I think I have a problem; I can play it safe and hurt Ava or bare myself completely naked and possibly hurt myself. For now, I will play it safe until I figure out what to do with the rest.
But I have just realized something else, with my experience with women in the past, this has never happened, I never thought it would happen, and now that it has, I don’t know what to do with it either.
She can sense that something is up with me, but she does not say a word. In a way, this is a good way to get to know each other without the sex. I am sure she sees that I am trying.
We head on into the Bistro.
Waitress Tina ~ “Hey Trayton, it is good to see you again. Table for two?”
Trayton ~ “Yes, thank you, Tina.”
We are seated at the table, and I can see there is a burning question on her face.
Trayton ~ “I know what you are thinking, and we did not.”
Ava ~ “What did you not do?”
Trayton ~ “Fuck her.”
Ava ~ “I did not say anything.”
Trayton ~ “You did not have to.”
Ava ~ “Oh, so you think you know me that well already that you know what I’m thinking.”
Trayton ~ “No, I can just read minds.”
Ava ~ “So what am I thinking right now?”
Trayton ~ “You want to take me to the bathroom and fuck my brains out.”
Ava
“I think you are confusing your thoughts with mine.”
Trayton ~ “But I thought we think alike.”
Ava ~ “Only in your mind. But I can give you something.”
Trayton ~ “Oh really, and what is that?”
I hear something that sounds like a shoe drop; next I feel her toes creeping up my calf.
Trayton ~ “Ava!”
Ava ~ “What’s got you so nervous Trayton?”
She moves her foot up between my thighs and starts rubbing her way up closer to my cock.
Then her toe touches my cock.
Trayton ~ “Oh fuck.”
Ava ~ “Trayton is there something pressing you that needs to come out.”
She starts rubbing her foot over my cock, slow but firmly, up and down; it feels so good the way she is touching me with just her foot.
Trayton ~ “If you keep on doing that, then I am definitely going to cum in my pants.”
Ava ~ “Maybe I want you to cum right there where you are sitting.”
She reaches over the table to take my hand and pull it closer to her; I completely freeze.
Ava ~ “I forgot you don’t know how to do the affectionate thing.”
Trayton ~ “I do.”
Ava ~ “Then why can’t I feel my fingers anymore.”
Trayton ~ “Maybe I am squeezing too hard.”
Ava ~ “Maybe just a tad bit.”
Trayton ~ “I did not know how tightly you wanted me to hold your hand.”
Ava ~ “I think it is absolutely adorable.”
Trayton ~ “Do I look like a teddybear.”
Ava ~ “No why?”
Trayton ~ “Only teddy bears are adorable.”
Ava ~ “You just not use to getting compliments that are not to do with sex.”
……….
Thank fuck the waitress shows up, that conversation was getting too soft and serious for me. Her hands are soft, but the conversation way too serious.
……….
Waitress Tina ~ “The usual Trayton?”
Trayton ~ “No rather bring us a bottle of wine.”
There is a smirk on her face again, I know she wants to say something.
Ava ~ “You sure you did not fuck her? She is practically undressing you with her eyes.”
Trayton ~ “I am very sure.”
Ava ~ “She knows you awfully well.”
Trayton ~ “I have my business lunches here”
Ava ~ “You must have an awful lot of business lunches.”
Trayton ~ “I guess the place just grew on me over the years.”
Ava ~ “I wouldn’t think a nightclub owner would come to a place like this.”
Trayton ~ “I was not always a nightclub owner. That sort of just happened”
……….
Another welcomed interruption by the waitress got very close to the reason why we are here. I still don’t know if I ready yet.
……….
Trayton ~ “I never asked if you like wine.”
Ava ~ “Lucky for you, I do. But don’t you think it is too early for that.”
Trayton ~ “It is never too early to have wine. We can always drink champagne.”
Ava ~ “Let’s try the wine first.”
……….
The waitress pours the wine before she has even left, I have down my glass, she pours another, I would down it as well, but the both of them are looking at me funny.
……….
Ava ~ “Wow, you must be very thirsty.”
Trayton ~ “Try very nervous.”
Ava ~ “Oh yes, you have never done breakfast before.”
Trayton ~ “There is a lot of things I have not done before.”
Ava ~ “I will try to take it slow.”
Trayton ~ “Like they say, baby steps”
Ava ~ “Fuck if think we have skipped the baby steps.”
Trayton ~ “We are working it backward.”
Ava ~ “At least I got to seconds”
Trayton ~ “Fuck that sounds awful.”
Ava ~ “You did do a bunch of awful fucked up shit.”
……….
I did not know I can do small talk; it kind of works, it is pleasant and does not involve too much revealing about yourself. Now, if it involved sex it would be even better, but I think that is pillow talk. What is up with all the different types of talk? If I am not mistaken, you even get sex talk, or is it foreplay.
I think I am talking to myself in my head; in fact, I am; this is driving me crazy. This woman is driving me crazy.
……….
She is rubbing my cock harder now; I can feel that old familiar warm feeling starting to grow in my groin.
