“I remember you telling me that you wanted to have a good life with me.” he told me with passion in his eyes. Did you really mean it?
“That was because I didn’t know what kind of person you were yet, now I did. I found out you are scary, I can’t play with you, I hope you’ll let me go.”
I pleaded with fear rushing through my veins.
“……”
Haden suddenly laughed after a long time, his appearance remains vague as a cold smile floated on his face. Despite of that, the bottom of his eyes became milky cool, “Am I terrible? What level of being am I? Didn’t I show you some kindness even once?”
“Yes, you are, you are good to me, but you are treating me like a possession. You treat me like a little thing you have been training for a long time. You give me
some sweetness, and that makes you think I can’t leave you. You love watching me being played by you. You are particularly skilled. ” I said out of frustration.
“Play? do you think I am playing with you?” His face was cloudy, conveying a sense of gloom and
doom. The emotion in his eyes suddenly shifted to something I never expected. It was full of disappointment and anger
“If you are really played by me, I would have dispatched you long ago. All you are doing every day is the time when I am free. Is that how you define the word being played? Do you know what you are talking about?”
Every word he said, every look on his face, every breath he panted, sent a shiver down my spine.
It seems I can’t move my body because of his anger that I sensed.
I really didn’t want to say something more as he walked around me, I heard the door shut. All I can see inside the room is myself, being alone. As he came out the door.
I went back to my room, with my heart full of grief, I got out my suitcase and started packing my things. Am I really determined to leave this environment?
I felt someone is standing behind me, just his presence is enough to make my body shiver in fear. I turned my head toward the side where I sense that a person is standing. It’s him.
Haden’s newly suppressed anger boiled up again and he angrily, “What are you doing?”
“I said I’m getting a divorce and I’m not staying here.”
I answered him gently but the decision in my heart is final.
“Let’s talk about what’s going on, let’s fix it. Divorce will never be a solution. I don’t want a divorce.” He spoke with a firm principle.
I looked a little confused.
“Wasn’t our baby an accident?” I asked him diligently to clarify things.
“I like you, that is why I want you to be the mother of my child. We’ve been married for so long, why can’t you see
that? Can’t you feel my love toward you through it all?”
I stared blankly at the man in front of me, his words took me aback a long time. Did he just said that he liked me?
Is my heart happy? Maybe things got confusing. I thought that was ridiculous, “Since I arrived at Sara’s house, I didn’t even get a chance to see her face even just a few times. Then you tell me you like me? How did that happen?”
I really don’t know what went wrong with the statement I said. When suddenly his face suddenly froze, I can see anger deep down his soul. It is overflowing and his eyes starts to project those emotions. His words were like burning with anger, all I can do is to listen,
“Seeing you the first time, your appeal already caught my whole being.
The moment you came to our house is the time where I already realized my heart beats toward you. When you got doused like a chicken by the
rain, you looked so pitiful, my heart told me that you need someone who can take good care of you. I told myself I wanted to protect you for my whole life”
Hearing his words, he looks so sincere. I froze, my heart skips beat as
I glanced at him. However, thinking about that woman, it made me think that all he was telling is just a lie.
“Take good care of her.”
I said coldly, as I strongly pulled the suitcase and walked out from the room. The baby was scared, he is trembling with a crying voice calling me out.
“Mommy, mommy, mommy.” Eaden’s voice crying in my ears. My heart is aching to know that my little baby doesn’t want me to leave.
Voice after voice runs in my mind. I can’t stand it hearing that the people around me pleads that I should stay.
I paused, at that moment I had a struggle. My heart seems like to tighten. It gives me a pain that I can’t seem to understand. I feel confusion, the voice I heard is like pulling me back. Should I stay and be with my child? Or should I just leave him being in a sorrowful situation? It is truly hard for a child to be able to stand without his mother. My heart is torn between two. I am actually starting to consider to stay for my child. Should I be selfless to think of my child’s future? Or maybe I should be selfish to prioritize my wellbeing personally?
“My child, you know I can compromise anything for you. I will do everything just to make you feel protected.” thoughts running on my head and commands my heart to respond. Even if I know that I’m being toyed by your father, I can compromise myself just to choose you over anything else. Over everything.” I am continually making myself believe that I am capable to stay for my child’s sake.
However, at the end of the day. I choose to retain the last piece of self-respect in my body, as a woman, maybe this time, I needed to choose myself first. I didn’t look back, resisting the urge to see my child for the last glance. I pulled the suitcase hurriedly out of the door. Rushing so I can’t be caught up by the quick footsteps behind me. I suddenly felt a firm hand that grabbed my wrist. It was strongly done, as if it was trying to hold me back from leaving. It was like an iron-claw arm. If I am not mistaken, Haden’s arms.
Pulling me around, the man’s face was full with anger, but under his eyes, all I can see is a kind of anxious.
He is like being crushed, he said gauntly, “Didn’t you hear him crying? Why can you just afford to leave him like
that?”
I felt a twinge of pain in my heart and and walked towards the front door. My heart is pounding inside my chest vastly. It seems that the little organ is about to explode.
I walked quickly, as fast as I can while tears roll down my cheek. I can feel the warm touch of the small droplets. Dermon was waiting outside the gate, he helped me carry the suitcase toward the car. The car drove away quickly, all I can see in the rear-view mirror is that Haden trying to chase me. He is trying very hard to run as fast as he could. My heart is broken, seeing him doing something like that just to plead me to stay. He is running after the car, being out in the street with bare feet.
Haden’s POV
I stood in the driveway as I watched the car disappears. I can’t believe my eyes that she can actually afford to leave me.
My throat felt like it was caught in something, it feels I was choking and seems like my airways were tightened. When I breathed, I felt an unbearable stabbing pain right behind my chest. Is it my heart that’s giving up the thought of losing her? I just can’t afford to.
When I got home with my bare feet, the nanny was holding and soothing the crying Eaden and his eyes were red with tears. His voice became a little hoarse because of crying. It must be his heart, twisting inside when he knew his mother left.
I felt the same way, my heart is like twisting. I let out a heave of sigh.
“Don’t cry, daddy promises you, daddy will get your mommy back, don’t cry, okay?”
Elena’s POV
I sat in Dermon’s car, suddenly remembered Eaden, his cute little face kept popping up in front of my eyes, as if Eaden’s cries were in my ears.
Each scream stabbed at my heart.
“Stop the car,” I blurted out.
Dermon froze.
“What?”
“Stop the car!” I yelled at Dermon.
Dermon was yanked back and stopped the car.
I jumped out of the car and ran all the way home, to the place where my little joy is waiting for me.