What the heck? Did I just fall in their trap? I remembered hearing a crashing noise. My eyes darted toward the direction instantly as the thought entered my mind. But I was even more shocked after seeing that it was merely a few pieces of wood piled together. Waves of flame emerged out as sparkles of fire flew in the air.
So this was really a trap. I wondered where that sound came from. But I didn’t have to think twice before finding another car crashed in the middle of the road. Blood was spilling outside from the driver seat of the car and I could vaguely see a human figure inside. Another man in black was leaning over that human and sticking his mouth on the neck.
It was clear what was happening here. Seeing the scene before my eyes, I paled and my limbs trembled. I really wanted to curse myself and hit myself in the head for not waking up Liam first.
“The girl is finally out, and she’s even alone,” a man said excitedly, and turned to face his colleague. “Should we kill her?”
“Wait.” The other man raised his hand and smirked. “Why kill the girl when we can enjoy her? Didn’t you hear her loud moans coming from the old building?” The man clicked his tongue. “She sure knows how to please a man.”
The color of my face changed several times at that. I felt humiliated at that sentence. They heard it all! How could they hear my moans? We were inside the house that was quite away from the boundary wall.
I panicked. I was so anxious that whatever I had learnt all these days with Liam was thrown out of my mind. I forgot everything about controlling my power. Fear spread deep in my bones as I struggled to move back. At the same time, the anxiety that rose in my heart started to stir the energy in my veins without my consent. The curse that befell upon me after using that fabricated spell back then got triggered because of high-level of anxiety.
My eyes suddenly turned purple as my vision blurred. My senses heightened and I could hear the sound of blood flow within the bodies of two men. Blood. I licked my lips when my tongue caressed something pointed. My teeth were out, but I couldn’t care less. The taste of blood was in my mind.
These men should die.
I slowly got up, forgetting everything about whatever Liam had taught me. I couldn’t maintain human conscience anymore. These people were thinking of using my body for pleasure before killing me. This idea was enough to make me go crazy with anger. What I had feared the most had happened, and I couldn’t even think of controlling myself anymore.
The electrical energy burst out of my body and already everywhere. My vision being blurred, I couldn’t see anything. But I started following the sound of heartbeats. My lips parted as I sniffed the sweetest smell of blood.
Sweet.
My hands suddenly captured someone’s neck as I accurately grabbed one of the men. I felt his body weakening under my pressure as I heard loud cries. But I didn’t budge. I bared my fangs and just as I was about to thrust my teeth in the man’s veins, I felt a familiar suppressing energy that made my body stiff. The energy that circled suddenly stopped bursting out and froze.
This sudden attack awakened me suddenly as I took a few steps back. A familiar feeling of fear emerged in my heart as my vision cleared. Just then, I saw the scene before my eyes and my face paled.
Blood was everywhere. Trees across the road were uprooted. Some were even cut in half. It nearly felt like a cyclone had occurred a while ago. Then my eyesight fell on my own man that was lying on the ground with eyes turned upward. His complexion was pale and a trace of fear was there on his face. His body was stiff as blood poured out of his head and corner of his mouth.
Seeing that dead body, my legs gave up and I fell on the ground in shock. I did that again. I lost control, and killed someone again!
My throat choked as my eyes teared up at that. Beads of tears fell from my eyes.
It can’t be. I can’t do this again and again!
My limbs trembled as I gathered the dust in my fist, tightening my grip as if trying to find a solace. Still, the guilt in my heart doubled as I continued to stare at the dead body. Even though this was the spy from an enemy, he still didn’t deserve to die.
How many more people will I end up killing before my killing urges calmed down? I let out a sob thinking about it followed by a loud scream. I didn’t want any of this! I covered my face with my dusty hands and cried.
My shoulders were shaking from constant sobbing. Just then a warm pair of hands embraced my shoulders before I could feel utterly hopeless. I didn’t have to look up to see who it was, but I didn’t know how to face him at that moment.
Time and again, all I had been doing was making trouble for him. If it wasn’t for me, Liam would have been stepped out of the political mess. He would’ve captured the villain behind the scenes a long time ago if it wasn’t for protecting me. How many times had I let him down already? I let out another sob as I shrank back in his embrace.
“Shh… it’s okay.” A soothing voice echoed in my ears as I felt a tickling sensation because of his hot breath. I calmed down a little, but I was still upset. It was true that if it wasn’t for me, Liam and his father would have been out of this mess already. It was true that without my presence, he wouldn’t have to make so many excuses and act in front of an enemy as if he was on her side. I knew he would be feeling disgusted by acting this way toward Barbara, but what choice did I give him other than this?
It was either acting like we both me and Liam were enemies or I’d die in the hands of the enemies. But if the enemy leader hates me from the start, it doesn’t even matter if Liam was acting or not. I’d die anyway. In either case, I was just a bet being used by those people behind the scenes to make Liam dance according to their wishes. And most likely, they were being successful.
I hated myself for this. I wished I could kill myself and be done with it. No enemy would be able to use me like this.
After a few minutes of consoling, he didn’t say anything, but rather stood up and walked toward the road in front of the main gate filled with blood and a dead body.
