“Do you remember my dream? Where I thought you died, and how I was afraid of losing you. I guess my coward self was factoring in greatly on my decision…”
“Rain…”
“Look we… I need to say it.”
He paused, and let me continue.
“I was so worried about you, of how you were gone into war. I was afraid that it was the same battle, it was silly… I know you checked with Maven. I know you said that he could see stuff. But for those two whole days, I couldn’t think. And I had nothing to occupy myself with…”
“I know it’s too much of me to ask, but come back with me?”
“But I’d just worry about you again, and you have your kingdom to run.”
He was pulling me into his arms, my back touched his naked chest. We were still laying naked in my bed. We got back to my place yesterday morning, and have been staying here since then.
“I’m sorry I’ve gone too far. Of course. I’ll do anything you want.”
I turned to face him, he looked disappointed. Then he backed away and get out of bed and starting to dress himself.
“I should go back. I will send Durwin in a couple of days, I will not expect you to change your mind. I’m… It’s my fault to even pushed you this far.”
I was feeling something off from him, and I know that we were not talking about the same issue any more.
“Ranulf? what is it?” I said getting my still naked body off the bed, and get in front of him moments later.
“Nothing, I think it is best if we carry on as usual. It’s selfish of me to want you for what I am.”
His voice was calm, his face was stoic but his vibe was different. Even my wolf felt something off from his behavior.
But he took my face and stroked my jaw slowly and lower his lips to mine, he was kissing me slowly. He was taking his time, I could feel his black wings pulling me closer to him.
It was a different kind of kiss, it was like he was saying goodbye. Fuck!
We were happy just moments before.
I know he could read my mind, but he was not giving me anything. He just looks solemnly at me and kissed me one more time cocooning us in his wings before he finally let me go.
And just like that, he was gone.
What’s with his saying about me wanting him for what he is?
Why does it feel like he was leaving me?
Like he was making me leave him?
Maybe I should just let him be…
*****
Three days later Grey was checking up on me, he was surprised seeing my state of being.
“I think I’m sick. I don’t feel so good… but Amos said there’s nothing wrong with me. He said that the freaking Angel was making me sick. What the hell was that supposed to mean?”
“Yeah, Amos told me to check up on you. Said something about you being lovesick.” He smirked, as he entered my place and looked at my surrounding.
I was so lethargic after the day Ranulf went back to hell. I didn’t feel like I wanted to do anything. Dirty plates were stacking up at the sink, empty beer bottles were pilling up the trash bin.
“Huh?”
“I said lovesick you ass. Come on get up! I’ll get the trash and you do the dishes. This is plain puppy love.”
“Huh?”
“Damn it Rain, do I have to spell it out for you?”
“Arggh… I’m sick! I need another healer.” I said whining to Grey and pulling my blanket over my head again. I hated the King, I hated the way he made me feel.
“Damn it Rain, I’m so going to drag you to the pond and let you swim it off.”
I could feel Grey’s strong hands on my ankles, he was definitely ready to drag my ass out to the pond.
“Maybe I could help?”
That voice… I’ve heard it before.
Durwin?
I peeked, lowering down my blanket and the handsome elf was hunching down in front of me.
“Durwin? you’re really here?”
“Ohh… Rain, you look just as bad as he is…”
“Huh?”
“Cut it with the huh Rain! you’re even too fucking lazy to talk.” Grey stated irritatedly, while Durwin smiled at me helping me to sit up from the couch.
“I don’t think I can… I think I’m glued to this thing.” I whined to the handsome elf and snuggled in deeper into my dented couch.
I could see Grey shook his head, and carry on my kitchen after I introduced him to Durwin. Then he was letting Durwin try to convince me, to get my lazy ass off the couch.
“Rain, this is my first time on earth. I thought you might want to take me for a walk.”
Durwin was wearing his usual pants, and he was wearing an additional cloaked to cover his upper body. His long hair was tied loosely with small braids on the side. I could see Grey was looking at Durwin several times like he was sizing him up but still leave us to our privacy.
“Really?”
“Yeah, Ranulf sent me up to check up on you. While Maven helped me with the portal. So, you want to show me this pond you guys been talking about?”
“It’s too cold outside, I’m good right here. But tell me more about him?”
“Well, he’s been keeping himself busy with his generals, he never comes our Quarters since your last visit there. His line of harem have been talking obviously, they’re all worried that the king might dismiss all of them. Even I’m currently on the lookout for another save place to live.”
“But why would you need a save place to live?” I was honestly intrigued by his statement, that I sit myself up to listen to his explanation.
“Are you feeling better? Why don’t I accompany you, and we take a nice walk and stretch your legs?”
Agreeing with Durwin, I was able to peel myself off the couch.
“Thank you, Grey, but I can take it from here. Hey.. you still want to go to that pond?” I told Grey when he was back from taking the last of the trash outside.
He was looking at me then to the elf, then to me again.
“Nah, you guys go ahead. I’m coming back later tonight to pick you up. Laurie is cooking a feast for all, and both of you be joining us for dinner.”
“Damn… can believe it’s weekend already.” I groaned while trying to find my shirt under the pile of pillow cushions.
We were out walking to the forest when I started to question him.
“So, tell me…”
“Hmmm? I think it’s very nice having a beautiful forest as your backyard.”
“No Durwin… him, the king… how is he?”
“Oh… he’s becoming a very brute person with each passing day. Everyone is tiptoeing their steps around him. I was surprised that he summoned me, fearing the worst. But then he sent me here to accompany you.”
I looked at Durwin with more questions in my mind. I remembered when he said that he would send Durwin for me. I thought he was sending him to take me back to hell.
But now Durwin said he was sent to accompany me here on earth. My heart dropped and it suffocated me once again.
“Hey… Rain, please don’t think the worst of him. He just wants what’s best for you.”
The elf saw the redness forming in my eyes, while I try my hardest to blinked it out and clear my tears. I hated that I was becoming so sappy for him.
He hugged me for the longest time, I was taking in the hell scent that was still attached to him. I inhale it and sighed as he kissed my head and caressed my back.
“The King loves you very much, and so do I. He does want what’s best for you. Please understand that…”