My life is about to change, again, some of it good and some of it bad, depending which side you standing from. How can a man like me give a life when I am the one taking lives. The sad thing is taking lives is a lot less scary than giving one. Nothing in life happens as it is planned, when things change you fall in with the new and you take it from there.
I have been an asshole towards Ava. I think asshole is putting it lightly, very lightly. I have had a week to digest everything that has happened. I am going to be a father and I embrace it, I have stopped thinking like a selfish jerk and even though the excitement has not fully set in, I know it definitely will. But first I need to apologize to Ava.
I find her in the lounge watching some cartoon on the television. Emma is sitting with her under a blanket laughing at some cartoon character trying to blow up a building. They don’t see me coming until I speak.
Trayton ~”Emma can I have a moment with Ava please.”
Emma ~”Sure, I am in the kitchen if you guys need anything.”
Trayton ~”No I am good thanks.”
I take a seat next to Ava. We not sitting very close but also not very far from each other. She is not holding my hand nor am I holding hers either. We are like two strangers about to have a serious conversation.
Trayton ~”Ava I am really sorry for the way that I spoke to you the other day. I was upset but I should not have been so angry with you. I should not have said the things I did.”
Ava ~”Just leave it but thanks for apologizing.”
Trayton ~”I am so sorry. I was just so scared. All I could think about was my child growing up without a father because of the things I do. My determination to take revenge on people that do no good, I would never want a child to have to be exposed to that.”
Ava ~”Maybe you can let me decide as well before you just decide for yourself. Last time I check I was the one carrying the baby.”
Trayton ~”Is everything okay with the baby?”
Ava ~”Yes everything is okay. I am seeing the doctor next week.”
Trayton ~”Can I come with you next week?”
Ava ~”I am not sure.”
Trayton ~”What do you mean you are not sure?”
Ava ~”Do you think a sorry is just going to make me forget about how you treated me and then ignored me?”
Trayton ~”What can I do to make this better?”
Ava ~”For one you going to move out the room now?”
This is the part that I mentioned that is not going to be the good part of my life that will be changing.
Trayton ~”I don’t understand?”
Ava ~”What don’t you understand?”
Trayton ~”Why you want me to move out of the room.”
Ava ~”I don’t want to be in the same bed as the man that accused me of doing this on purpose.”
Trayton ~”Then I will just build two new rooms.”
Ava ~”Why two?”
Trayton ~
“One for me and an extra for the baby. We can swop once the baby is born, then you can be next to the baby’s room.”
Ava ~”What makes you think I am going to stay?”
Trayton ~”Why won’t you?”
Ava ~”We have too much drama in our lives. I need to think of the baby now and not get angry at your ass that forgets to pick up your towel or any of that shit we constantly fight over.”
Trayton ~”Does this mean we are not getting married anymore? Aren’t we engaged?”
Ava ~”I am sorry. Maybe by the time the baby is born we both would have outgrown our bullshit.”
Trayton ~”Are you really serious about this?”
Ava ~”Unfortunately I am. Don’t think this is easy for me. But I think that it is best for me and the baby. Can I be alone now please?”
Trayton ~”Let me know if there is anything you need.”
Ava ~”I will ask mom to make you a list.”
I can see the tears are starting to build up in her eyes that is why she is asking me to leave. She is taking it a lot better than I am, I think I must have died inside ten times over. The only reason I am not crying is that I have cried myself out so many times in the past week. If she thinks it is better in the long run then who am I to argue with her, I was an asshole about this. At least I will have her and the baby still here which is better than nothing I guess.
I meet the guys and Emma in the kitchen.
Trayton ~”Emma I think you must go to her.”
Emma ~”Sure, don’t you guys get up to shit at the club now?”
Trayton ~”Do we ever get up tosh it?”
Emma ~”Well those two does.”
Kenton ~”Just go before I smack that pretty ass of yours.”
Emma ~”Only pretty?”
Kenton ~”Okay it could perhaps be sexy.”
Emma ~”Tell me how hard are you going to smack my sexy ass now?”
Kenton ~”So hard until you scream my name.”
Trayton ~”What did I tell you two about flirting in front Dominic?”
Kenton ~”Hey I can’t help when I see a sexy ass and I want to spank it.”
Trayton ~”Just shut up and let’s go.”
We leave the house and pile into the car. Both Kenton and Dominic look at me.
Dominic ~”Okay what just happened there?”
Trayton ~”There what?”
Kenton ~”Did you and Ava not talk and made up?”
Trayton ~”We did talk.”
Dominic ~”And?”
Trayton ~”We broke up.”
Dominic ~”You what!?”
Kenton ~”What the fuck is wrong with you?”
Trayton ~”She broke up with me! Why do you always think when something goes wrong it’s me?”
We get to the club and it is packed. We had to clear out VIP for a private function tonight. Some rich daddy’s girl has her birthday today and has conveniently taking our and the other VIP as her playground tonight. But I will not been thrown out my chair as easily as that. I am crashing the party and will sit where I sit every night.
