With Ava …
This is the first morning in a very long time that I wake up alone. The view from up here is absolutely amazing, it is kind of sad that I cannot share it with someone by my side. This is also the most alone I have been in a very long time too. There is a big part of me that just want to phone him but I know that I should be strong and not give in so easily to him. If things are meant to be then they will be.
I need to start planning, I know I am only about eight weeks or so but I need to get to a doctor and also I need to start reading up on baby stuff because I know absolutely nothing.
It is scary but I am so excited.
But I wish Tray was here. I know I should not, he will just break my heart and crush the excitement I feel with the baby.
I wonder if I can trust mom not to tell him that I have spoken to her. There is always Jackson’s wife but she is so busy with her own babies, I doubt she has much time for anything.
I take my laptop out. I know I am going to regret this but I need someone’s help. I start typing the email.
Ava ~”Hi mom, I know everyone is pretty mad at me but I am kind of hoping you are not as much as they are. I could use a bit of help here. Love Ava.”
I put the laptop aside and fall asleep again.
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With Trayton ~…
It has been a full day since I last saw Ava. Sitting in bed this morning was just not the same, she was not there, not even her smell was there. I practically had zero hours of sleep, a lot of whiskey and I am no closer finding her then I was yesterday. I am meeting with Jackson this morning, I am hoping he has far better luck than me, but first I need some coffee. I get up and make my way downstairs to the kitchen.
Mary ~”Morning Trayton, can I get you a cup of coffee?”
Trayton ~”Yes please mom, make it extra strong.”
Mary ~”Did you at least get any sleep?”
Trayton ~”I did not sleep at all, I ended up drinking too much whiskey.”
Mary ~”Why don’t you go back upstairs and I will bring you some breakfast.”
Trayton ~”Thanks but I need to meet Jackson this morning.”
Mary ~”Do you think he can find her?”
Trayton ~”If there is someone that can find anything then it is him.”
Kenton ~”Do you want me to come with you?”
Trayton ~”Think we can do with a rational mind because it is definitely not mine.”
Kenton ~”I will meet you back down here in an hour.”
Mary ~”I really hope that you find her, it is not the same without her.”
Trayton ~”I am not the same without her. I am such a goddamn asshole, why did I have to be such a jerk?”
Mary ~”You will find her, I am sure she is safe wherever she is.”
Trayton ~”I hope mom is right. I must go get ready so we can get out of here.”
An hour later I get in the car with Kenton and we are on our way to Jackson. We are meeting up at his club this morning, his brother Angelo will be there to meet us too, and he will be helping us since Jackson need to be home with his babies.
We are there in no time at all, actually way faster because Kenton was speeding like a maniac.
Angelo ~”Trayton, Kenton, I have not seen you boys in ages.”
Trayton ~”Angelo, I heard your dumbass finally got your own turf?”
Angelo ~”Had to work my dumbass off for it too, it comes with being the best tracer in town.”
Jackson ~”Second best.”
Trayton ~”Fuck you look about the same way I feel.”
Jackson ~”You look like fucking crap, did the bottle of whiskey trip over your mouth.”
Trayton ~”Says him that slept in his office drinking the very same whiskey away that one time Kay ditched your ass.”
Jackson ~”Why do I have the idea that our woman are the same?”
Trayton ~”They are both equally stubborn.”
Jackson ~”It’s because of your stupid ass that she is stubborn.”
Trayton ~”Don’t keep reminding me. It’s bad enough I am kicking my own ass now you want to do it too.”
We all sit down at the bar and the bartender brings four glasses and a bottle of whiskey.
Angelo ~”So what do you know?”
Trayton ~”I tried everything I know. She covered her tracks pretty well. I am just not clear headed enough to sit down and focus the way that you and Kenton can, I need help.”
Kenton ~”I don’t know why you teach your girlfriend how to disappear.”
Trayton ~”It seemed like a good idea at the time, I was trying to show her how to find someone.”
Angelo ~”By showing her how to disappear.”
Jackson ~”That is the most stupid thing I have ever heard.”
Angelo ~”Does she shoot better than you too?”
Trayton ~”For someone that has no experience, she is not bad at all.”
Angelo ~”What is it with you guys getting your girls involved in all this shit?”
Jackson ~”Hey they want to get involved, it is not us.”
Angelo ~”And what about yours?”
Kenton ~”Hey mine is still just a girl, there is nothing to get involved.”
Trayton ~”She has not left since the night you brought her home.”
Kenton ~”Yes if Ava did not see her in the kitchen she probably would still be home.”
Jackson ~”What do you mean?”