Trayton ~ “Baby girl, you are really going to make me cum.”
Ava ~ “I told you I am going to make you cum.”
Trayton ~ “Fuck it feels good”
She continues rubbing me with her foot in a way I have never felt before.
……….
Ava ~ “How did you meet Dominic and Joseph?”
Fuck.
So it begins.
Trayton ~ “I met them through work. We were kind of in the same line of business then eventually ended up working together”
Ava ~ “And now they stay with you.”
Trayton ~ “It just works out better this way, I guess. We use to run the business from home, and now we do it from the club.”
……….
She is starting to really ask a lot of questions; I am trying my best to dance my way around them. Somehow I know I can do as much dancing as I want; I am not getting away from it.
……….
Trayton ~ “So why a stripper?”
Ava ~ “We did it on a dare. We had a bet going who will be brave enough to do it. The cash for the bet was quite high; for girls, at our age at the time, it meant a new pair of stilettos or a Gucci bag. So we all ended up doing it. Now we enjoy it, and of course, it helps pays the bills.”
Trayton ~ “Have you ever thought about stopping?”
Ava ~ “No, not yet.”
Trayton ~ “Will you?”
Ava ~ “It depends”
Trayton ~ “Depends on what?”
Ava ~ “Meeting the type of man that will make me want to stop.”
……….
I don’t know if that was a hint or a punch in the guts.
……….
The pressure on my cock is now intense; the rubbing has become faster, it feels like I can explode.
Trayton ~ “Ava, you are going to make me cum.”
Ava ~ “Trayton just let go; I want you to cum.”
She continues rubbing my cock.
……….
Ava ~ “So why is Trayton DeCarlo such a mystery?”
Trayton ~ “I have never had to open myself up.”
Ava ~ “And that is a bad thing?”
Trayton ~ “No, it is just damn scary”
Ava ~ “You scared you might chase me away?”
……….
Saved by the waitress again.
……….
Waitress Tina ~ “What can I get you guys”
Trayton ~ “The usual for me.”
Ava ~ “Whatever the usual is for him.”
Trayton ~ “You sure.”
Ava ~ “What’s the worst that you can eat.”
Trayton ~ “You will be surprised.”
……….
I don’t even wait for the waitress and pour myself more wine. I am sitting on my nearly empty third while she is still on her first.
Then they come again.
……….
Ava ~ “How do you know Jackson?”
Trayton ~ “We do a lot of business together. And he is an old friend.”
Ava ~ “So you don’t work for him?”
Trayton ~ “No, I work for myself.”
Ava ~ “And you are Dominic and Joseph’s boss.”
Trayton ~ “I must say you quite clever today.”
Ava ~ “And I must say you are quite close to a smack now.”
……….
Her foot is doing things to my cock I did not think was even possible. I cannot keep it in; I can feel myself, I am there.
Trayton ~ “Fuck this I am going to cum.”
Ava ~ “Cum baby, I want to feel you throb under my toes.”
I feel like my balls tense up, and my cock grows warm. She keeps the pressure and continues to rub.
Trayton ~ “Oh fuck baby girl.”
Then I cum, I grab the sides of the table and try my best not to let it shake. My legs tremble in a controlled way if it is even possible. My orgasm goes on for a few seconds and then subsides.
……….
Trayton ~ “I see what you did there.”
Ava ~ “And what is that?”
Trayton ~ “You made me cum so that I can relax.”
……….
I might as well just tell her this dragging it out of me is damn painful. It was fun in the beginning, but the tension is killing me.
……….
Trayton ~ “What is the worst thing you possibly think I can do for a living?”
Ava ~ “Be like a serial killer or something sick like that.”
Trayton ~ “And the most boring thing?”
Ava ~ “Maybe like an insurance salesman?”
Trayton ~ “Fuck I would rather want to be a serial killer then”
Ava ~ “Maybe you should be a big-time stock broker.”
Trayton ~ “I don’t have patience for shit like that.”
Ava ~ “Then I will state the obvious. You know Jackson.”
Trayton ~ “Yes”
Ava ~ “Dominic and Joseph calls you boss by mistake sometimes.”
Trayton ~ “Yes.”
Ava ~ “I heard you talk about a shipment once.”
Trayton ~ “Fuck you have good ears.”
Ava ~ “Sometimes you have a gun on you.”
Trayton ~ “Nothing gets past you.”
Ava ~ “You must be some big ass mafia boss.”
Trayton ~ “No.”
Ava ~ “Are you serious? You not?”
Trayton ~ “No, I am definitely not a mafia boss.”
Ava ~ “Then I am confused.”
Trayton ~ “That is exactly what I aim for. Let people think I am something I’m not.”
Ava ~ “Why?”
Trayton ~ “In my line of business, I must be a ghost. People cannot know who I really am; I don’t exist.”
Ava ~ “Then why are you going to tell me? Are you going to tell me?”
……….
Thank god the waitress interrupts us again with our food.
……….