Dominic ~”You fucking crazy man.”
Trayton ~”It’s my fucking club. If I want sit in my chair I will sit in my chair.”
Kenton ~”And if someone is sitting in it?”
Trayton ~”Then I will throw them out.”
And that is exactly what I do when we get upstairs, a young, barely legal boy and his friends is sitting where we sit. I friendly explain to him that only the big boys sit here.
Dominic ~”Fuck is this a bunch of teenagers?”
Trayton ~”The guy told me between twenty to twenty-five.”
Kenton ~”Those surely look like they are only eighteen or so.”
Trayton ~”As long as they legal to be here then I don’t care. Just please don’t pick any of these damn teenage girls up.”
Kenton ~”Do I look stupid to you?”
Dominic ~”We are horny but not stupid.”
Trayton ~”You are stupid horny.”
Kenton ~”And what does it make you?”
Dominic ~”Stupid single and soon to be horny.”
Trayton ~”I am so happy you find my split up as amusing.”
Dominic ~”Split up of your own making.”
Trayton ~”Let’s not start with split ups. Yours was an absolute disaster.”
Kenton ~”And mine is non existent.”
Trayton ~”I prefer the non-existent kind.”
Dominic ~”This is kind of like old times just instead of Joseph we have Kent.”
Trayton ~”But only this time the one is going to be a dad.”
The more I say it the more exciting it begins to sound. I strongly belief that it all is going to work out.
I am startled by a tap on my shoulder. I see Kenton and Dominic smile at me with complete amusement. The thought that it’s Ava behind me runs through my mind.
Kaylin ~”Excuse me.”
Trayton ~”Fuck you gave me a fright. What can I do for you?”
Kaylin ~”You can start by taking your drinks and leave.”
Trayton ~”Sorry I did not get that?”
Kenton ~”It surely sounds like you telling us to leave.”
Dominic ~”Yes that is definitely what I heard.”
Kaylin ~”Since you three idiots are on the same page, please leave then.”
Dominic ~”Idiots you say?”
Kenton ~”Did you call me an idiot?”
Trayton ~”It definitely sounded like she called us idiots.”
Kaylin ~”Can’t you three assholes make up your own sentences or do you just like pissing people off by repeating their own?”
Dominic ~”She definitely called as assholes.”
Trayton ~”Yes Kent you are an asshole.”
Kenton ~”Seems you a asshole too bro.”
Kaylin ~”Fuck you are an annoying bunch. I forgot why I came here.”
Kenton ~”You wanted the dumb idiots that are assholes to take our drinks and leave.”
Kaylin ~”That sounds about right. So take your own advice and scram.”
Trayton ~”Fuck when last did you hear scram.”
Kenton ~”Mom use to tell us to scram out the kitchen all the time.”
Kaylin ~”Oh fuck the two of you are even related, I still deciding who is the worst.”
Trayton ~”That is definitely him.”
Kenton ~”Your ass.”
Kaylin ~”The last thing I want to hear is you bicker but I would like to see you leave.”
Dominic ~”And if we don’t?”
Kenton ~”Yes if we don’t?”
Trayton ~”What are you going to do if we don’t?”
Kaylin ~”I am going to get the owner to throw you out.”
Dominic ~”Really?”
Kenton ~”You think he would do that?”
Kaylin ~”Yes I know him and he will do that.”
Trayton ~”Do you really know the owner?”
Kaylin ~”Yes I do.”
Dominic ~”What is his name?”
Kaylin ~”Why don’t you just fucking go and stop annoying the shit out of me.”
Kenton ~”Just tell us the owner’s name and we will go.”
Kaylin ~”Why?”
Dominic ~”Maybe we know him.”
Kenton ~”I bet you we probably do.”
Kaylin ~”I am sure he do not want to know any of your damn assholes anyway.”
Trayton ~”What is your name?”
Kaylin ~”Kaylin.”
Trayton ~”That one there is Dominic and this is my brother Kenton.”
Kaylin ~”And you are?”
Trayton ~”Trayton.”
Kaylin ~”Great to have met you but please leave.”
Trayton ~”I have not finished my sentence.”
Kaylin ~”I will humour you so carry on.”
Trayton ~”Trayton the owner of the club.”
Kaylin ~”Oh shit. You still a bunch of assholes though.”
Trayton ~”Can the assholes at least stay?”
Kaylin ~”As long as you don’t harass the underage girls.”
Trayton ~”What?”
Kaylin ~”Oh that was classic, dumb and easy to tease.”
We all watch her as she walks off into the crowd.
Trayton ~
“There you go Kenton, one right up your league.”
Dominic ~”She surely has a mouth on her.”
Kenton ~”Can you imagine what she can do with that mouth?”
Trayton ~”It’s more what you can put into that mouth.”
There is a tap on my shoulder again.
Trayton ~
“She is standing behind me isn’t she?”
