Adaline
I feel like Jemima is hiding something from me even if she has been with me all those days along with Laila, Juliet and Paula (yes, Paula). Paula and I are on good terms right now. Well, as good as they can get.
We are both heartbroken and liking a guy that doesn’t like us back. That makes it easier for us not to argue that much seeing as we are almost in the same situation.
She likes Tyler. I can see the way she looks at him, and besides, he was her first, and she didn’t forget about it. Even if she acts like it doesn’t matter for her, it does.
I, on the other hand, like Ayato. I don’t know how or when did this happen, but I like him.
The thing is that, Sam and him kissed. I can’t get between them if they like each other. After all, you can’t decide who you end up liking. If your heart falls for a person, you can as much watch hopelessly as it falls more and more for that person. Well, that’s in my case.
I just hope that this might be wrong and the crush that turned into a like will not take another turn and straight up come as love.
I can’t let myself have feelings for a person that likes someone else already. That will hurt me so much!
And then… if I let my feelings for him grow… I’ll go like all those girls and try to get between their relationship.
I widened my eyes. Oh no, no, no.
Not even in a million years and back I’ll let that happen!
I should forget about those feelings and try to focus on something else.
As I was laying on Jemima’s bed, I was watching the ceiling wondering what I should do to keep my mind occupied.
Jemima was God knows where, Laila was with Noah, Paula was downstairs, along with Juliet, probably typing on their phones. Or whatever, I just think that that’s what they are doing.
I sighed and took my phone, turning it on. I entered my messages and my eyes stopped on a certain name: Perverted Psycho.
Ugh.
I turned off my phone, only for it to vibrate. I groaned and turned it on again, seeing that I have a message from…
Sam.
I furrowed my eyebrows and opened the message. I’ve been ignoring Sam for these past few days. Not because she kissed Ayato, but because she left without announcing anyone but Ayato’s parents.
I’m not mad that she kissed Ayato. Jealous, yes. But not mad. How could I? If I liked Ayato as much as she did, then I should’ve done what she did- kiss him.
But I didn’t which that means I let the gates open for every girl that likes him to come and… lure him towards them.
I’ve been ignoring Ayato too. I don’t want to get between his relationship with Sam. And maybe Sam would get jealous if she knew that I was close to her boyfriend.
Wait… are they even boyfriend of girlfriend?
I shook my head. Of course that they are. They kissed, for God’s sake!
But… what if he played her?
My phone vibrated again making my attention snap to it.
Two messages from Sam.
Sam: Addy? I’m sorry for leaving like that… Please, don’t ignore me like this. Please, Addy…
I pursed my lips and resisted the urge to text her back. My eyes went down to read the other message and as soon as I began reading the only one sentence, my heart stopped.
Sam: I’m sorry for kissing Ayato.
My heart boomed in my chest, making me feel a bit dizzy. With my breathing slowly getting faster, I began to type a response to her texts with shaky fingers.
Me: Why are you sorry for kissing him?
I furrowed my eyebrows, demanding an explanation. Her text came fast.
Sam: Thank God, you’re talking with me. Look… the kiss was a mistake. I didn’t mean to kiss him, but… it’s complicated.
I bit my tongue. Is she hiding something from me?
Me: What do you mean by ‘it’s complicated’?
Sam: … It’s hard to explain…
Me: Okay then… explain…
Sam: I thought I liked him so I kissed him to see of I really like him, even though I knew that you liked him. Now, I can’t even show my face around him or anyone for that matter. What I did was too embarrassing and so low from me.
Well that was a long text…
I began to smile. So Ayato and Samantha aren’t together, and Samantha doesn’t like Ayato.
Me: You should have said so from the beginning. 🙂 I thought you and Ayato were together.
Sam: HA! Me, Sam, and him, Ayato. No way in hell. Now I know that I don’t like him, and I want to smack myself. I should have known from the beginning that I didn’t really like him.
Me: Oh c’mon… he’s not that bad. Yeah, he is cocky, arrogant, egotistical, a flirt, player, fxckboi and more… but he has a heart.
Sam: Well… I can feel the love you hold for him *rolls eyes*
Me:… Love is such a big word…
Sam: I know… but in your case, we can use ‘like’ 🙂
My face reddened.
Me: yeah… sure…
After a few minutes, I got another text from her.
Sam: Can I see what present you bought for Ayato? I couldn’t see it as your mother threatened me that if I open it… I’ll be dead meat… (A/N: To clear any misunderstandings- Sam came to the beach for Ayato’s birthday just because Jem and Addy forgot their gifts… After that, Ayato’s parents let her stay, Ayato not having anything with it. But then the kiss came and you know the rest… xD)
Me: Okay… let me take a pic of it.
I got up from the bed and went to the birthday themed bags on the desk. I took my gift from the bag, and took a picture of it.
Me: This… *inserts picture of the gift, a baseball cap with the inscription: Cute, but psycho*
Sam: *•* Ooh! That’s so cool… and true x3
I smiled. My phone buzzed with another text.
Sam: I’m sorry that I can’t be there. But you have to promise me something…
I furrowed my eyebrows.
Me: Depends on the promise…
Sam: You gotta stay away from Ayato.
My eyebrows raised at her request.