A few minutes later, I heard Liam asking someone in a cold voice, “Why’re you doing this?”
Hearing his voice, I snapped out of my depressing thoughts and looked up to see Liam’s broad form crouching over a man who was barely breathing. The man on the ground gave a dry chuckle followed by a series of coughs. “I haven’t seen someone as stupid as you.” Then his gaze traveled toward me and he laughed even louder. “Oh I apologise, there is someone, and that’s the girl.” He said pointing his trembling and bloody finger at me.
I knew my ability to choose was not flawless, but that didn’t mean I would stand it if my enemies say something like this. I glared at the man furiously and slowly stood up, dragging my body toward the gate.
“I asked you something.” Liam’s voice became even icier than before.
“You think I’ll answer truthfully?” The man gave a smirk and coughed even louder as blood oozed out of his wounds. “I don’t have long to live. What makes you think I’ll speak?”
After this, just as Liam had opened his mouth to say something, the man lying on the ground flashed a grin before stuffing a pill that he took from God knows where with his trembling hands. Before we could even do anything else, blood mixed with whitish foam poured out from the corner of his mouth. His eyes rolled up and he died.
I stared at the man who died right before my eyes. This had never happened before. Although people had died because of me, they were at least dead by the time I would open my eyes. But now it felt as if cold water was thrown in my heart. My pupils shrank as I kept staring at the dead body.
Just why? Why would people keep dying around me? I can’t take this anymore! I staggered back and fell on the ground before Liam could even catch me. After a while, I found him lifting me in his arms in the “princess carry” way, taking me inside.
But I couldn’t stay silent anymore. I wanted to hide inside my room all my life for the fear of killing someone else. The guilt of killing people was already eating me alive. On the top of that, I had to struggle and act in front of Barbara to stay alive. And even the matter of Barbara’s words earlier wasn’t cleared up yet!
I wanted to die. I only had to find another council member and present myself in front of them. And after I was gone, perhaps Liam could lead a peaceful life. Perhaps I wouldn’t let him down after that anymore.
As soon as I made my decision, I hastily jumped out of his arms and ran out. I wanted to drive back and tell Barbara that I was ready to die. Tears continuously poured out of my eyes as I heard Liam’s anxious voice calling me out.
But before I could set my foot outside the main door, he caught my arms and dragged me back inside the house. But I wasn’t sane enough to see his worried and anxious face. Instead, I struggled hard in his embrace.
“Let me go!” I used my force against his arms, but he didn’t budge. “I want to go back. Let me go!”
“You’re not going anywhere.”
“You don’t have an authority to lock me.”
“I do, my dear wife.” He said and threw me on the bed and went to close the door behind him. But I really wasn’t going to listen to him anymore. I was done with everything. I had no desire to live on anymore!
“Why’re you doing this? I want to go back.”
“And then what? Let you die in Barbara’s hands? Don’t think I don’t know what’s going on in your head.”
I was stunned at his words. He seemed to have realized what I wanted to do. This realization suddenly made me feel relaxed. He knew, so I didn’t have to pretend anymore. Flashing a smile, I wiped my face and looked up as if I was a child urging my parents to buy a toy.
“Good that you know. So, will you let me go?” Maybe I had completely snapped into my crazy mode that even I couldn’t tell why my personality became twisted. But I really didn’t want to be a burden on him anymore.
“No.”
Tears poured out of my eyes as the anger in my heart grew. I hated myself. I hated Liam for choosing me. I hated the vampire society for ruining my normal human life for me. I hated the fact that even my sister had to be involved in such a mess.
And the only solution, the only relief I could find was dying in the hands of my enemies. But at this moment, I was filled with rage, and I snapped at him. “Who do you think you are? Do you really believe that you’ll pretend to love me, and I’ll trust you? Didn’t you remember how we met for the first time? I hate you and your vampire society for ruining my life. I wasn’t given a choice back then, and now when I want to die and free myself from this miserable situation, I am still controlled!” I paused for a moment to take a breath, but didn’t dare to glance at his face. “I didn’t want this, any of this. I didn’t want to kill so many people just because of a spell that was forged by someone. Tell me Liam, how can I live with a pile of guilt in my heart? How can you still pretend not to care about it? Why do you insist on acting in front of Barbara? I’m mentally and physically tired. I don’t want to deal with this.”
After saying everything, my chest heaved up and down. I still dared not to see the expression on his face, but he was being strangely silent. Still, I didn’t care about it. I wanted to say everything out loud at this moment. I was too frustrated and exhausted. “You know what my biggest regret is? To agree to get married to you knowing you were the one who chose me out of all people and made my life miserable.”
I was so emotional that the words I had wanted to say in anger only choked in my throat and didn’t come out of my mouth. My knees suddenly gave up and I hugged myself, sobbing. But this time, I didn’t feel the warmth of the familiar hands that were always ready to caress me in dire need. Perhaps my words hurt him greatly, but I wasn’t sane enough to focus on that. With all the deaths happening because of me, it was inevitable that I would trigger my inner crazy self and pour my anger out on someone. And it had to be Liam.
After what it felt like hours, I heard the sound of the door unlocking. Before heading out, he paused. “I’m sorry.”