everything turn out like this?
We were all startled when Grey suddenly stood up from his seat and headed straight to the door.
“Yah, Grey!”
“Grey!”
“Where are you going?!”
His members tried calling him but he didn’t look back.
Was he crying?
Before I even knew what I was doing, I headed straight to the door to follow him, ignoring the calls from the rest of the group.
I maybe pestering the guy a lot but that doesn’t mean I don’t care for him.
I know my members need comfort but their boyfriends and husband are obviously there.
I am not dense. I knew something is between Max and Sky. Whether they are in a relationship or not, I don’t exactly know, but there is definitely something.
The same goes with Cali and Storm.
So I am the only single person left.
That’s fine Tokyo, you have your fans.
My eyes caught something red from the corner of my eyes.
Grey’s shirt.
Yeah, he needs a friend right now. And I’m obviously one.
Of course, Tokyo, you are friends… Just friends. I told to myself.
“Grey…” I called his name.
He was sitting down on the stairs. We ended up on the fire exit.
His head hung low, his forehead on his arm.
He slowly looked up once he heard my voice and my heart shattered at his state.
His eyes were red and he looked confused.
“Tokyo…” he whispered and I immediately sat down beside him before pulling him in a hug
I pester him so much because I like it when he looked annoyed but seeing him like this feels like a needle was pricked on my chest.
“Hey, why are you crying?” I whispered, my hands behind his head, his face on my shoulder.
Too much body contact and I swear my heart started beating a little faster, it’s making me confused.
He was silent for a minute, and I let him. I let him cry to release all of his emotions.
After a few moments, I felt his breathing back to regular.
“Seth, will he leave us?” he said a little scared.
And then I realized why he was crying.
He’s afraid to lose his brother. SHADOW has been his life. The thought of having one of his brother leaving makes him breakdown and cry.
A smile crossed my lips.
“He won’t, stupid.” I told him, while I pull a little of his hair.
“Awwww!” he screamed before pulling away from my hug.
“Tokyo!” he snarled. “Really? You’re back at pestering me?” he looked annoyed and I laughed at his cute reaction.
I was trying to lighten the mood.
“Why? What are you gonna do?” I teased him. “Crybaby.” I added, grinning.
“This,” he said and my eyes went wide open when his left hand grabbed the back of my neck and pulled me towards him.
The next thing I knew was my lips in contact with his.
Shit. Did Grey just kiss me?