Ava
I was sitting in my balcony, thinking about how my life is going to change. It will be so different from now on.
I was going to be Mrs. Sean Dell. This knowledge scared me to death. I don’t know how I’m going to manage being all of this. But I hope for the best.
I see a bird in the sky soaring very high. Next, feels like I’m the opposite of that Bird in sky. I feel like I’m shackled on the ground. With nowhere to go.
I packed everything so that I can leave this place. This place was my home for so long. Now, I feel like I am losing a part of myself.
I take my scorpion grasses plant pot. I always talked with it, when I had no one to talk to. I told him about my days, whether they be happy or sad.
They were with me when no one else was there for me. That’s why I love plants. I love talking to them. I love sharing my sorrows, my griefs, and even my successes with them. Anyone else is not interested into it actually, so I have to talk to them as I’m pretty lonely.
Then my brother Sam came to me and we hugged each other. I told him that I’m leaving for some time, but I didn’t tell him that I’m going to get married. I wonder how he will remain. I’ve never left him alone for so many days, but I have to do it now. I’m going to miss my little brother at the lot.
He was sitting on the couch playing video games, but I know he was not paying a single attention to the game. His all attention was on me and the things I was packing and my final things that I was taking with me. He looked quite sad about my departure.
Then he looked up from the video games and looked at me with those sad eyes. And I couldn’t help myself, and my eyes welled with tears and love from my brother.
“Don’t be so sad.” I told him as I should have, but I know it won’t help him as he will be sad cause I’m going.
“Everything changed in an instant. He told me sadly. Things were going so different just a few days ago and now all of a sudden our lives are messed up.” He told me sadly very sadly and I hated seeing the sadness on my brother’s face.
“Don’t worry, it is just a phase. It will pass and will be as better as new. So you don’t worry about it, OK?” I told him with easing his pain. At least I hope that it would ease his pain, but it didn’t help much.
“OK, sister. Please take care of yourself. Favor. I know I won’t be there to do it. Even though it’s one you, the one who takes cares of me. I still make sure that you eat properly. And I’ll make sure even when you’re gone that you eat properly. I will be bugging you every second of the day. So expect my three calls in a day. Every single day, OK?” He told me with a small laugh and jokingly to lighten up the mood. That right now we are so tense that even this joke seems very tense. And nothing can lighten up our mood.
“We’ll meet again after six months. Don’t worry. OK, it’s just a small period of time. That time will pass very fast. Just as we open our eyes and closed, then it will be gone. The six month will be done and we will meet again.” I told him, being the elder sibling is tough. Because you have to be strong for yourself as well.
As for the younger sibling you have. You have to be a sibling of parent or teacher or friend. Everything to them. And growing up without parents have been so tough. I’ve never missed them in my life ever, but drive it now. I really wish that they were here. To help me out of this mess. To make sure we were all right. To make sure I didn’t have to do this all alone.
I really wish my parents were here now. Then I wouldn’t have to face this all alone myself. And Sam would have had someone to look after him as well.
Why did they leave Mom dad? Why can’t you just come back? I thought to myself very sadly. I actually got pretty used to their absence, but right now I miss them a lot.
“All of this is happening very quickly. First, Chris was arrested and went to the word jail and now you are going away for six months. It’s really going to be tough for us.” Sam told me his eyes were starting to water. Oh God, no, I can’t see him cry then I won’t be able to stop myself from sobbing as well.
“Sam, I have decided not to rent our apartment. Cause, once we rented and we don’t find another house in six months will be very disappointed with this House is pretty perfect. You can come and stay here whenever you want, OK? Promise me you will be fine and you will take care of yourself.” I told him and then asked him with words turn. So that he would promise me.
It’s not like I’m not going to bother him back. Calling him every second, but still, I’m very worried about him. I’ve never left him alone for so many days.
“I understand last why you’re not selling this House, and yes, I promised to take care of myself, but only if you do it yourself aspect. You have to take care of yourself, Eva. Yes, been taking care of me for so long, but you never take care of yourself. You have to do it now, OK?” He told me like an older brother, even though he’s the younger one.
“But I don’t think I will come here anytime soon, Eva. I can’t come here if you are not over here.” He told me sadly.
“Why not? I’m leaving my plants well, at least some of them, cause, I cannot take all of them with me. So you have to water them so at least come for the plants. OK,” I told him with a burst of strained laughter.
I took some photo frames from the table. The photo frame had mine and Sam’s photo together. I have put them in my bag. Along with other things.
“It’s good that you are with me, Sam.” I told him with tears in my eyes.
“It’s good that you are even. Now, come here and hug your brother. And say goodbye to him.” He said to me with a smile and then extended his arms so that I could hug him.
I took him in my arms and encased him in my hug completely and they gave him a bone crushing hug for a long time.
Damn, I’m going to miss my brother.