Tell Me You’re Not Gonna Leave Me
XANDRY
My stomach churned as I walked out of Dad’s, determined to prove to him that I deserved to be happy and the position he had for me at the Williams was mine. I did everything I could and it wasn’t my goddamn problem if he wasn’t satisfied with the effort I did. Hell, I didn’t fucking care anymore.
Gasping for some air, I walked outside of the employees’ exit of the club. It smelled cigarettes, pees, vomit, and alleys, but I couldn’t care less. All I wanted right now was to scream all my frustrations out of my fucking life, then made love to Blaine in my bed all night.
Fuck.
“Hey.”
I turned to face the voice calling me from my back, and to my surprise, Blaine looked like she was carrying the world on her shoulder. Closing the space between us, I cupped her face and searched for the answer in her eyes. “What’s wrong, sweetheart?”
She shook her head, pressing her soft and sweet lips against mine. “Let’s go home.”
The word home had made my stomach knot and flutter, but every Dad’s word already registered in my mind.
“I’ll call Pyke we’re leaving,” I informed her.
“Don’t bother. I bumped into him when I was searching for you. He told me where I could find you and he knew we’re leaving. He’ll tell the rest,” she answered without meeting at my gaze.
“Seriously, sweetheart, what’s going on? I already got a lot on my plate right now, I don’t have the strength to guess, so please, just tell me already.” I held her as we walked to the parking lot.
She stopped when we were near to my car, then took a deep breath and looked at me—that looked alone was unnerving and telling me something was wrong.
“I talked to your dad,” she mumbled.
“What did you say?” I asked as if I didn’t hear it right. My heart thudded, making me harder to concentrate.
“I was looking for a restroom and Forrest told me that there was one at the lounge…”
“Then how did you know it was my dad?” My eyes narrowed. My nose flared of Dad could possibly brainwash her.
“I heard you two arguing—”
“And you listened?” My approach was a little harsh.
Her eyes widened, pain glinted in those beautiful blue eyes. “I didn’t mean to—”
“But you still listened and why couldn’t you just walk away, Blaine? Why did you have to listen to us arguing?” I knew it hurt her if she knew we were talking about my relationship, and I knew it wasn’t just it, there was something else.
She meant so much to me, and the last thing I wanted was to hurt her and her running away.
She nodded slowly. “I couldn’t.” She bit her lip to control her trembling chin. “He was talking about us, Xandry. How could I just ignore and walk out when he seemed to know something about me?”
“I didn’t want you to listen…” I lost my words. I didn’t know how to explain because I knew it could hurt her.
“He didn’t like me for you, you can tell me, you know.” Her voice started to shake.
“The hell I care if he likes you or not. I don’t give a fuck, Blaine! I have my own choice and I don’t need his permission to date whoever I want. I didn’t tell you because I want you to trust me. I was handling it just right.” I held her arms tight and shook them.
“It was not your first argument with your dad, wasn’t it?” Tears fell from her eyes, and it just broke my heart.
It fucking hurts.
I licked my dry lips and nodded. I swallowed the pain and bitterness down my throat. “When I came to visit you. Dad knew that Sammer could be mine. He met Sunshine when she went looking for me. My parents asked for a DNA test, but they didn’t tell me right away, not until a week later. When they had the result that confirmed Sammer was mine.”
“Xandry, I want the truth, please. How did he know my full name and my child? Did he had someone to dig on my past?”
Wiping away her tears was much painful to me than what I was about to tell her, knowing I was the reason why those beautiful eyes were shedding tears.
“Yes, sweetheart. Dad did it. He wanted me to date somebody, but you know I don’t do such a thing, not until I met you. I’m sorry.”
“J-just send me to my sister’s apartment, please.” She walked away toward my car and got inside while I was alone, shocked, and didn’t have any idea what to do.
I got inside and started the car, revving the engine, and drove off. A few minutes later, I couldn’t stand the tension surrounding us anymore. It was tearing me apart. “Talk to me, sweetheart. I don’t like the silence between us. It’s killing me.”
“He told me to stay away from you that if I managed to take care of my own child without someone like you, then you can do the same thing. And that you are a strong and responsible person,” she explained, still looking out of the window.
“Is that what you’re about to do? Staying away?” My grip on the steering wheel made my knuckles crack. I was terrified of what she would tell me next. I had to breathe deeply as I could to avoid losing my concentration to the road ahead of us.
I couldn’t help but not get pissed at Dad for talking to Blaine. Wasn’t it enough what he said earlier that he had to talk to her as well?
“Did I listen to him?” She yelled, then sobbed.
