Day 51-55
It was soon the 51st day and on this date, Vampire and I sat in front of each other in the same coffee shop. To be honest, I hadn’t expected us to sit before each other like this again in this familiar place. This was the coffee shop we would meet every day.
Recently, he had always been coming home and discussing work with me at home right in front of my husband, who would act like he hadn’t seen anything and would go out to diligently search for a job as I advised him before.
But today, things suddenly made another turn when I heard him asking to meet me at this shop. There should be something he wanted to say that he aspired to hide from Lewis. I narrowed my eyes on him.
He saw my expression and coughed before averting his eyes. He hadn’t talked about private things these days, and now that they were finally alone, he couldn’t help but feel awkward. When he succeeded in gaining my attention, he poured coffee into my cup and said, “I wanted to say something.”
I could tell, so I wasn’t surprised. I just nodded and sat there like an obedient girl. What I didn’t know was that to Vampire, this kind of obedient look of mine made him stunned and he felt his heart flutter inside his chest.
After sitting at that place for eternity, Vampire placed his hands before him and glanced at me with a serious expression on his face. “I can’t delay this anymore. Elise, let’s date.”
I raised my head and glanced at him in surprise. Dating again? Hadn’t we tried that already and failed miserably? They had such a good relationship before that, and when they actually started dating, a misunderstanding ruined it all! I wasn’t ready to lose Vampire like that again. If I wanted to keep him around me, I knew that I shouldn’t be too greedy.
I had already suffered enough, and I didn’t want to cry anymore. I didn’t want to lose him.
Suddenly, my husband’s words flashed in my mind, and I lowered my head to hide my expression. I could tell how he felt last night because I was feeling the same thing right now. I knew that I couldn’t keep Vampire anymore in my life, but I wasn’t ready to lose him. I couldn’t not see him every day!
He was the first person who made my heart feel alive again after so many months. How could I let him go so easily?
But I also didn’t want to say no directly. This was Vampire, the person I loved from my heart and soul. Could I see him making a depressed expression if I refused? I knew I couldn’t.
Vampire bit his lips and continued to observe my expression without blinking. He was nervous, but he still waited for me to choose something.
At the same time, I pressed my lips in a thin line and made a decision…
I raised my head and forced a smile on my lips. “Vampire….”
When he saw this kind of expression on my face, he pursed his lips and said, “Oh, I get it. You don’t have to say a word. I understand, and support your decision.”
Even though he said that I could see a sad expression on his face. My heart sank, and I instantly lowered my head to stop myself from crying my eyes out.
It looked like we couldn’t make a conversation anymore. So I placed the money for the coffee on the table and slipped out of the shop quickly, heading straight toward the bridge.
After reaching home, I saw my untidy bed and suddenly, I felt my eyes tearing up. I remembered my husband cleaning the entire house every single day without speaking a word. And now that he was going out every day in search of a job upon my advice, the house was back to how it was before.
The bed was unclean, untidy dishes were in the sink, and even the clothes weren’t washed as they filled the tub beside the washing machine. I pursed my lips and decided to finally act as a good wife and rolled up my sleeves.
A few hours later, I was done with the household work. and finally rested on the chair before the computer, wiping the sweat off of my forehead.
I was about to turn on the computer when I remembered that I had to wash the clothes. I would have to take it out of the tub and put it into the washing machine first.
I dragged my feet into the bathroom and opened the washing machine. But when I reached inside to take out the clothes, I instantly froze.
“Wh-What?” I exclaimed out loud.
I was shocked to see that the washing machine was full of dirty clothes. It was already in the washing machine. I couldn’t believe my eyes. Then I glanced at the tub full of dirty clothes and a groan escaped my lips.
Why were there so many dirty clothes in the tub?!
I shook my head and continued the work. Just when I finished washing the clothes and stretched my back, I jolted when I found Lewis standing there, leaning on the door frame of the washroom. “When did you come here?”
He didn’t reply and shrugged before turning back. I stared at him in confusion. How long had he been standing here watching me wash clothes so clumsily? I pursed my lips and sighed. Forget it. It wasn’t like my husband hadn’t seen my weird side before.
after doing all the household work, I finally turned the computer on while Lewis went into the kitchen wearing an apron on his waist. He didn’t say a single word until now, and continued to act as if nothing happened, and that he wasn’t staring at me while washing clothes.
For the next few days, me and my husband spent time together just like that, and I distanced myself from Vampire while continuing the novel. Even though the novel was still going on according to the storyline that we had chosen, I no longer compared the male lead to Vampire anymore.
What was the use of doing that? I knew I would only hurt myself and stop writing. Now that I am in the top ten, I knew that I couldn’t let myself sink in the relationship that was no longer possible. My first goal was gaining recognition through the novels anyway. So I shouldn’t matter whether I and Vampire were a thing or not.
But what else could I do? The moment I see his dull eyes staring at me with emotions hidden deep inside before he would try to suppress his desires, I would melt. My eyes would fill with tears, but I would continue to be stubborn and pretend that we were just meeting for professional reasons, nothing more.
It hurt more than anything I had experienced, but I didn’t have a choice.
I had to endure this pain.
As for my husband, he seemed to be getting happier as the day passed. I could see changes in his expression as his shoulders seemed more relaxed. I felt a trace of warmth at this. At least I could make someone happy. It didn’t matter whether my heart was shattering into pieces or not. I didn’t think I could focus on my heart anymore.