Cilla.
“Hey,” Ridian said, pulling me closer to him.
“I’m sorry for disrespecting you in front of everyone,” I began. “I’m sorry for not appreciating what you did for me when you acquired my original pack. I’m sorry for putting my life in danger. I’m sorr-.”
A warm finger on my lips stopping me from saying anything else.
“Don’t worry. I know you’re sorry and I forgive you for everything,” Ridian said. “I’m tired of us being mad at each other especially at a time like this. This is the time when we should come together and find solutions to the problems at hand not fight and create more problems.”
I kissed his lips. “I’ve missed you so much, my love. The last week has been terrible. I hate fighting with you. We shouldn’t do that ever again.”
“I agree,” he said, his hand trailing my backside, making my midsection arch closer to him. It felt so good, being in his arms after what felt like forever.
Ridian captured my lips in his, our lips moved together as I savored the sweet taste of him. The slow kiss built up momentum and pressure inside us until we got to a point where we were nearly biting each other’s lips off.
“Turn,” Ridian told me and I turned my body to face the other side. I felt him adjust his body and then he entered me from behind, his hand trailing and caressing my highly sensitive breasts. I threw my head back and he kissed me, driving me to the highest levels of ecstasy. Ridian and I had one of the best nights that time.
In the morning, I felt guilty that I had enjoyed myself so much yet my siblings were out there suffering. Ridian and I left the guest room together and went to our bedroom where we starting showering and preparing for the day.
After breakfast, Ridian went to brief the beta and other pack authorities, informing them that he and I were planning to go to human controlled territories and start searching for jane willow and the twins. When i gave Ridian the information I’d got from Sasha, I didn’t tell him the name of the person who had helped Jane willow because she would have descended on beta Adam without second thought. I didn’t want any more trouble than we already had to deal with.
The search started later that day. We printed out pictures of the twins with the words ‘missing’ on top of them. We printed hundreds of copies and set off with three cars, going in different directions. Ridian and I went to the same towns asking if anyone had seen the twins and pinning up posters at certain places.
The bad thing about the method was that it may alert Jane that we were looking unfortunately, we did not have any other choice. We could have settled for a quiet search but it would kill us to think there were people we were not reaching because we had decided to limit ourselves.
For three days, we searched and spoke to hundreds of people. We even risked our identity and went to the police. Obviously, we pretended to be 100 percent human. We had rented out a house in one of the cities and we used it as our permanent address. Day and night, we combed the streets, hoping that one day, we would find the twins but it was all in vain. Jane never called or made any threats which scared me the more. I started to think she was so done with us that she killed my siblings and went away so that I would never be happy again.
Eventually, we had to return home and continue with life. Without both the alpha and luna, the two packs were weak and vulnerable. We couldn’t afford to let everything go and lose it all. I didn’t want to return without my siblings but Ridian ended up dragging me back. During the first few days of our return, I was a little bit hopeful but as time went on, I started to lose hope that I would ever see Rose and Ren again.
I found myself falling into a deep depression. In the mornings, I felt weary and anxious and didn’t want to get out of bed. Ridian had to force me out every two days because whether I liked it or not, I was still the luna of Blackmoon pack and had duties. Sometimes, I stayed in our suite all day, crying, eating and sleeping.
Cara and Camilla tried their best to cheer me up but all their efforts were in vain. i started watching the news via Ridian’s smartphone, hoping that one day, I would see the faces of the twins on the screen after they were found. Sadly, it never happened and my heart continued to break.
Ridian tried his best but he eventually got tired of me.
“I can’t do this anymore,” he said when I found him packing his clothes in a suitcase.
“What do you mean?” I asked.
“I know you’re hurt but I cannot be with you in the same house when you’re acting like this anymore. I have tried, but it’s becoming too much. You have failed to move past this grieving stage and I don’t know what to do anymore. I love you, and support you but right now, I need a break. I’ll be leaving for a while and I hope that some things would have changed when I get back. I’m going to continue looking for more information.”
“I can’t take care of the pack in this condition,” I said.
“I know, and that’s why I left the beta in charge. Brody and my mother will be helping him as well. I don’t want to leave but this is wearing me out so I hope you understand.”
“No, I don’t understand why you would leave me when I need you most but you’re free to go and enjoy your life. I’m sorry for being such a burden.”
“Don’t speak like that. You know it’s not like that.”
“What’s it like?”
“I need some time away,”
“From me.”
He shook his head. “From everything.”
I turned away, tears clouding my eyes. “It’s okay, you can go.”
“Goodbye, my love.” He said.
My grip on the glass tightened and I heard it breaking. I let the fragments fall to the floor before staring at the blood coming out of the new wounds in my palm.
Pain. At that time, I knew it more than anything else.