“Fuck!” I slammed my hands repeatedly to the steering wheel. “Just stop crying for God’s sake, Blaine. I’ve had enough and I don’t know what to do anymore!”
“Then stop the car and let me out of here!” She yelled back, pulling the door handle open. It was already locked before she could put us into an accident.
“Are you trying us to get killed? Think about your son before you’ll do something you might regret in the end!”
I stole glances at her. Her fingers trembled, still sobbing on her seat. And my eyes began to mist.
I rubbed my face with irritation, frustration, and pain. “I’m sorry, okay? I shouldn’t have done that. It just… I’m worried about Sammer, about my life, my life without you, my job. Dad threatened—”
“T-to fire you, cut your trust fund, then eventually lose your custody over Sammer.” She choked out a sob. “I got that, Xandry. I wish I could help. That’s what a girlfriend should do. Don’t get me wrong, I can’t stand the thought of being away from you. I care a lot about you more than you ever know, but I can’t let you lose what you deserve to have. Sammer needs a dad, just like Ben needs me. I don’t want you to suffer because I choose you or you choose me.”
“It feels like losing everything if I lose you, Blaine. I still have friends and a sister to help me. If Dad will fire me and take everything from me, they can still help me, lean me some money to start my own business, I can work for them as well, but how many Blaine in this entire world?” I laughed sarcastically. Pain seared my heart in a fucking way. “I won’t let you leave me if that’s your plan, sweetheart. I did that the first time he threatened me if I could, but I’d rather start from the bottom than searching for another Blaine that doesn’t even exist. So, let’s get out of the car because I’m not sending you to your sister’s apartment.” I turned off the ignition and got out of my car, running around to her side.
“I’ll stay for the night. Bianca texted that Ben is already sleeping.” She walked away again, still sniffing.
“As you wish, sweetheart, as you wish.”
The elevator ride was full of tension. “You’re going home tomorrow, at least let us settle this out. I don’t want you leaving me angry.”
“Fine. What do you wanna talk about?”
“When we get inside.”
As soon as I locked the door behind her, I pressed her against the door. “Are you leaving me, Blaine? You’re going to fucking leave me, aren’t you?” I asked in a low and primal voice. “Is that what your heart tells you?”
Her eyes widened as the two saucers. “I don’t want you to lose everything.”
“Damn it, Blaine! Answer my fucking question.”
“I’m not worth it.”
“The fuck you don’t. You, Ben, and Sammer are only matter to me. Believe me, please? Don’t make me do crazy things because I’m already crazy. Crazy overyou!”
“I-I can’t do this.” Her red lips trembled, and it is driving me crazier with lust, anger, and pain.
“The fuck you can’t!” I clamped my lips onto hers, thrusting my tongue into her mouth when she gasped, to taste her sweet agony. I didn’t care if I wasn’t gentle. I wanted her to feel that we both needed each other when the world was crashing down on us. When she kissed me back with hunger, the unbearable torment traveled down my cock.
Blaine sagged against me, sighing to our mouth. She wrapped her arms around my neck. Her fingers grasped my hair, pulling me closer as if I was her oxygen.
I broke the kiss, leaning my forehead on hers. “Tell me you want me as much as I do. Tell me you’re not gonna leave me. Tell me you want us as the air you breathe?”
“I-I want you, I want us. God, I don’t think I can live without you.”
Enough of this—
I kissed her—demanding, teeth clashing, tongues tangling, and body grinding. I fumbled to the hem of her dress, tore it apart from her delicious body.
She released my hair and ripped my shirt off, sending buttons to scatter everywhere. She panted as I unclasped her front clasp strapless bra—releasing her sweet and delectable breasts.
She gasped and moaned as I bent and sucked her red cherry nipple into my mouth and as I simultaneously slipped my finger on her thong-covered swollen lips. I released her peak with a pop.
“Undress me,” I ordered through rasped breath, tearing her thong apart.
She hurriedly fumbled to unbutton my jeans, then pushed down to my knees. I hissed and groaned as my cock released from its cage. She reached down, impatiently rubbing it on her wet and ready lips. And I plunged into her, making her cry out. As if on cue, she wrapped her leg around my waist, and I grabbed her ass and lifted her, pressing ourselves against the door. Her breasts pushed against my chest as I thrust into her. Hard and rough. My neck corded, trying not to lose control.
I groaned, feeling her slick walls like a glove around me. My heartbeat grew wild and unsteady. Her breathing came in hoarse sobs as she buried her face on my shoulder. Her spasms clumped my cock made my head swam with savage and intensity of bliss I had never known.