I was emotional for the entire time. After talking to my husband, I got back to writing the novel, but no matter how much I tried, I couldn’t think of anything. But I still had to write something. I glanced at the diamond bracelet on my wrist and sighed.
My husband just spent more than half of his savings to buy me this gift. And if I wouldn’t work to earn that money back, I wouldn’t be able to pay him back at all! So inspiration hit my mind as my fingers danced along the keyboard. Finally, I managed to write something even though the Chapter looked more like a piece of something I wrote on a whim.
I knew I would later have to edit this, but I didn’t care. Even though I changed the storyline a bit, readers would still like the story. It wasn’t necessary to follow the outline perfectly so that I would end up writing the exact thing mentioned in the summary. I had the power to change things while writing depending on the character development.
So at this time, I was a little angry at Vampire. So I changed a little bit and made the Chapter look like the protagonist had hurt the female lead, and then went away, leaving her behind. So she only had one choice left, and that was to be with her husband.
I knew this was something that was actually happening with me in real life, but I didn’t care. I really wanted to write as fast as I could before I lost my motivation. So after that, I went ahead and jotted down another Chapter. I didn’t even realize what time it was by the time I stretched my hands and got up from my seat.
And as soon as I stood up, I saw my husband coming out of the kitchen wearing an apron. He paused after seeing me standing before him and reacted instantly. “Want to eat dinner?”
I nodded and sat on the dining table and glanced at Lewis’s back. The scene before my eyes right now overlapped with that of the time when my husband had just invited me for dinner for the first time when we were dating.
He was excited back then, although his poker face didn’t give anything away. You would end up missing out on the tiny emotions on his face if you failed to glance at him with keen eyes. Back then, I had observed his eyes brightening when I had tasted the food made by him and said it was delicious.
Today also it felt the same. The only difference was that our relationship wasn’t the same as before. I didn’t have any feelings for him as my heart ached for Vampire, who left me alone for another girl out there. The thought hurt me so much that I nearly lost my appetite.
Still I ate with my husband after a long time and went to bed.
Just as I sat down on the bed, I saw my husband walking inside and hesitating. His mouth opened and closed until I sighed and said, “Just say what you want.”
Lewis pursed his lips and said, “Nothing. Go to sleep.”
I narrowed my eyes on him but didn’t say anything, lying on my side of bed. Usually, whenever we would sleep together, my back would be facing him, and I would keep a bunch of pillows between us.
Today I unconsciously did the same thing and slept on my side. Lewis also walked over after washing up. I heard him shuffling up the blankets before he got to bed. For a moment, silence engulfed us, and I could clearly hear the sound of our breathing.
Usually, I wouldn’t focus on what my husband was doing because he would instantly end up sleeping, and I would end up hearing a slowly breathing sound. But today, I heard him changing his sides constantly, which made me realize that perhaps my husband wasn’t getting any sleep.
But wasn’t I the same either? I had been thinking about Vampire so much that my heart broke every time I took a breath. After half an hour, I was still wide awake, and even tears stained my cheeks. I cried silently as I tried to suppress the pain in my heart, but that didn’t work either.
Vampire had given me too many memories, and now when he had chosen someone else over me, I didn’t know where to go with those sweet moments.
I could only let myself drown in the sea of depression.
Finally, I couldn’t take it anymore. I removed all the pillows from the middle. Then I turned around and hugged Lewis as I moved closer to him. At this point, I didn’t care about the fact that I had filed for a divorce recently. I didn’t care about anything else, but pain.
My heart was practically bleeding because of what had happened with Vampire earlier today. So I could only cling to the only source of warmth, even though it was my husband whom I didn’t love anymore.
After a long time, just when I thought Lewis would change sides again, I felt his hands on my caressing my back and suddenly touching me down there with his fingers. I gasped in surprise.. I was stunned, but before I could react, He pulled me closer to him. At this time, our bodies were practically sticking to each other.
His hand went directly on my chest and gently played with my breasts.
I instantly realized what my husband wanted and why he had been restless all this time. But before I could stop him, he leaned toward my ears and whispered in a hesitant voice, “Can we do it tonight? Please?”
I wanted to do it and then satisfy Lewis, especially since he was being so sweet to me. But when I wanted to say yes, the words couldn’t pop out of my throat. I finally couldn’t say anymore and sobbed, hugging my husband tightly.
Whenever I was about to say yes and have sex with Lewis, the scenes about how I was in Vampire’s embrace a while ago flashed in my eyes. I felt a lump in my throat. “I’m sorry…”
I could hear my husband sighing before he caressed my back gently. “It’s fine. It’s not your fault.”
“No, it’s entirely my fault. If only I hadn’t met him, we would be fine. And now look at me.” I cried even more after confessing everything to him. I didn’t know what I was saying anymore. It was just that I wanted to get those words out of my system. And when I finally said everything, I realized what I did.
I was about to glance at Lewis’s face when he suddenly opened his mouth. “I told you, Elise. It’s not your fault. I’m the reason you became like this.”
At these words, I cried even more, I clutched onto his shirt and moved even closer. My tears made his shirt wet, but I wasn’t in a mood to care about it. After a while, I suddenly felt my head getting damp as if drops of water were being poured on me. I was stunned at that.
Was Lewis crying? I let out a sob at that.
It was just that I knew my husband was crying for me, but in my heart, I was crying for Vampire.