Trayton ~”Kenton brought a girl home from the club, me and her were chatting in the kitchen but we both were only standing in our underwear.”
Kenton ~”Ava walked in and thought that Trayton was with her. He wanted to explain but my dumbass told him to leave her alone.”
Trayton ~”Then the morning she was gone.”
Angelo ~”Why were you two fighting in the first place?”
I fill Angelo and Jackson in on all the details, making sure they understand that I was the one that messed up. Why can’t men just not admit they are wrong straight away then all this drama can be avoided?
Angelo ~”Who would have helped her?”
Trayton ~”Fuck I have no idea.”
Kenton ~”She left without her car, it must be someone she really trusted.”
Angelo ~”You think she is staying with this person?”
Trayton ~”I would hope so, if she trusts them enough to take her away in their car then I think she would stay with them.”
Jackson ~”She has been through a lot, she does not really trust other people.”
Kenton ~”We are they only people and family she has even though the one she loves the most is a complete jerk.”
Trayton ~”I am trying to find her family but my head is only focussed in finding her.”
Angelo ~”We will find her.”
Trayton ~”How long?”
Angelo ~”That I can’t tell you.”
Trayton ~”Make it fucking fast, I can’t let her go through this pregnancy alone. I don’t want to be a dead beat dad.”
Jackson ~”You are not going to be a dead beat dad.”
Trayton ~”If I don’t find her then I am going to be.”
Jackson ~”Everything will work out Trayton.”
Angelo ~”You say she got rid of the phone?”
Trayton ~”Yes, it is off but I am sure she chucked it.”
Angelo ~”And her cards are cancelled. What about an email address?”
Trayton ~”I think she does have one, I will have to check my laptop at home.”
Angelo ~”Maybe it is still active, we can trace her there.”
Trayton ~”I will check as soon as we get back. What else can you do?”
Angelo ~”We can only wait and see if she makes a mistake.”
I hate that there is so little we can do, I cannot wait for something to happen. I need her back now, she is not safe if she is not with me. I don’t care how much she trusts this person, I am the only one that I trust her to be with. It scares me that it might take us awhile to find her. It breaks my heart to think she is all alone and pregnant and probably have no idea what to do. Is she even warm at night, does she even eat at night, can she have a warm shower at night, where is she at night?
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With Ava…
I am awaken by a phone ringing.
It is my new phone, but nobody has this number, why is someone phoning me on this number. I grab the phone to answer.
Ava ~”Jackson.”
Jackson ~”Ava.”
Ava ~”You gave me a heart attack.”
Jackson ~”Sorry. Trayton just left here.”
Ava ~”Is he okay? What did he say?”
Jackson ~”They are going to track your email. If you don’t want to be found then you need to close it now.”
Ava ~”Shit! I used it this morning.”
Jackson ~”Okay leave it to me, don’t use it again.”
Ava ~”Is he okay?”
Jackson ~”He looks like shit but he is very adamant he is going to find you.”
Ava ~”Does he suspect it is you?”
Jackson ~”No. I asked my brother to help him, I don’t think I can lie to him to his face like that.”
Ava ~”Are you going to tell your brother?”
Jackson ~”Only if you want me to. I know they won’t find you. The only way they will is if me or you say something.”
Ava ~”Let’s not tell your brother for now.”
Jackson ~”There is something else I must tell you but I need to go. I will phone you back later again.”
Ava ~”What is it about?”
Jackson ~”We can talk later.”
My head is spinning with a million questions and thoughts. What does Jackson want to tell me? Is there something wrong with Trayton? Maybe I should phone mom. I really hope that Trayton is okay. If there is something wrong Jackson would have said so. Maybe it is just something that Trayton said or did. I am really worried now. Maybe I should just go back home. I can’t get all soft every time Trayton falls apart, I really hope that he is just falling apart, I mean I hope nothing serious is wrong with him.
Ava ~”Argh! Trayton DeCarlo.”
He makes me so mad.
I open my laptop to check if mom replied. There is an email from her.
Mary ~”Ava. Fuck I am so glad to hear from you which means you are okay. What must I help you with? Where are you? Can I phone you? I won’t tell Trayton about it. Please reply soon.”
Jackson said that I should not email again. What do I do now? I really need help but I cannot keep asking Jackson for it and I can’t particularly ask him to come with me to the doctor now can I. It is going to be mom’s grandchild anyway.
I take my phone to send a message.
Ava ~”Jackson I am sorry to bug you but is it save to phone from this number?”
Jackson ~”It’s got no caller ID. Matt will come past tomorrow to take you shopping for a car.”
Ava ~”Thank you.”
I dial mom’s number.
Mary ~”Mary hello.”
