I didn’t know how I got home. After saying those words, I remembered how Vampire didn’t even turn back to glance at me. I could only see his back, but I didn’t need to see his face to know what kind of expression he had made. At that time, as I watched him slip out of my fingers, I couldn’t help but feel my heart breaking into millions of pieces.
I knew that I wouldn’t be able to see him face-to-face after today. So my eyes kept sticking to his form that walked toward the main door in slow motion. Every step he took away from me felt broken my heart again and again, shattering it thoroughly.
It wasn’t until he was at the door that I got up on my feet hurriedly and dashed toward him. At this time, all I wanted to do was rush in his embrace and take a long lasting sniff of his warmth. I wanted him to pat my head and tell me that everything he said just now was nothing but a joke. I wouldn’t be mad at him for this. Instead, I would just hold him in my arms and smile sweetly.
But nothing like that happened. I ran and stood behind him as he put his fingers on the knob and said in a voice that sounded as if it was breaking apart. “Vampire, wait.”
He didn’t look back, but his actions stopped.
I wiped my face furiously. I knew that many people were watching me at this time, but I didn’t care a single bit. My lower lips quivered as I opened my mouth and said, “Even though it was fake for you, even though you never loved me, I know that you’re the only person who sent my heart a little bit of warmth. I can never forget you, even if you force me. I’ll keep abusing my heart by remembering how we broke apart. Goodbye, Vampire. I hope you have a good life after murdering me alive. It’s not like I can really smile after this. So I’ll continue living a robotic life where the only emotion I’ll feel would be remorse and heartbreak.”
Vampire didn’t say anything. He just stood there for a long time as if he were struggling with something. For a moment, I hoped that my words could work on him, but I was really wishing for too much. After a while, he opened his mouth and said, “Whatever suits you, Elise. I don’t have anything to do with you now.”
After this, he instantly opened the door and walked out before closing it with a thud right at my face.
Then, I stood there like a fool for a long time until the waitress came and patted my shoulders. I didn’t even wipe my face and walked forward like a dead man walking down the street.
When I came home, my makeup was ruined because of tears that rained down my eyes. I didn’t even change my clothes and sat on the couch with tears falling from my eyes as if it were a waterfall while I stared at the wall before me for a long time without moving.
I didn’t know how long I had just sat there and stared at the wall like that, but suddenly, I heard the front door opening. A spark of hope burst in my heart. Was it Vampire? Did he come back to ask for forgiveness?
If he just said a single word ‘sorry,’ I would instantly forgive him for all the mistakes he made. I would never blame him for saying those words, and stick to him like glue. I would even divorce my husband and say that I was ready to be Vampire’s mistress for life. I was even ready to die for that editor!
But my hopes were meant to die in regret. As soon as I raised my head, I saw a familiar face that I didn’t even think about at this moment.
It was my husband, Lewis.
A wave of anger burst in my heart. It was all because of him! If he hadn’t been so cold to me back then, I wouldn’t have fallen for Vampire and wouldn’t have felt broken hearted today! If it weren’t for my husband, I wouldn’t have become so attached to Vampire who ruined my life!
Lewis had already left me crying in the cold nights, and when Vampire came, my husband suddenly wished to come back in my life. Was that why Vampire went away from me?!
My thoughts didn’t make sense anymore after this. I knew subconsciously that I was being unreasonable, but I couldn’t help it!
So I glared at him and said, “Get out!”
Lewis was changing his shoes when he heard my words and stopped his actions before glancing at me with narrowed eyes. “What?”
I ignored the innocent look in his eyes and repeated. “Get out. I don’t want to see you today.”
I tried to keep my voice calm, but I was really struggling to keep my hands and legs from shaking as I folded my arms in front of me.
Lewis didn’t say anything as he looked at me in silence.
I closed my eyes as a headache broke inside of me. My breaths came heavy as I was hurrying to say what I wanted to say before my thoughts were erased. Everything I felt at this time was just in my heart, and I just wanted to say I’m sorry.
“Get out,” I moaned breathlessly.
I knew that I didn’t mean to say this, but my mouth and heart did.
I opened my eyes, and still Lewis didn’t move. He was standing there like a tree for a long time as if he
My heart beat fast. I couldn’t help but feel like I didn’t have any chance left for this life.
“I told you to leave.”
I was feeling like I was going to die, and I glared at him when he stood there like a statue. “What do you want? Do you want me to write an official letter signed by the president of the country asking you to get the heck out?! Just what do you want? Why do you act like you did nothing and are so innocent?! You’re a hypocrite! How do you still dare to live after breaking my heart like that?! Huh? You say you love me and want to make this work, but have you ever thought about what I wanted?! You guys just keep coming in my life and going as you wish. But did you ever care about me? Did you ever think what I wanted?! No! It’s because asking me a question will hurt your ego!” I was breathing loudly as I kept saying words that didn’t make any sense. I walked toward him and pushed him toward the door with all my effort. “I wish you could just die! Get out of my house! Right now, or else I’ll cut my hands and die before your eyes!”
Lewis kept staring at my face as a hint of sadness flashed in his eyes. Then he lowered his head and opened the door before walking out without saying a single word. I was left alone in the room, shivering with cold as a gust of wind travelled inside through the window, but right now, my body was burning with anger. I didn’t care about what I just said and what my future would be. All I could think was how Vampire left me broken-hearted. So I vented all of the pent up anger on my husband.