Dominic ~”Yup.”
Kenton ~”She definitely is”
Kaylin ~”I am glad you thinking about my mouth and not my ass.”
Dominic ~”Oh we were still going to get that.”
Kenton ~”Then it would have definitely gone to your boobs.”
Trayton ~”Shut the fuck up, it is rude.”
Kaylin ~”Says him wanting to put something in my mouth.”
Trayton ~”I did not say what something.”
Kaylin ~”Whatever. That is not why I am here.”
Trayton ~”Is something wrong?”
Kaylin ~”Yes, you guys aren’t at our table.”
Trayton ~”You are barely old enough to touch which makes you all teenagers.”
Kaylin ~”Thanks that you think I look so young but I assure you me and my friends are all between twenty three and twenty five.”
Trayton ~”Those boys that were here?”
Kaylin ~”My brother and his friends.”
Dominic ~”And this makes it your birthday party?”
Kaylin ~”If you want to call getting pissed a birthday day party.”
Trayton ~”What do you say Kenton? You want to go?”
Kenton ~”If I can stare at her ass, why not.”
Dominic ~”You should not even ask me a question like that.”
We spend the rest of the night at the girl’s table. Come closing time, we finish off for the night and we all head on home.
Much later that evening, not being able to sleep, I wander off into the kitchen. As I switch on the lights, I hear someone screech.
Kaylin ~”Fuck.”
Trayton ~”Shit.”
Kaylin ~”Why do you sneak up on people?”
Trayton ~”Why are you hiding in the damn dark in the first place?”
Kaylin ~”I did not think anyone would be awake this time of night.”
Trayton ~”Well I am.”
Kaylin ~”I am glad we have established that. Now maybe you can make me some coffee.”
Trayton ~”What makes you think I would make you coffee?”
Kaylin ~”I am a guest in your house.”
Trayton ~”Is that what you call yourself?”
Kenton ~”What the fuck are you two doing in here?”
Trayton ~”She is forcing me to make her coffee.”
Kenton ~”In that case I want one too.”
Trayton ~”Only if you give a damn tip.”
Kenton ~”Don’t walk around in your underwear.”
Trayton ~”What the fuck are you talking about?”
Kenton ~”You wanted a tip. Don’t walk around in your underwear.”
Trayton ~”Shit! I am not used to having girls around again.”
Ignoring the fact that I am only in my underwear, we carry on chatting while finishing our coffee. For the so many of time tonight I feel a tap on my shoulders, knowing it not Kaylin and by the size Kenton’s eyes have grown, it must be Ava.
Ava ~”I did not know you had an underwear party tonight.”
Trayton ~”Shit Ava. I forgot.”
Ava ~”Did your friend also forget?”
In absolute horror, I only noticed now that Kaylin is also standing in nothing but her underwear on.
Ava ~”Kenton something gives me an idea this was supposed to have been an exclusive party.”
She points to me and Kaylin. You can see fury in her eyes and underneath tears waiting to burst out. It takes absolutely all of her willpower to not lash out at me. She turns around and leaves the kitchen. I put my cup down to race after her but Kenton stops me.
Kenton ~”Wait, you going to make it worse. Wait until the morning.”
Trayton ~”Fine, I am going to bed.”
The next morning I make my way to the kitchen, this time fully dressed. I am hoping she would be there, but all I see is everyone else.
Trayton ~”Where is Ava?”
Mary ~”She must still be sleeping.”
Trayton ~”I am going to check on her.”
Mary ~”Don’t upset her.”
Trayton ~”Why would I upset her?”
Mary ~”I heard what you did last night.”
Trayton ~”Does nothing stay a fucking a secret in this house?”
I leave the kitchen absolutely furious, but by the time I get to her room I am totally calm.
I knock.
No answer.
I knock harder.
Still no answer.
I knock again.
Again no answer.
Should I just go in or wait?
I will just say I had to get something.
When I enter the room it is empty. She is not here, her clothes seem to be gone as well as all those shoes in their boxes are gone too. Everything that is Ava or what was Ava is gone. She is gone. The baby is gone.
There is a note on the bed.
Ava ~”Enjoy your Victoria’s Secret model. Don’t try and find me”
I rush back down stairs to my mom.
Trayton ~”Mom did you know about this?”
I hand her the note.
Mary ~”No Trayton even though you were an ass to me, I would never hide something like this from you.”
Trayton ~”And you Emma?”
My mom hands Emma the note.
Emma ~”No Tray I promise, she did not say a word to me at all.”
Trayton ~”Dominic do you know anything?”
Emma hands Dominic the note
Dominic ~”Shit man, I am so sorry but who is this model she is referring too?”
Just then Kenton and Kaylin come walking into the kitchen, barely able to keep their hands off each other.
Trayton ~”That would be Kaylin, the girl Kenton hooked up with last night.”
Ava left thinking I am a shit ass father, an even shittier fiancé and now a fucking sack of shit cheater.