Bella’s POV
What I saw shocked me. His eyes did not have any hatred. He was staring at me with love, care, concern, pity, determination and pride.
I did not understand. “I am sorry that you had to go through all this. I wish I was there to protect you, gosh I am such a terrible mate.” he said as he started to blame himself.
“NO! You are not. It’s not your fault. Please do not blame yourself please.” I tried to tell him. “How is it not? I was not there when you were hurting.” he said back.
“But you are here now. That is what matters.” I said trying to stop him from blaming himself. He just let out a sigh.
To make him feel better, I hugged him and rubbed his back and said it’s not his fault.
He hugged me back tightly and hid his face and sniffed me to calm himself down. I slowly rubbed his hair to comfort him. I was feeling happy all of a sudden. Not sad anymore knowing he was there for me.
Suddenly he started to kiss my neck that was below my ear. I shuddered at that feeling. He continued to kiss me at different places on my neck. He kissed where my neck and shoulder meets. “Xavier” I called out.
All of a sudden he stopped and looked at me. I got confused. “This is the first time you said my name!” he said as he smiled. That is when I realised what he told was true.
I blushed when I realised that. He cupped my now red cheeks as he started to get closer. I did not dare move. He just kept getting close.
Soon I felt his lips on mine. I felt electricity going down my spine. He kissed me slowly and passionately as if to reassure me.
He pulled me closer to him. It was starting to get faster and dominating. He grabbed fist full of my hair and held me tight.
All I did was hold on to his shirt and stay still. I did not know what to do. It was my first kiss! Sensing I was not responding, he pulled back.
“Did you not want me to kiss you?” he asked me as I saw sadness. “No! I-I,” I did not know what to say. “What is it?” he asked as I sensed worry in his voice.
“I-I don’t kn-know how t-to ki-kiss. Y-You a-are my fi-first ki-kiss.” I said as I blushed and looked down. This is so embarrassing.
He pulled my face up as I looked up to see him. “Don’t worry I will teach you everything. I am your first and will be the last.” he said in a very husky voice. His eyes got darker.
“Why does your eyes get darker? It even got fully black just now.” I asked him about the confusion. “It gets black when I am angry. It also gets darker or black when I or my wolf feels lust. When that happens, it will be a bit shiny.” he told me.
I slightly blushed and nodded my head at him. I started to yawn. “Are you tired?” he asked me. I just nodded my head at him. He got me off of him and went into his closet.
Soon he returned with a shirt and a boxer. He handed it to me. I walked into his closet and quickly changed so that I could sleep.
As I returned, I searched for Xavier, he came from behind me and hugged. As I turned my head he gave me a peck in the lips. I blushed and looked away.
He just chuckled and guided me to the bed. He tucked the bed out of one side to help me get into bed. After tucking me in, he went into the other side. He starts taking out his shirt. I covered my eyes.
“You can see all you want. I am all yours to look.” I just shook my head. All I heard was a sigh followed by a laugh. I felt him climbing the bed.
His hands took my hands and uncovered my eyes. I looked to see him staring back at him. “In the near future, you will be seeing more than just me shirtless.” he said.
I did not understand. I tilt my head in confusion. He just sighed. “How innocent are you?” he asked me in a soft voice. I just sheepishly grinned while shaking my shoulder.
He lay down while pulling me along with him. I got confused. “Are you sleeping here?” I asked him. “Of course I am.” he smiled. “Ok” I said.
Guess giving us a chance means taking chances too.
“Good night Baby girl” he said.
“Good night Xav” I said as I sleep and dozed off