Ava ~”Hello Mom.”
Mary ~”Ava! Sorry. Sweety. I am so glad you phoned.”
Ava ~”I had to stop the email account. Are they there?”
Mary ~”No they not back yet. Are you okay? Is the baby okay?”
Ava ~”I am okay mom but I need someone to come with me to the doctor.”
Mary ~”Of course. Where is the doctor?”
Ava ~”I was hoping you will help me look for one but not in this city though.”
Mary ~”I can do that. When do you want to go?”
Ava ~”As soon as someone is available.”
Mary ~”Okay but will you phone me again so I can tell you when and where it is?”
Ava ~”Yes I will. Is he okay mom?”
Mary ~”He is not taking it well. He looks like shit. He is not sleeping.”
Ava ~”Mom this is for the best. Not after the things he said and what happened with that girl.”
Mary ~”Ava that girl was…”
The phone goes dead. The damn battery died. They probably going to be there soon any case, I will phone back tomorrow. I put the phone on charge and take my laptop to surf the net for books on babies and all things baby stuff.
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With Trayton…
That was a total waste of time. We are no further than what we were before. I need that email address, I hope it brings us closer than before.
When we get home I immediately go to the office to get the address and message it to Jackson. I join the others in the kitchen for a drink.
Kenton ~”Did you send it?”
Trayton ~”Yes, now we just wait.”
Dominic ~”Is that your only lead?”
Trayton ~”Yes and it better work.”
Dominic ~”You fucking dumbass, don’t teach a girl how to hide things.”
Trayton ~”I did not think she was paying attention.”
Dominic ~”Woman are always paying attention.”
Trayton ~”I just want her ass back, I don’t give a fuck if she is trying to hide from me. I want her and the baby home.”
Kenton ~”Trayton we will find them if they do not come home first.”
Dominic ~”But for now we need to get going”
Trayton ~”Where is mom?”
Dominic ~”She was busy on her phone. I think she is in the room.”
Trayton ~”I am going to tell her we leaving.”
Kenton ~”Trayton you don’t have to come.”
Trayton ~”It’s my fucking club, I will come.”
We go our separate ways and meet back at the car a half hour later. The drive to the club is quiet, I think that everyone is not sure how to act around my moody ass. Fuck them, my fiancé with our baby has been missing for a day, I will be as damn moody as I want.
When we get to the club I immediately go upstairs to the bar and grab me a bottle of Ava ~’s favourite whiskey and take seat in my regular chair. I fill my glass and check my phone for messages.
Angelo ~”Sorry Trayton no luck with the email. The account has been redirected and closed.”
Trayton ~”FUCK!”
I grab my glass to down my whiskey and pour myself another one.
Kenton ~”What’s wrong?”
Trayton ~”Email redirected and closed.”
Kenton ~”Fuck. If Ava was not your girl I would have gotten a hard on because this woman is good.”
Trayton ~”Don’t worry I have the same damn feeling.”
I grab my glass to down my whiskey and pour myself another one.
Trayton ~”Where is this girl of yours?”
Kenton ~”She will be here in five.”
Trayton ~”Is this serious now?”
Kenton ~”I like her, if I would ever want to go steady it would be with her.”
Trayton ~”Just go for it, don’t teach her how to shoot though, it might come bite you in the ass.”
I grab my glass to down my whiskey and pour myself another one.
Kaylin ~”Hey Trayton.”
Trayton ~”Hello Kaylin.”
Kaylin ~”Did you find your girl?”
Trayton ~”Nope and we out of options.”
I grab my glass to down my whiskey and pour myself another one. I am starting to get pissed now.
Kaylin ~”I am sorry to hear that. I think she is just teaching you a lesson for being such an ass.”
Trayton ~”Lesson learnt, she come can now home. How long much she can punish me?”
I grab my glass to down my whiskey and pour myself another one. My words are starting to slow.
Kenton ~”Trayton are you okay bro?”
Trayton ~”Yes I have never felt fucking better. My fiancé fucked off with our baby because I am an asshole.”
I grab my glass to down my whiskey and pour myself another one. I am starting to slur.
Kenton ~”Trayton I think you should slow down bro.”
Trayton ~”Don’t tell me what to do. I will do what I want.”
I ditch the glass and drink out the bottle. I am wasted.
Trayton ~”She left me and took our baby. I never am going to see baby.”
Kenton ~”Trayton let me take you home.”
I get off my chair and manage to drag my drunk ass over to my office. As soon as I am in I kick the door behind me shut.
I am a broken man without Ava.
I fall back onto the couch and pass out. This will be one of my many drunken nights to come.