Me: Why?
Sam: Because… it’s… I can’t tell you. Just stay away from him. Until I’ll tell you you can stay with him again… you HAVE to stay away from him. Promise me, Addy. Promise me you’ll stay away from him…
My heart was beginning to beat loudly in my chest. I didn’t understand why she wanted me to stay away from him. I didn’t understand why she sounded so frantic and anxious.
Maybe it’s something important.
I sighed, after a few minutes my fingers beginning to write a response.
Me: Okay.
***
“Ooh! We should go there first! No! There! Wait! Oh my God! There!” Jemima was pulling Finn by his arm everywhere. She was like a little child on his/her birthday. It was actually funny watching her pulling Finn everywhere, stopping and going in another direction.
The others were right by us. As we were walking, I was watching all the colorful lights and little kids playing around the Fair with a smile on my face.
“Mommy! I want cotton candy!” A little girl beamed, pointing over to a man who was selling cotton candy. Her mother looked down at her and smiled. She took her little hand, walking over to that man and buying her cotton candy. The little girl took the it, giggling and eating.
I smiled and faced forward. I stopped walking as I saw everyone stopped.
Diana clapped her hands. “Okay, kids! You can go wherever you want, just be careful and pay attention to your surroundings. We will see each other here in-” She trailed off, looking at the watch on her wrist. “-2 hours. Understand?”
We all said yes.
“At 10 o’clock you’ll be right here. In this place. Okay?” She asked again, louder this time.
We all said yes again.
She smiled. “Okay. After that, we’re going to go home and cut the cake for Ayato’s birthday. Now, go.”
Noah and Laila went towards left, Diana went to some stores along with Roderic trailing after her. Paula and Juliet went towards right and Tyron, Zach and Tyler saw some girls and went to flirt with them.
What was surprising?
Ayato didn’t go.
He actually stood in his place beside Jemima, Finnegan and I. Looking between them, my eyes stopped on Jemima who was watching something.
I followed her gaze and saw that she was looking at the Ferris Wheel.
Her mouth went agape, and her eyes were sparkling. “There!” She squealed, pulling us along with her.
I shook my head at my sister and we stood in the , waiting our turn to pay for the tickets.
After twenty or so agonizing minutes, we finally got our tickets and we entered one of the Ferris Wheel’s cabins.
I was sitting right between Ayato and Jemima, Finnegan being beside Jemima.
I was feeling very awkward and self-conscious beside Ayato. A lot of thought were invading my mind.
What did Sam want to say?
Did Ayato do something bad?
Does my breath smell?
I think not. But in any case, I thing I have some gum in my pocket.
I leaned to the side so I could get the pack of gum in my back pocket of my simple, skinny jeans. Taking the pack out, I accidentally dropped it and it slid right to the other side of the cabin.
I couldn’t really get up because we were almost on the top of the Ferris Wheel and I might fall.
But I want gum.
I took a breath and put my hands on the edge of my seat ready to get up, but an arm that wrapped around my waist stopped me.
I snapped my head towards my right, heartie booming loud in my chest.
Ayato was giving me a serious and a little bit of a scolding look. I gulped nervously. “You’ll take it when we get back.”
I nodded my head, looking down. Pulling a strand of my blond locks behind my ear, I realized that Ayato hasn’t retracted his arm back yet.
With my eyes fixed on his hand that was softly gripping my waist, a single thought was running through my mind.
How am I gonna stay away from him?
***
The sun was already under our feet, its light not warming us anymore. Now it was time for the cold but beautiful moon to make its appearance on the dark sky filled with a lot of stars.
Thirty minutes apart of our due time to get back to the cottage, Jemima realized that there was one thing we haven’t checked out yet: The Mirrors’ Room.
She didn’t try anything between Ayato and I like pushing us to get closer to each other. No. She was rather silent with us. No looks given. No words spoken. It was kinda terrifying to be honest.
We entered the mirrors’ room and began to walk randomly, making sure that we are close to each other.
The room was interesting looking. There was a dim light, the mirrors being lighted by purple and white lights.
It was very weird to watch yourself in one hundred different mirrors.
As we were walking, I took a wrong turn by mistake. I wasn’t aware of it until I turned around and realized that I’m alone.
I turned around, seein my reflection in the mirrors turn around with me. I began to walk on another path slowly, looking after my group.
“Jemima?” I called out, breaking the eerie silence for a little bit. I bit my lip, getting scared.
With the corner of my eyes, I saw something passing in the mirrors. My eyes widened.
“Finnegan?” I said louder this time, goosebumps appearing on my arms. And not the good ones.
Where are those guys?
“Jemima!”
I don’t wanna call Ayato’s name.
“Finn!”
That would be too embarrassing.
“Jem! Where are you guys?!”
I can’t call him. I can’t. Sam told me to stay away from him.
But how?
How can I listen to her when–
“Ayato!” As I screamed his name and a few seconds after I called, some arms hugged me from behind. I turned around fast, my palms on his chest.
He was smiling down at me. I was breathing heavily because of the scare and the proximity between us.
I gave out a choked laugh, and wrapped my hands around his neck. I hugged him. He tightened his hold on me and pulled me closer towards him.
–when he’s always right beside me.