Ava ~ “Okay, maybe you should have mentioned how big the portions are.”
Trayton ~ “I asked you if you sure.”
Ava ~ “I did not think you would eat this much”
Trayton ~ “I forgot you have never seen me eat before.”
Ava ~ “Fuck we are really backward.”
Trayton ~ “Fuck that look on your face when you saw the plate.”
Ava ~ “I glad you think it was funny.”
Trayton ~ “Wait till you see what I have for dessert.”
Ava ~ “Fuck no. Who has desert with breakfast anyway.”
Trayton ~ “I do.”
Ava ~ “You full of surprises today.”
Trayton ~ “You better eat before it gets cold.”
Ava ~ “Stop changing the subject.”
Trayton ~ “I am not”
Ava ~ “Yes you are.”
Trayton ~ “You very mistaken.”
Ava ~ “No, I am not.”
Trayton ~ “Ok I am.”
Ava ~ “Let me get this straight. You are not a mafia boss. Dominic and Joseph works for you. You carry guns. You have business meetings in a Bistro. You know Jackson but don’t work for him. I have no idea then”
………
The time has come, I trust her, I know she would not say anything, I know this relationship is important enough to me that I have to tell her, she is important enough to me, I have to, and I want to tell her. This is a big risk, and I am going to take it.
……….
Trayton ~ “I am a hitman, assassin, whatever you want to call me.”
Ava ~ “Do you kill people for a living?”
Trayton ~ “Yes”
She goes dead quiet. Her steady hand that was just holding her fork is now trembling, trembling so much her food, and the fork falls into the plate. She is clearly shaken. Do I say something or just let her process it. Maybe it was too soon, or maybe I should not have told her to begin with.
We finish our meal in dead silence. I decide not to have my dessert. We finish up and head-on to the car in silence. We drive back to her apartment in silence. Only when I drop her off, she speaks.
Ava ~ “Thank you for breakfast.”
Trayton ~ “Am I going to see you tonight.”
Ava ~ “I have to work, but I will speak to you later”
I know I am not going to speak to her. She is not going to message or call me either.
…………………………
With the girls at their apartment…
Emma ~ “Fuck Ava. You look like you have seen a ghost.”
Ava ~ “I have.”
Becca ~ “What’s wrong, girl?”
Ava ~ “Trayton.”
Emma ~ “What’s wrong with Trayton?”
Ava ~ “Ghost.”
Becca ~ “What is up with the one-word answers?”
Ava ~ “Please can I have wine.”
Becca ~ “Ava, we got work in a few hours.”
Emma ~ “Just fucking get her wine. Ava, what happened with Trayton.”
Becca ~ “You guys seemed so happy this morning.”
Ava ~ “What do you know about Joseph and Dominic?”
Emma ~ “What do you mean?”
Ava ~ “What work they do?”
Becca ~ “They work for the mob.”
Ava ~ “Did you actually ask them?”
Emma ~ “No, we just assumed.”
Ava ~ “Well, you assumed wrong”
Becca ~ “I don’t get you.”
Ava ~ “It’s simple. They are fucking a hitman, assassin, or whatever you want to call them.”
Emma ~ “Hitman like in kill people.”
Ava ~ “Yes exactly that. They kill people.”
Becca ~ “Did Trayton tell you?”
Ava ~ “Yes, just now at breakfast.”
Emma ~ “Fuck.”
Becca ~ “What did we get ourselves into?”
Ava ~ “I don’t know what to say.”
…………………………
With Trayton at the club…
Dominic ~ “Trayton, don’t you think that it is too early for that shit.”
Joseph ~ “Since when do you have whiskey for breakfast?”
Trayton ~ “Since now”
Dominic ~ “What the fuck happened?”
Joseph ~ “Did you and Ava not go out?”
Trayton ~ “Yes, we did, but she is not speaking to me.”
Dominic ~ “Why”?
Trayton ~ “I told her.”
Joseph ~ “Told her what?”
Trayton ~ “What work we do.”
Joseph ~ “Work-work?”
Trayton ~ “Yes work-work.”
Dominic ~ “Are you fucking crazy. You don’t just lay down that shit.”
Joseph ~ “What did she say?”
Trayton ~ “Nothing. She has not talked to me since I told her.”
Dominic ~ “Do you think she is going to tell the girls?”
Trayton ~ “I am certain she will”
Dominic ~ “Fuck Trayton.”
Joseph ~ “That was a big fucking gamble.”
Trayton ~ “I was kind of expecting it to blow up in my face.”
Dominic ~ “Then why tell her.”
Trayton ~ “Because I care about her. A lot.”
What I won’t tell them or even admit to myself is that yes, I do care a lot about her. This relationship meant a lot to me; I really wanted it to work, and for that to happen, there were not going to be any lies or secrets. Like I said, if I open up and lay myself bare, I will only get myself hurt, and it has. The biggest secret that I was not ready to tell her yet, I will never be able to tell her at all,
That is that I love her.
It might be too soon, but I know it in my heart, I love the damn woman.