This time, the alpha and Kelly had breakfast while clothed, which was a big relief. He was wearing a white jersey shirt and matching shorts while she wore a pink cotton night dress. It was such an improvement from what they had donned the day before.
They did not bother me at all. The only thing bothering me was my body which had got all hot and bothered by the sight of the handsome alpha. As I stood behind them and watched as they ate, I observed him more than I had ever done before.
The muscles of his arms were big, strong and hard. He looked like he could lift a whole building. His jaw was equally strong, made of sharp planes.
“Take a picture, it’ll last longer.” He said.
I averted my gaze immediately.
“Told you yesterday,” Kelly commented. “She wants you but she is too much of a prude to admit it.” she turned to me.
“Do you have a mate?”
I shook my head.
“Girl, don’t worry about they say. You must wait until marriage, wait for your mate blah blah blah. That’s nonsense. You can’t waste away waiting for a mate. He might even turn out to be a jerk after you resisted sex just for his sake. Or you might never find him. You need to enjoy life when you’re still young.”
“Thank you,” I said. “I think I should.”
“Do you ever get bothered that this slave talks too much,” Kelly asked Ridian.
“I don’t really care,” he said. “All I want right now is to get my way with you.”
He leaned over and kissed her lips.
“I can smell arousal. Is that you?”
Kelly chuckled.
It was definitely not her. Me. my underwear was totally wet, and even I could smell it.
“I had almost enough last night. You couldn’t stop. That must be her. Soon, she will be begging like you said.”
I decided to stay silent and wait for them to finish having their meal. A few minutes later, Ridian stood up and went to the living area. He sat on a couch. She followed him and they started kissing. I could feel the pain starting in my stomach, which felt like it was tearing itself into two. I decided to be brave, but it was impossible.
I barged into the living room.
“Reject me, please.” I said, going down on my knees.
“What?” Kelly said as she got off him and pulled her nightdress down.
“Please, I beg of you,” I implored, letting tears run freely on my face. “I can’t do this anymore. I can’t watch you like this every day.”
“What are you talking about?” Ridian asked.
“You know what I’m talking about,” I said.
“You are crazy, and very dramatic. Where is my phone? I’m going to call Marlon. Can’t seem link to him for some reason.”
“Is she your mate?” Kelly asked.
Alpha Ridian scoffed. “Of course not. I don’t know what’s wrong with her.”
He stood up, reorganized his shorts and walked towards the bedroom.
“Please don’t call Marlon.” I said. “I’m so sorry. I don’t know what came over me. I just miss my family and want to go out and look for my siblings. Please free me.”
Ridian didn’t stop walking. He went into the room and returned with a small button phone. A wave of disappointment crushed over me as he pressed the buttons and dialled.
“Please forgive me.”
“I don’t tolerate drama. You are here to serve me, and that’s all you should do. No talking, no making personal requests. Did Cara forget to orient you?”
“She did, but I’m just so sad.”
Suddenly my mind changed and I stood up. Why was I even trying to cover for him? Trying to keep his secret when he was treating me badly anyway. “Yes Kelly. He is my mate, and I won’t lie anymore. You know that I’m your mate. That’s why I feel pain when you mate with other women. You can feel the bond but you refuse to acknowledge it. Why don’t you just reject me, Ridian Jamison? I’m tired of suffering and keeping things in. just say the word, and I won’t bother you ever again.”
He chuckled. “You know what, I accept. I, Ridian Jamison, accept you, Cilla Markle as my mate.”
“What?”
“Now we are going to be connected,” he stepped forward and grabbed my upper hands. “Accept me now.”
I shook my head.
“Do it,” he yelled.
“No, I will not.”
The door suddenly opened. Marlon stood there. “Do it, or I will hand you over to him. This time he won’t be playing like the last times.”
“I, Cilla Markle accept you Ridian Jamison, as my mate.”
I did not feel anything different immediately so I walked away as soon as he let go of me. it was when I was packing up the dirty plates when I felt it. I looked back at him, and saw him in a whole new light. The hate that had filled my entire being seemed to have evaporated.
The connection between us had suddenly grown stronger, and I could feel myself wanting to go and talk to him.
“Pull yourself together,” I whispered to myself and continued to do my work. As soon as I finished, I wheeled the trolley out of there. Once I was outside in the hallway, I stopped the trolley and leaned against the wall.
I couldn’t believe it had happened. The alpha of Blackmoon pack and I were officially mates. I had no idea whether it would be a good idea to tell other people or we had to keep it down for a while.
Now, it was going to hurt so much more if he mated with another person. I was going to start to feel his emotions as well.
I realised that I was not ready for that. No, I was not ready to have a mate, especially one who had accepted me by force.
If he did not resent me before, he was surely going to start. I had not waited for him to make up his mind. He had accepted me out of anger, to spite me which meant I had to prepare for the worst. Both of us had to.
What had I done?